hurting my loved ones

I know exactly what you mean. The same thing happens with me, particularly with my mum. I feel like i've completely messed up her life and made her really unhappy. So whenever she feels low i blame myself, even when it's nothing to do with me. That makes her even more annoyed because she thinks i'm always thinking that everything revolves around me, which isn't the case at all.

The only advice i can think to offer,is that it isn't your fault that you have an ED, so if it making things hard for those around you, that isn't your fault either. And always remeber, you will beat this - and juat think about how happy everyone will be to know you're ok. If they seem upset it's just because they care about you, not because they're mad at you.

I'm not so good on advice but i hope this helped just a little bit,

Keep fighting it, you'll get there,

love mai xx

Thankyou.

I just always do feel that everyone is mad at me because of it, and i feel like they blame me for this  I do feel it is my fault though.

Glad someone else knows how I feel, not glad that you have to go through it too though. *hugs*

take care. xx

i completely understand :)

my dad gets mad at me all the time and i don't understand why. He knows i have an ED but he told my mum that i don't and that i'm lying, and im attention seeking blahblahblahhhhhhh.

it still goes on cos he is a ridiculous man, but my mum told me soemthing and it just makes you realise WHY you won't to get better ..:)

My mother told me that if i want to get better it's going to be for ME. no one else. That really motivated me because i realised i wasn't happy, and i wanted to do soemthing about it.

Lollipop... you shouldn't care what ANYONE thinks or says about this. I understand it can be difficult when you have no one to drop on to but push through it girl :) 

Your family probably hate seeing you like this, and it is probably getting them upset because they don't want to watch you suffer. But what it is doing to them emotionally, is clearly effecting you. Just remember yor recovering for yourself and not the people around you no matter how upset or guilty they make you feel, just kind of push it to the side until you get better, cos otherwise it will get in the way .

People who don't have eating disorders find it difficult to understand them, so maybe you should sit down and talk it all through with your family  :)  tell them what goes on... i will help them understand a bit more about your situation and maybe provide you with a bit more support :)

It's NOT your fault...noooo wayyyyy :) you cannnot help this at all but you can beat it :)

you'll get better. :)

keep going

Kitty xx