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Hiya,

Firstly really really well done for admitting that you have got a problem that is not a difficult thing to do and you have taken your first step in recovery by doing so!

I think the first thing u need to do is to tell your parents about your issues and then tell your GP.I know I make this sound like its going to be easy and belive me I know it isn't but its something you need to do in order to get better.How old are you?

There are some great medical support out ther for you and with the BEAT website too which has some amzing people. What kind of things do u do that makes u think you have got an ED?

Let me know how u are and what u are deciding to do?

Love Jennyxxxx

Hey,

WELL DONE for posting on here, i no how scary it is. But hopefully now it wont be so bad and you will be able to gain support from all of the great people on here!

Hun, what are your main problems with food? I am bulimic, but there are people on these boards that suffer from all types of eating disorders. We all do understand though, so please don't feel alone.

ED's can make you feel so isolated and they seem to take up your whole life. They override all your thoughts and it is hard to cope. Have you ever spoken to anyone about your problems?

How are you today?

Love Roxy xxxxxxxxx

I am 22.

I moved out of my parents house nearly 2 years ago but my problem has been getting worse over the past year or so. My parents would not understand my problem because one day they would say i was fat and the next they have a go at me for not eating, i cant win with them. I belive my mum has a problem but will not admit it. I have had a number of problems with my stomock (IBS). But after i had tests and a number of visits they knew it was nothing more then that. I then went to my GP and tryed to explain my problems with my eating but they seamed to dismiss it. I never have trusted doctors and hate talking.So i am left to deal with it myself. So i started to stop eating certain foods to "stop my stomch from hurting".Infact i now believe i only do it to get away with not eating and its an excuse i can used at work and it goes unoticed.

I also cant help reading the packets to see how many calaries it has.It doesnt matter how many i eat but in my head i can only have *.Even tho i proberly eat alot less.  You see on programs...a table spread out with what people eat in a week. I see what i eat in my head all the time.  I can see it and it makes me feel sick. The thought of food makes me feel sick and i feel like eating is so boring and teadeus.I have made myself sick befor and i try so hard not to do it now.

When i get up the first thought, right go to eat.....but i put it off and off and off and then its already * o`clock.Then the thought of haveing to eat cas i havent eaten all day makes me feel worse. So then inside i beat myself up about it and then in my head i have had a bad day and cas i have had a bad day i eat even less.

Its so long and complicated in my head,with so may rules and habits i cant control it anymore and i think it is making me ill. I dont know what to do...I cant talk to my parents or a GP.I dont like talking to people about me because i feel i am a berdon. I keep to myself and i look after myself.

Sorry for wittering.....feel a bit better now...if u can understand what i mean, as i find it really hard to find the right words.

loopyi am xxx

Hiya,

Your not wittering hun these are what these boards are for expressing yourself!

I really would urge you to see someone about this you are not a burden at all this is what GP's get paid for  helping people.I know how hard it its though believe me but I really think this is the best thing for you!

You really derseve to be free from this and I am always here to chat!

xxx

Hey,

ED's are hell hun but you really do not need to go through this alone. When i first went to the doctors to get help i didn't go to my registered GP because he knew my family too well. Instead i asked to see a woman doctor, and they assigned me with the GP i see now. I felt that it would be easier to talk to a woman about what i was going through. You do not have to see your regular GP, everyone in the doctors practice are able to see you. Perhaps you could go and see another doctor? Maybe they will take you more seriously? Hun you have a right to see someone more than your GP about this. You cant give up until they give you help. Perhaps you could be asked to be referred to a CPN, and then they will be able to assess you further?

It sounds like you are really struggling at the moment and i think you need some help with this. Not even the strongest of people are able to do this without professional help, and i am the first the admit that i cannot do this without them. It doesn't mean that i am weak, it just means that i need some help to fight the voice.

You do not need to tell your parents at first. Again i didn't. I was seeing professionals for a few months before my parents found out. It is just so great to be able to let your problems out, and it relieves alot of the problems.

I find it hard to talk about myself too, i just prefer to bottle everything up inside me. But professionals have come across this so many times, and are trained at being able to help you.

You do not need to apologise for wittering! It is what we are here for....to listen, support and try and give advice, you are never alone

Take care,

Love Roxy xxxxxxxx

P.s i am really sorry if i have come across pushy at all, just i really want you to get better and be away from this ED.

Ok i have heard it now from more then one person....I need to go to the doctors.I will do once i move house.Hopefully that wont be long.Yes i am putting it off and another excuse not to go but at least this way its a new start.For now i will sit tight and hopefully ill find answers for now!

Loopiam xx

Ok i have heard it now from more then one person....I need to go to the doctors.I will do once i move house.Hopefully that wont be long.Yes i am putting it off and another excuse not to go but at least this way its a new start.For now i will sit tight and hopefully ill find answers for now!

Loopiam xx