Do I have an ED?

Hey Babe
I'm 12 and i think I know how you feel - It's the same with me. I don't know if i'm just being paranoid, if i have an eating disorder, if i'm making a big deal out of nothing .. Anything. I just want to know if i do have an eating disorder or not, it would really help to get my head straight. So it would be like yes you have an ED - Get help. Or no you don't have an ED - Just eat a bit more.
does anyone know where or how i can get a dianosis or whatever??
Anwyay Keep Going Strong Sweetie.
*Hugs*
Always here to talk to.
-0x

hey hunni,

sorry to hear that you are feeling like this sweetie

it sounds like you are doing what I was doing abour 1 1/2 - 2 years ago, and I have only just realised that what I was doing was not normal eating.

is there anyone you feel you could talk to about how you are feeling hunni? a friend? relative? teacher? anyone at all?

will always be here for you if you need to talk about anything hun.

lexy -xxx-

p.s. how old are you?

Hi to you both!

Thankyou so much for your replies. It means a lot that you're trying to help!

I know what you mean, I wish I could know if I need to eat more or if I've actually got an ED! I think you could go to the doctors and tell them how you feel and things and see what they say, maybe they could diagnose you or something. Sorry if I'm not being much help, I don't know much myself and I'm so scared to go to the doctors, but I guess we have just got to push ourselfs and find out what's happening!  I'm sorry you felt the same both of you, I know it's hard so I hope you're both okay! I don't really know anyone I could talk to, it scares me to talk about it and let someone else know what's happening, maybe soon i will pick up the courage to let someone now! Thankyou for your advice though!

I'm always here for both of you to talk to, about anything and I hope you're both doing well!

I'm 16 by the way, is that a normal age or am I just odd? I feel it half the time!

Thankyou, speak soon!

Stay strong both of you!

Leah :) xxx

hey hunni,

I don't think there is a normal age to have an eating disorder to be honest. everyone is different.

I'm 17 and so am quite close in age, but there are people of many different ages on the boards.

you are not odd hunni, just ill - you can get rid of this illness, but it will take a lot of strength and courage.

the only way you can be 'diagnosed' with an ed it to go to your GP, but I think that, deep down, you yourself know whether you have an eating disorder or not - we just generally choose to try and deny it.

stay strong,

take care sweetie,

always here for you *hugs*,

lexy -xxx-

Hey :)

Thankyou for all your help and support hun, really kind of you.

Yeah I guess everyone is different, I know of a lot of young people who have had ED's in the past. Yeah I have read posts from all different ages too!

Thankyou, it's nice to have someone telling me I'm not odd and weird, I don't know if I have the strength and courage right now I'm petrefied of going to the GP. I'm afraid he will think I'm stupid because I'm not underweight or anything, I'm not thin at all. But yes, you're right, I guess we do try and deny it!

Hope you're okay, stay strong and take care also!

Hope things are going okay with you?

Always here for you,

Love Leah  :) xxx

hey sweetie,

you're welcome = )

you can't force yourself to go if you don't want to hun as you won't be honest if you don't want to be there, but really do think about it. you really need to push if you do decide to go hunni - you may not be underweight but you are still suffering the same as anyone who is.

I'm sure you already know, but ed's are about feelings hunni, not how much you weigh.

things are very up and down for me at the moment tbh hun. I've got my job which is keeping me afloat and I love going to work, but things at home are difficult.

always here if you need me,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

hey i would really encourage you to go to doctor. im 19 nearly 20, and i was exact same as u 4 yrs ago. and i didnt go to the dr, co i didnt think i had an ed, or actually i probably did know i had one, but didnt want to admit it. so actually i didnt go to dr for fear of not being believed and because i wasnt thin enough.. i was also normal weight. but part of me really wanted help, i knew then deep down that i needed help. my periods stopped just after i turned 16. well when i eventually went to the drs age 19, i had been underweight, barely eating, then bingeing and had put on weight. guess this is the stage im at now. and so so low. and depressed and it kinda took over my life. and i am getting help now. and i know i shudnt look back to the past and wish i could change things, because ive gota work on the future. but i so wish i could get those 4 wasted years of my life back. so badly wish id plucked up the courage to go to the doctor then. and u no wot, actually it was nowhere near as bad as i thought wen i finally made it to the drs. just wish id gone sooner. now ive got a lot further to climb back. so please please go to the doctors. if they think ur stupid (which i doubt) go to another doctor. some are better than others. hope ur doin ok hugs love hollie xxx

Hi there

Thanks for all your replies. They have all been so helpful and I feel so much better after reading what you all have to say! I might go to the doctors I don't know really. After what you said about wasting 4 years and you wish you had gone, that makes me really want to go, so I'm really thinking about just doing it. I have just got to pick up that courage to pick up the phone and make an appointment...If I do go it will be on my own. I don't really feel I have any to talk to, I don't feel I want to confide in anyone right now, I don't want anyone to know. But thankyou for suggesting that it helps and thinks, maybe I will talk to a friend soon, when I have been to the doctors maybe. I  hope you're all doing okay, I know things are up and down for you all and it's so hard, I really hope things start to improve and never do anything but. If any of you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm always here :)

And thankyou once again for all your help and stories that really have made me think different and realise I really should just go to the doctors, before it's to late!

So thankyou.

Good luck to you all,

always here, big hugs,

Leah :) xxx

hey hunni,

you are more than welcome sweetie.

I know that it is scary, but you should feel proud that you are even contemplating going to the doctors as you have been able to admit to yourself that you may need help.

good luck to you hunni,

am always here if you need me,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey,

thankyou :)

It is very scary but I am thinking about going to the doctors, I'm really unsure but it's at the back of my mind that I perhaps should just do it, even though I still kinda feel there is nothing wrong with me but then there is a tiny part that knows there must be, it's confusing, I guess I will just keep thinking hard and try and pick up the courage to go, just have to see what time brings!

Thankyou, good luck to you also!

Hope things are looking positive for you!

I'm always here if you ever need someone to confide in, thanks again for all your help, was really hoping I would find someone to talk to on here! So thankyou!

Take care, big hugs :)

Love Leah x-x-x

hey sweetheart,

same goes for you sweetie.

I know how it feels just to know that someone will be there to listen should you ever need them to. it's such a relief.

I felt the same to start with hunni (and generally still do). I didn't want to admit to myself that anything was wrong, but deep down I knew that my eating was not 'normal'.

just hang in there sweetheart. you can beat this, but it will take time and a lot of strength.

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey hun,

Aw thankyou! I'm glad you understand what I mean, it is a huge relief, before I came on here I did feel like there was absolutely no-one to talk to, I'm glad I can just come and talk here now, so thankyou :)

Yeah, I know deep down something isn't normal. I'm sitll trying to push myself, I agree it will take time and strength, I just have to keep thinking that when I start to think I'm never going to get better!

Thankyou for sharing how you feel with me, I hope you're doing okay and things are improving! You can beat this too :) What is going on for you at the moment? Are you having treatment and things? Hope you don't mind me asking. I understand if you don't want to say!

Take care, and thankyou again!

Love Leah -x-x-x-

hey sweetheart!

of course I don't mind you asking!! at the moment I am seeing a counsellor, individual therapist, family therapist, my gp and my nurse.

I don't find them all particularly helpful tbh, but I haven't been seeing some of them for that long and so I guess it may take time before I start to notice a difference.

I think things have kind of gone backwards a little bit tbh, but hey I guess it's not going to be one easy ride and I'm pretty sure this won't be the last time things feel as though they aren't working out, but it can be beaten and so I'm not giving up hope yet =)

let me know how things are going sweetie,

take care,

loads of love,

lexy -xxx-

Hey :)

Aw I'm glad you don't mind me asking :) It's great you are seeing all those poeple, even though you don't find them helpful you might do soon, when you have seen them longer, I really hope you do and start to notice a difference to! May I ask what ED you were diagnosed with? Sorry if I'm getting to personal, do tell me not to be if you wish!

I'm sorry things are going backwards for you at the minute, but I guess it's not going to be an easy ride and I really hope things start to go forward and things start to improve, you deserve to be free of this and happy! It's so good to hear you say it can be beaten and you're not giving up hope, I hope you  never give up because it can be beaten, you're very right! It's just courage that's stopping me!

I really hope things start to get better for you soon also, and the people helping you starts to make a difference :)

Let me know how things are going to hun, thanks for letting me in, always here for you :)

Take care,

lots of love,

Leah -xxx-

you're more than welcome sweetheart!!

of course I don't mind! I've learnt it's nothing to be ashamed of. not something to be shouted from the rooftops but if people really want to know and really do care then I'm not embarassed to tell them.

I was diagnosed with anorexia at the family appointment I first went to, but since then it has been more binge eating, although now I'm kind of going back to my anorexic behaviours again. it's all so confusing!!

my individual therapist and my counsellor I do find quite helpful it's just the others that seem a bit pointless lol.

you're an incredibly courageous person to even come on here sweetheart. it took me months to summon up the courage to join, and even if you only share your thoughts here for now it is a start, and a very good one!

let me know how things are going!

take care sweetie,

lexy -xxx-

Thankyou!

I'm glad you don't mind. I like to be here for someone to talk to or just someone to listen when you need to just say something. I'm glad you have learnt it's nothing to be ashamed of, I think I still need to learn that, I still feel stupid when I think about it all, like I'm being pathetic and people would think that of me if they found out. But I'm glad you have learnt that :)

I'm sorry it's all so confusing and things are starting to go back to there old ways, I guess you will be up and down but I hope soon things stay on the up side! Lol oh dear, bit of a bum you find the others a bit pointless, but at least some of the help your receiving you feel is helpful already :) When were you diagnosed? Has this whole thing been going on long for you?

Thankyou for what you said, that made me smile. I was so nervous about coming on here, just like you, took me so long to finally write something on here, felt like I was letting everything out into the open, but I know I'm not, I have found someone so lovely to talk to, that's if you're happy to keep talking, I understand if not ::) It's great you finally picked up the courage to come on here though, I guess it really is a step forward in itself. How did you start to get help? Did you just pick up the courage and go to the doctors one day? It must of been and still be so hard for you!

Let me know how things are going for you also, always here for you :)

Take care hun,

Stay strong!

Love Leah -xxx-

of course I'm happy to talk sweetheart!! I wouldn't be on here otherwise!

I do still feel stupid when I really think about my eating, but that's my own opinion and anyone else who feels that way can get lost as far as I'm concerned. I don't judge them for anything they do and so they shouldn't judge me either.

I was diagnosed november time last year but have been having issues with food for a lot longer.

the first thing I did was told a teacher at my school last may, and then my mum took me to the doctors in september and he just dismissed it but she took me back again and I was referred to an ed clinic, but because I'm 17 nowhere would take me as technically I'm too old for child/adolescent services but too young for adult services.

hope you're okay sweetheart!!

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Aw thankyou, of course you wouldn't be on here otherwise, silly question! Sorry

You shouldn't feel stupid, it's nothing to be ashamed of or to feel stupid about as you didn't try for this to happen, it just does again, and it's so hard to stop what you have started! I know that one! I'm glad you feel they shouldn't judge you, because I don't think they should at all, I would never judge you, that might sound silly because I have never met you, but whatever you tell me I wouldn't judge you by, just so you know :)

Oh right, that's a bit silly really, sorry your to old for child services but to young for adult services, surely you could be treated in child services until you're 18, I thought that's when you turn into an adult hehe! It all sound very hard for you, for them to dismiss you and then finally help you! When you could of been helped sooner! It's so good you told you teacher then you Mum took you to the doctors, I wouldn't have the courage to do that, tell my teacher though, it's so hard! You should be so proud of yourself! May I ask what made you finally tell your teacher? How old were you when your eating started to become abnormal? Hope it's okay to ask :)

It's my birthday tomorrow, going to be 17 myself, my Mum has insisted we all (my family) go out for a meal to celebrate, so I'm not looking forward to that, eating infront of people really scares me! I feel stupid, but it really does!

Thanks for all your help and letting me in on what's happening with you, and I hope things start going forward :)

Hope you're okay hun!

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

awww, happy birthday for yesterday sweetheart!!

it's not silly at all - I'm exactly the same. I feel really self-conscious when eating in front of others and so try to avoid it at all costs.

same goes for you sweetheart - I would never judge anyone by what they told me as everyone is different.

If you had asked me that question a couple of months ago I would have said that my eating was abnormal from last march time (so 16), but looking back I would say that I have never really had normal eating.

I first told my teacher as she knew that things had been difficult at home for me for a while, but didn't know quite how bad it was. I was finding getting all my work done incredibly difficult, and occasionally I would just end up in her office in tears because I couldn't cope with everything that was going on.

I've just been told that I'm going to go on a meal plan from saturday, and I'm really scared as I have to eat much more than I try and eat at the moment.

let me know how things are going sweetheart,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

p.s. can I ask your story? i.e. how everything started etc.?

Aw thankyou, and thanks for letting me in on how you feel about eating infront of other people to. It makes me feel less silly if I know I'm not the only one. So thankyou, it was difficult, I didn't eat much, just told my family I wasn't hungry. Didn't enjoy it really but hey it's done now :) So thankyou and for not judging me, really appreciate that!

I'm sorry to hear you're eating has been going on for so long and sorry that things have been bad at home and at school with your work. Must be so hard, I find it hard to get all my work done to but I also think that if I sit and do it my mind is taken off of all of this and food and that, could you try that? Just try and keep yourself busy? Sorry if that's not much help at all. Bless, really am sorry for everything that has happened at school, have things improved at school yet?

Oh right, that must be scary but they're only doing it to get you better and helpyou recover. It must be so hard, but good look on you meal plan and I'm always hear if you ever need support during the plan :) I guess you could think of it as medicine that you have to take to get better, not sure if that helps but I guess you could try? You have to be strong, and I'm always here to help you through :)

Course you can ask, I have asked you many questions so I'm more than happy to answer :) My story...Well I'm not sure, jsut everything seem to be going wrong at home and then when I started high school at the age of 11/12 everything seemed bad there to and I just felt horrible, then I just suddenly got obsessed about my body image and loosing weight and restricting food, I felt so in control, and that's the only thing I could control. I don't know it's strange, now it's just all out of control, restricting has gone out of the window, and it's just a mess now if you know what I mean! Sorry it's not much of a story on how it all started, I'm unsure myself, but thankyou for asking, it's nice to be able to share my feelings and all of this with you :) You can share anything with me :)

Thankyou again for all your help and I hope things start to improve, let me know how you're getting on and good look again for Saturday and then on :)

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

you're more than welcome! well done for getting through it sweetheart!

I do tend to try and keep myself busy, but then find that I am keeping myself too busy lol!

things haven't really improved much at school. my friends have gone a bit strange and I don't really like hanging around with them much at the moment, but hopefully things will get better some time soon.

awww, bless you. can I ask what went wrong at home? don't worry if it's too personal a question - I completely understand!

starting the meal plan tomorrow now as the woman missed my appointment, but still really don't want to.

let me know how things are going,

take care sweetheart,

lexy -xxx-

Hey hun,

Aw thankyou, that's really kind of you. Yeah I agree with the to busy thing, I then find myself with no spare at all, is it the same for you?

I'm sorry to hear things haven't really improved much at school. I'm sure your friends just find it hard and just want you to get better so you can be you again :) Sorry if that's not much help, do you hang around with other people then? It's nice to hear you saying things will get better in time, because they will I'm sure :)

Course you can ask, I don't mind at all :) Nothings to personal! Hm well my parents broke up and it went really messy, my Dad met somone else and I had to chose between my parents and it was just so hard and all messed up! Do you know what I mean? May I ask how it all started for you? Like what happened? Sorry if you mind me asking! 

Oh sorry your appointment was missed. I hope the plan has started off okay? What sort of things have they put you on? I do hope you're okay! I guess you just got to try so hard :)

I do hope you're alright and let me know how things are going, thankyou for all your help and for talking :)

Take care hun,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

I really do have no time at all at the moment!! I was asked to be in 3 places at once during unch today and I just hate feeling like I have let people down, but obviously I had to let someone down.

yeh, I do hang around with other people. although the people that I hang around with has changed quite a lot over the past few months due to everything that has happened.

awww sweetheart! *hugs* yeh, I know what you mean. my mum and dad are divorced and we went through a long court process of who me and my brothers were going to live with as both my mum and my dad were fighting for custody.

I don't really know how it all started for me to be honest. I went through a really diffiult time around this time last year as my mum and stepdad both had severe depression so I was doing a lot of the caring around the house and was falling behind on school work and things, and then I started seeing a counsellor just for someone to talk to, and I started restricting from there. I guess maybe to make a statement that things were a lot harder than I was making out to everyone around me that they really were.

Im not doing the meal plan as I told her that I didn't want to and so they decided that it wouldn't work which didn't go down too well with my best friend. (we've had a lot of quite nasty arguments recently).

I ended up in tears after my dress rehearsal today and will now have to face everyone on monday which will not be fun!

on a plus I have a guy coming over tomorrow night to watch a film or something which should be good.

sorry this was such a long and depressing post sweetheart.

how are things going for you?? been up to anything interesting??

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey you :)

Don't be sorry that you post is long or anything, it's not depressing at all, you can share anything with me, as I said I will never judge you!

Yeah, it's hard when you have to choose what to do when there is so many options, I find it so hard to make such the smallest decisions these days, do  you? I hate letting people down to, but your right, we have to? Don't we? Sorry you had to though :)

Yeah, I think my friends are all starting to notice, I have a friend who is anorexic so I really think she is catching on. People are asking like about my weight. I have lost a lot recently. It's hard when all your friends change, I'm sorry they have for you,  but hey there will always be new friends that come along :)

Aw I'm sorry you went through the same Hun. It's hard with all the parents splitting up and all that. Were you young then? Who won custody? I hope you don't mind me asking, I hope you're living where you wanted to as well!  Sorry if that's to personal, I just wondered, I understand if you don't want to answer.

I'm really sorry about everything that has happened for you. Must be so  hard with what your Mum and Step Dad went through and taking all the caring on around the house, may I ask if they're okay now? Do you get along with them?  Must of been really difficult with school work, but it's good you saw a counsellor, I can see what you mean by the way, like it was a way of letting everyone know how you really feel and you could be in control of it, only you as well! Sorry about it all though, I hope it's all much better now!

Oh, it's fair that you're not doing the meal plan if you really don't want to, I guess you have to at least partly want to do something when you do it! Is your best friend and family okay with you now? Hope so :)

Oh hun, why did you end up in tears? Bless you, if there is any thoughts you would like to share or anything you would just like to get out I'm always here!

That's great news about the guy though, how did it go? I hope it went really well and you had loads of fun, you deserve that!

Things are okay with me, up and down at the minute, one day I feel like things are improving all by myself, then it just sprials back down again to where I started! Sorry to be such a downer, I'm sure things will continue to improve and I hope they do for you to!

I would love to chat to you more :)

Hope you're okay!

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

every decision seems like a marathon effort these days!

of course we all have to let people down at some point. it is impossible not to unfortunately.

it was a week before my 9th birthday. I don't seem to have much luck on my birthdays to be honest! my mum won custody in the end, but it took a long old time.

They both still have depression unfortunately and I feel really bad for my eldest brother because a lot of the responsibilty has fallen on him now that I am ill and I hate myself for letting him go through this!

my family are generally okay with me, but mine and my best friends friendship I don't feel can ever be the same again unfortunately. I have told her today but so far have not had a reply, but we shall have to wait and see.

I think it was just the final straw of a bad week lol.

it went really well thanks. my dog liked him! wouldn't leave him alone!! he's coming to see my drama performance tonight as well! =D

you're not a downer at all sweetheart! *hugs* I know it is hard, but try and see the positives hunni. you are having some good days and that is a good thing!

let me know how you are doing,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey you!

Yeah, decisions are the worst for me right now, especially when it comes to college and everything. Really is annoying. Hope this starts to improve for you to! And course it's impossible to not let people down, you're definitely right there!

Oh sorry it all happened just before your birthday when you were so young, that must of been really hard.

Aw hun, you shouldn't feel bad hun, it's understandable that you're trying so hard to recover from this which is so good. Don't hate yourself, it might be hard, but you do have to concentrate on getting better I  guess, sorry if that offends you at all. It must be hard for your brother, does he know and understand everything? Sorry they still have depression, are they improving at all? Hope so :) Do your parents know you're on here?

It's good your family are okay with you, that must help with support. Sorry about your friend, I hope things work out when she replies and you can still be friends at least! I think my family think I have a bit of an obsession with my weight but that's all, I don't think they think anymore to it apart from I try to loose weight. I'm glad they don't know right now because I just can't be bothered with all their fuss.

Aw, well at least your bad week is over and a new and fresh one has started which can be a great one :)

I'm glad you enjoyed yourself with your guy friend, that's really good, really positive. Haha least your dog liked him. Oh that's great, how did your Drama perfomance go? I have one very soon. Are you just friends with this guy? Really happy for you that it went really well :)

Thankyou for saying I'm not a downer, makes me feel a lot better. Yeah it's great to have some good days, makes everything a bit more positive. I hope you are having your good days to :)

You seem like such a lovely girl, looking around all the message boards you are trying to help so many people. That's so nice to, you really should feel proud of yourself for giving your help and talking to so many people and I just want to say thankyou for being here, I don't even know you properly but you have been more help to me than anyone in my life. So thankyou for all your help, I really would love to chat to you more,

Let me know how you're doing also, thanks for everything!

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

it changes from day to day so you never know what sort of atmosphere you're going to come home to!

yeh my parents do know I am on here. I don't think they really know what I talk about on here though mind you lol!

I think the friendship is not really working at the moment unfortunately

my drama performance went fantasticly well thank you!! I was a little miffed about it before today but looking back I can see it went really really well!!

at the moment we are just friends but he has asked to meet me again this weekend so who knows

awww, thank you sweetheart!! *hugs* made me smile =)

you're welcome! I think I should be thanking you! you have done a lot for me!!

let me know how things are going,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey you :)

Yeah I guess it must change, must be hard not knowing what you're going to come home to but I  guess you have got used to it in time, right? Must be difficult with everything that's going on. It's good your parents know you're on here, it doesn't matter they don't know what you're saying, just the fact that you're talking to people should ease there minds a bit?

Sorry that the friendship isn't really working at the moment. I hope that improves for you in time :)

Can I ask how your treatment is going seeing the therapists, nurses and doctors etc? Have you made any progress?

I'm really glad your drama perfomance went really well for you hun. That's great news. You always doubt yourself afterwards but it's awesome that you now see you've done really well!

Aw that sounds lovely, are you seeing him again this weekend then? Do you think it will be good for you to get a boyfriend? Someone to have fun with and take your mind off things, does he know about any of this? Sorry about asking so much, you don't have to answer everything :)

I'm glad it made you smile, I meant all of it. Aw thankyou, you have done a lot for me to, you have really helped, it's great to be able to get everything out to someone who actually listens. So thankyou!

Let me know how you're getting on.

Take care,

Leah :) -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

yeh, I guess to a certain extent I have. I plan my evening and try to stick to it no matter how the people around me feel, although this is sometimes hard as I may have to cook or iron or something because nobody else will do it. I mean I do these things anyway, but its when they HAVE to be done and nobody else will do them.

My best friend is coming over tonight and so I am a little apprehensive.

My treatment is going okay. I get on really well with my therapist and counsellor. I wouldn't say that my eating or mood are greatly changed, but I feel as though there is someone there for me should I need them and that means a lot to me. (I know I have you as well, and am very grateful =))

I went to the cinema with the guy last night and that was quite good.

let me know how things are going,

update me on what has been happening for you. I'm sure it's more interesting than my life! =P

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey hun,

Yeah, that's great you try and stick to it. Must be difficult but if you're determined to stick with your plans then I guess you get to do them! Yeah I know what you mean, it's annoying when things have to be done, I'm a bit like that at home to. Bless!

Oh how did the evening go with your best friend? Hope it was okay :)

Glad your treatment is going okay. Great you get along with them, sorry you don't feel your eating or mood is changing but maybe that just takes a lot of time. It's great to know you have someone there though, I know what you mean, aw thankyou, it's so good that I have you as well to talk to, eases my mind and I am grateful also!

Aw that sounds lovely, glad it was good to!

Nothing much is going on right now but I will fill you in as soon as something interesting comes along! :)

Hope you're okay, always here for you!

Take care,

Leah :) -xxx-

lol, bless you sweetheart!

it went okay. she is coming round again this evening to give me something, but she said she needs to explain it, and that I might not like it, so I'm a little worried lol.

my mood went down over the past couple of days, but is going back to where it has been I think.

let me know how things are going,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Aw I'm glad it went okay. It's good she came round again, did she explain to you? May I ask how that went? Hope it was okay :)

I'm sorry your mood has gone down over the past couple of days, it's great it's getting bet to where you were because you seemed so positive and really trying hard and I hope that's how you carry on :)

Always here for you if you ever need anything, even to just talk, anytime :) Have you ever been on the 1-2-1 chat thing on here? I haven't had chance yet, always missed the times. If you have, do you know who you actually talk to?

But as I said I'm always here! Let me know how things are going :)

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

she gave me a letter that explained how she felt about things and I talked to my counsellor about it this afternoon.

I have been on the 1-2-1 chat and have found it really helpful. I think you speak to a member of the youth team.

let me know how things are going,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey hun :)

Oh right, I hope that was all okay then!

Yeah, I went on there on thursday and found it really helpful. Thanks though! I explained things and they were just urging me to go to the doctors. They asked to ring me as well which I'm really scared about because the whole talking to a stranger about all this stuff really scares me! But I don't know, I might go on again on Monday and talk to them more!

Let me know how things are going to and hope you're okay, thanks for all you're help and always here for you!

Enjoy your weekend!

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

glad you found them helpful. =)

feeling awful. just don't know what to do with myself.

let me know how things are going,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey :)

Aw thankyou.

Why are you feeling awful Hun? What's wrong? I hope you're a bit better today. You can always talk to me :)

Let me know how are you and how you're doing!

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

awww, thank you hunni *hugs*

just high anxiety, eating is terrible, depression is really bad as well.

nothing really in particular, just a mixture of everything.

let me know how things are going,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

I'm the same. I just want to know so I can get help. I've told my parents and they think that I'm just being picky. They don't understand the thoughts behind it. My dad even told me that I just have to help myself. It's really hard when people don't understand. I've been wondering if it was only me thinking like this, worried that I'm just making a fuss out of nothing. I'm really glad I found this site and have seen now that there's others feeling the as I do.

~ SBTH. 

Hey :)

Aw that's okay!

Sorry you're feeling like that hun and everything is not going to well! I'm really not doing well either, my eating is terrible. So you're not alone!

Really sorry it's all like this, hope things really start to look up again!  Keep strong and positive and always in hope!

Always here!

Let me know how you are! Sorry if you feel I'm always pestering you!

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

Hey SBTH!

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling like that way!

It's not fair for your parents to be like that with you, I think you really should sit them down and talk to them about this and tell him about how you're feeling and how you know it's not normal! They need to understand what's going on and not dismiss it! Or you could go to the doctors or see a counsellor and see what they say, then they could talk to your parents and let them know what's going on, if it comes from someone else they might understand more :)

If you feel your eating patterns aren't normal then you can't be making nothing out of something so don't be so hard on yourself! I'm glad I found this site to, talking to people has made me feel a lot better, glad it has for you to!

Sorry you've been going through this though! Hope you're okay!

Let me know how you are, always here to chat :)

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

I do not feel that you are pestering me at all!!!

awww, hun, how is your eating terrible?? *hugs*

let me know how things are going,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey hun :)

Aw thankyou, that's really sweet. How are you feeling today? Any better? I hope so! Hope all things are improving :)

Just keep's changing, restricting then not and you know what I mean. It's all very messed up! Just want to be thin...You know the drill!

Thanks for being there!

Let me know how things are for you :)

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

I definitely know what you are talking about!

things are okay - had therapy today and my therapist said that it was the most anxious and tired she had seen me =(

let me know how things are going,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey!

Aw hun, I'm glad someone does!

Bless ya, sorry to hear that. May I ask why things have gone down hill lately? Did you therapist help you at all?

I hope so and hope things improve!

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

I think just the stress of exams and a lot of people round me going into hospital =(

she didn't really say much, but I am seeing her again on monday, and I spent most of the day at the doctors today, and am now on medication for my anxiety.

let me know how things are going,

take care gorgeous,

lexy -xxx-

I think you should go to the doctor honey I am getting up the courage to go myself and I know how hard it is, good luck and blessed be :) xx

Hey hun!

Hope you're okay, sorry for the delay on replying!

Yeah, I understand, I have my exams to, it's really stressing me out so I hope you can get though them and do well :) I'm sorry to hear a lot of people around you are going into hospital, I hope that changes soon to!

How did today go with your therapist? Hope it was okay and she made you feel a bit better! Sorry you spent most of your day at the doctors, that can't be nice :( But I hope the medication helps you and gets you back on track to recovery!

Always here for you! Let me know how things are :)

Take care sweetheart,

Leah -xxx-

Hey hun!

Hope you're okay, sorry for the delay on replying!

Yeah, I understand, I have my exams to, it's really stressing me out so I hope you can get though them and do well :) I'm sorry to hear a lot of people around you are going into hospital, I hope that changes soon to!

How did today go with your therapist? Hope it was okay and she made you feel a bit better! Sorry you spent most of your day at the doctors, that can't be nice :( But I hope the medication helps you and gets you back on track to recovery!

Always here for you! Let me know how things are :)

Take care sweetheart,

Leah -xxx-

Hi hun :)

Thankyou for the post!

I am slowly picking up the courage to go to the doctors but I'm finding it very hard with exams and everything. Thankyou for your advice though and I'm sure I will pick up enough courage to go soon!

I hope you get there and start to get help, I know it's hard, I'm in your position to, but you can do it :)

Always here if you need to chat or anything!

Thanks again!

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

...................................

it went okay, seeing her again on thursday.

let me know how things are going,

take care gorgeous,

lexy -xxx-

Hey!

I'm glad it went okay!

Good luck with seeing her again on thursday, I hope it's helping!

Always here to talk!

Let me know how things are going!

Take care hun,

Leah -xxx-

Hey Leah, thank you for your support I know we will all get there I'm praying to every Wiccan Deity know for you and everyone who wants me help, good luck and blessed be :)

hey sweetheart,

let's hope so ...

let me know how things are going gorgeous,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hey "Myprivatehell"

That's okay. Anytime. Thankyou very much for your support also and for your prayes! We will get there and so will everyone else :)

Good luck to you also and I hope you're doing okay!

Thanks again, always here to talk. Let me know how things are :)

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

Hi Lexy :)

Yeah, lets hope so!

Let me know how you get on tomorrow, good luck with the therapy and I really hope it helps :)

Let me know how things are going Honey!

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

therapy was pretty awful, was there for nearly two hours, then found out my HOY is leaving at the end of the year and just broke down.

had a massive argument with my friend about her going behind my back, so yeh .... not great.

how are things going for you???

take care gorgeous,

lexy -xxx-

Hey hun :)

Aw I'm sorry to hear that. Wish your therapy was a bit better. Sorry I don't really know what a HOY is? Sorry to be a pain but I've never heard of that before. Sorry to here it's not going goo though hun!

Sorry about your friend to, hope you sort things out with her soon :)

Things are okay for me, just up and down all the time!

Hope you're okay, remember I'm always here :)

Keep your head up, you can get through this!

Let me know how you are :)

Take care,

Leah -xxx-

hey sweetheart,

HOY = head of year.

glad to hear you are doing okay.

I'm sure things will get better, but for now I'll just have to make do.

let me know how things are going,

take care gorgeous,

lexy -xxx-