Hey everyone

Hey Hun,

My Name is Jenny I have been suffering from anorexia for * or* years. This site is a great place to talk and we dont just have to talk about eating disorders if u dont want!

What are your hobbies? I love dancing!

Love jennyxxxx

Hey, im Lauren Im bulimic, not so much binge just a lot of throwing up basically. OMG mine tooo!!! I am a member of 2 operatic societies, dance school. I sing, like non stop. I love dancing and performing more than anything i the world. xxxxxxx

Wow we both like dance!!! Its great that you love performing so u like acting to right?

How old are you? I am 16!

Are you recieving any help for your ed?

Love jennyxxxxx

Yeah, its amazing, i love pretending 2 be someone else when im on stage, its amaze!!! Im 14! Well, im a patient at this NHS centre near where i live, i dont want to go there anymore. Rite now, it hard for me to decide wethr 2 stop or not, im so confused at the moment. Like, i wanna be better, but i also wanna be  thin its a decision im not ready 2 make yet xxxxxxx

Yeah dance is amazing!

I can totally understand how ur feeling hun,I understand completly and its hard I know but someday hopefully something will click and you well realise you want to get better.To help this process along think of all the tgings your ed is stopping u from doing!

Well, it stops me from doing loads of things. Having confidence, shopping, swimming, eating and like enjoying food etc etc. But it also gives me control like i know what im doing. How u duin with urs? xxx

I totally understand you hun,Its like your ED has some grip over you but I promice there will be a time when everything clicks into place and you feel you can fight!

I am doing good over all at the moment thanks I had a bad couple of days but getting there again now!

U been up to anything this weekend?

Not especially, had loadz of work actually, which i think is reli unfair cuz its like almots end of year! How annoying! U just done ur exams? Howd they go/??? Thanks for ur words of wisdom, im looking 4ward 2 when i can see things clearly again:) xxxx

Hiya!

At least u will have summer soon althogh I would rather be busy to be honest.

Yeah just done my exams and fingers crossed they went ok thanks !

And its no problem glad I can help u!

How u doing?

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Yeah, im off florida, only thing is i will not wear a swimming costume or bikini:( Ahhh, good luck with the results:) Er, went 2 * (The NHS place in im) 2day, and iv got lighter and got taller, but shes asked me not 2 throw up for a week 2 see what effect this has on my weight, and im finding it hard already:S xxxxx

Ah well good luck hun and I am always here if u need any support!

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Thank you, same goes for yhu. :) Iv kinda messed up with the not vomiting already! Oh well! Hows ur week goin? xxxxxx

Ah hun,just try your best thats all you can do!! My week is going good thanks I am a bit tired but its ok! How is yours? xxxxxxxxxxx

Erm its okay, im duin a school show atm ,and i had a singing exam 2day so fingers crossed! Are u getting help with ur ED? xxxx

Ah good Luck for that! And yeah I have a team called CAHMS who come and watch me eat my meals although cos I am getting better they dont come as often anymore! Are u?  xxxxx

Thanks:) Ohhhh, how annoying, but well done on improvements:) Ur gaining weight then? 

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It was really really annoying! and yeah I have gained a few kilos and my deturmination to beat anorexia is improving although I have had a bad couple of days. What help u get? What u been doing this weekend?

Im get help through school, and this NHS centre. Like monitoring and counclin etc etc. I went 2 a party on saturday night, i ate way 2 much, so you can guess what happened! I actually ate the same as everyone else, but i suppose my mind works differently. How about you? xxx

I went out with my friends this weekend went shopping and to his house and then yesterday went for a walk.These eating disorders have a really cruel way of tricking minds! How is your week going?xxxx

They really do! Not so great really. Iv promised not to throw up! I just feel huge all the time and i dont know what im gonna do. Its one of those days where ur like ahhhh, whats happening! U get those? xxx

They really do! Not so great really. Iv promised not to throw up! I just feel huge all the time and i dont know what im gonna do. Its one of those days where ur like ahhhh, whats happening! U get those? xxx

hiya! im new on this site 2 only joined a few days ago. I am 16 and have/had binge eating disorder. i love to irish dance and sing enough thou i sound awful lol.

'flowergirl' i was treated at CAMHS aswell i think they do an amzin job and deserve more reconisation.

Danielle xox

Heyyyy:) Nice to hear from you:) How long you been suffering with ur ED? Hows it goin now, better? Yeah, i love musical theatre, dance and singin more thn anything. Its like my life and i reli dunno what id do if my ED stopped me from duin it:S Hows u find CAMHS? xx

Hey Minnie Key - I exatly know what u mean about one of those days where u just want to scream I have had enough!!! How has ur week been so far mine has been ok!

dancingdanielle - I totally agree with you I really really think they do without them I would be in hospital now!!!

I was refurred to by my phycologist to CAHMS they take on patients who are nearly going in to hospital and try to prevent it xxx

Ahhh, thats good u found then flowergirl before you had to be taken in:) Iv been alright i swear iv put on loadz tho this week, i feel huge. ah well, what can i do! xxx

i found CAMHS  amazin! it was the best thing that ever hapened me. I ave had an ED for about 10 yearsnow bu t it has onli been reconised about 2 years ago.

im doin good and i thought i was in control of my ED however a few months after i got discharged from CAMHS i now feel im startin 2 relapse how ever i am determined not to let this beat me!

Danielle xxx

What exactly do you struggle with DD? xx

Definatly CAHMS are amazing!!!!!! xxx

Hiya!

How are you all doing?????

I had a week full of highs and lows!

Stay strong,

Love Jennyxxxx

Heyyy Im okay thanks, iv gone 6 days without Throwin up, i promised my friends and Lady at school, but now im allowed again:) I feel reli free haha! Whats happened this week thn hun? Lauren xx

HIYA!

Well done Hun I cant tell u how pleased for you I am!! Please please keep it up you are doing so so so so well!

Erm well I work at a hospital helping children learn in the mornings which I love so thats been good but had a little lad trouble but things look like they will be ok now!

What you do this weekend?

Jennyxxx

Shes bac now, the lady i made a deal with, now im bac 2 every meal:( Im reli confused, its like upsetting that i cant even stop myself now:( Aww wicked, learning whatt? Owhhh, im glad its sorted:) u with sum1? I had dance, then i went 2 C Kung Fu Panda haha!!! Im like a big kidd!!! xxxxxx

Hun,dont get upset eating disorders are really really hard things to deal with.I had someone watching me eat my meals for ages!

The children I work with learn things like maths and science and english and we do some art too.

Nah I am not with someone its a long complicated story about this lad I like and we are just good friends at the moment but I dont know how he feels about me! U know lads they are complicated lol!

u with anyone?

Was Kung FU panda good?

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Thanks, im sure ill get there. Just got some tough decisions to make! Ohhh and u know, i found out where i go is all CAMHS aswell haha!!! Ahhh wicked, u enjoy helping them then? I imagine it would be reli rewarding:) Awwwww, just like show then how u feel, then you wont spend so long lingering on it kinda thing, dragging it out. And yeahhhh, complicated beings haha!!1 Not atm nope:) Yeah, was actually haha!! Suprisingly enough. We r duin htis talk show in french and i ha write about it, i felt so sadddd haha!! xxxxxxxx

Hiya,

I Love working at the hospital yeah its amazing! Really tired today been busy! What u been up 2? I went to the hospital this morning to help out then came home and had a sleep cos I was really tired and then went out getting a new dress with my sister.

How are you?

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Hiiiiii Im okay thank you, getting ever the more worried about my hols as they r creepin up, but ill be okay:) Ahhh wicked, i need a dress:) U buy nefin nice? Iv been dance practicin cuz if got my GCSE Modern on Sunday:S How r u? xxxxx

Hiya!

Please try to not worry!!

I bought a eyeliner and a hair clip and a necklase!

Good luck with GCSE dance! I wish I could have done mine but they stopped me from doing exercise!

I am great thanks u?

What u been up 2 this week?

Love Jennyxxxxx

Im trying, hard thooo:s Iv decided im really gonna aim to get better for next year, i dont want this getting in the way of GCSEs or anything:( After summer, im gonna try:) Thank youuu:) Im gonna need it! Aw that sucks, they did that 2 my friend aswell lol! Im okay thanks:) I Break up 2morrow!!! I am so happy, iv like got rid of so many crappy subjects that i hate:D Im gonna miss everyone over the summer tho:s xxxxxxx

I am sure that your dance exam is going to go well!

What subjects dont u like?

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Thanks, me 2:) Geography and History:) xx

I used to not like maths lol! I HATED it! but when I went to my new school I quite liked it!

What u up to this weekend?

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hiya! sorry 4 the late reply i was n hols.

erm i find that i struggle with stayin in a routine esp. now that i ave left CAMHS.

Ahhh, dont worry about it DD, where u been? Somewhere nice? Yeah i HATE mths tooo::S:S:S: xx

No problem!

Whats it like without CAMHS?

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without CAMHS its soo weird caz i felt like they wer a safety net and that i could rely on them wenever i needed dem.

Yeah I know what u mean!

Heyyy Hows everyone doing? I went 2 my treatment centre with my mum a few days ago. It was torture. I love my mum, but it is so dificult for me to talk to her about these things. She just sees what happens to me, not the way i feel or how i get there, just the effects. She doesnt understand, she said she would but she just doesnt. We went shopping last week and she told me i made her feel depressed and suicidal, I was like aw thanks mum! Im managing to eat meals, and even joining in with my friends when we go out and having sweets or smmt at the cinema instead of sitting there excluded. Im not keeping any of it down though, the urges to do it are just too much for me now tbh. Well not exactly urges, just being told to, knowing i should. Im reading a book about a girl with an ED,  Hope ur okay Lauren xxxxx

Hiya Lauren,

I know just how you feel when u say that your mum does'nt understand. My mum used to tell me that she understood too but it was apparent that she did'nt and my dad found it even worse.I was being told my everyone how ill and upset I was making them.I think it was just some desperate try to make me realise and want to chance.I did'nt like seeing them like this but ED are very powerful things.Anyway I am sure you know your mum did'nt want to upset you! I think its really good that you are doing "normal" things with your friends and not feeling exculded! And also that you are reading a book about a girl with an ED I did that too and sometimes it helps!

Stay strong you can overcome this,

Love Jennyxxxx

Heyyyyy Jennyyyyy:) Thanks for your supporttt:) No, im sure she didnt but she did, and im not gonna forget what she said as easily as she has . Yeah, iv always felt like such a freak, cuz i couldnt eat them, but im trying my hardest and im starting 2 enjoy out outings now:) Which is making me smile. Im terrified about my holiday rite now tho, actually makes me shake, im that scared:S:S:S:S Ahh what book did you read?? I cried when i finished mine:( How r u doing? Lauren xxxxx

Hey lauren!

I can understand why u are a bit upsetAh hun I am glad u are doing better! I read a book  What was the book you read?What frightens you most about holiday?Is is having to eat out?I am doing fine thanks hun and its not a problem supporting you I enjoy talking to you !

What u up 2?

U doing ok?

Love Jennyxxxx

Hey Jennnnnnn:) Aww thanks ur so sweet, i enjoy talking to you aswell. 

 Its just all the food, my cousins who r like small sizes  and the bikinis im SO SCAREDDD!!!! Ahhh thats gooood:) Im pleased:) Yhu goin newhere on hol? Iv been duin a summer school at the theatre all week, im havin an awesome time:) xxxxx

Hiya Lauren!

I am so gald that you are having a great time at summer school! Wow theatre you like acting then? What plays you doing?

I might be going to spain I think not partically looking forward to it either for the same reasons you say cos I am scared about the bikinis and also cos I am happy at home right now with my friends and things so just wish I could stay here!

However I suppose we could have a good time! Where you going again?

Hope your ok!

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Heyyyyyy:) Yeahhh, we are duin like singin and dancing aswell, i did it last year :D This year is a Mega 80's theme:D I bet your tiny tho so you dont need to worry hun:) Im goin 2 florida, on saturdayyy:) Well we r flying on sunday, but driving up to Gatwick the day before because its quite a way. Im alright thanks, feelin reli self concious atm. I dunno what im gonna do but rite now im just livin life, its summer:D How r yhu? xxxxxxxxxx

Hiya!

Ah good it sounds like you are having a real good time! Where you going holiday? And I really hope you have a good time.I know your nervous and I would be too but just try and make the best! You sound like a really talented person to me! I bet you could have a really good future on the stage if thats what you wanted to do! Its good that you are enjoying yourself right now!

I went bowling today with my mate and his sister and my sister had a good time! I am fine thanks hun!

What you been up 2 today?

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Yeahhh:) Floridaaaaaaaaa:D Thank you, people tell me i am, but you know things never seem the same from your own perspective! Ahhh thast awesome, summers all about FUN:D:D:D:D Did the performance at the end of summmer school 2day, was BRILL!!!!!:D:D:D:D:D I probs wont reply till im back, so hope ur okay while im away:) Leave me pretty things to read teehee:) Love you xxxx

ok hun,Have a good time!

Wow florida sounds good!

Glad you had a great time!

I just went out for a walk today!

Hope your ok!

Enjoy your holiday!

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Hope your holiday is going good!

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Had a really good day today!

Hope your enjoying the sun!

xx

Heyyyyyyyy Im homeeeeeeeeeee hun:D:D:D:D:D Well florida was reli hot, but i dnt tan so no use to me really. I enjoyed the rides, thats it. ME and mum DID NOT get on, it cousins are *.i felt huge fat and frumpy the entire hol and i just wanted 2 come home.:(I am more determined than i think iv ever been before, i cannot go back to that feeling again, i just wanted 2 shrink. Anyway, how have you been hun? Was nice to get bac and hear u had some good days and stuff:) Love xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Jenny, Are you okay, you havnt replied for a while? xx

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry!!! I am so sorry hun last few days been hectic with collage and stressful I am fine though but so sorry not replied.I have literally not stopped and then falling asleep and I am so sorry plus I lost our post.But I am back now and glad your happy to be home! Glad you enjoyed the rides and I think your deturmination is great! What else u been up 2?

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ooo and I forgot to mention I got a wonderful boyfriend now

Woooo congrats, whats he called? Erm just school reli, loads of work already! Im glad ur alrite, i was getting worried haha!!! Rite now im feeling a bit c**p, i hat the way i look, everything i do i fond myself thinking about my eating disorder, cals, fat, food,fat, sick, fat, etc etc. BUT im really pleased, and my friends are all reli proud of me because iv stopped being sick, well 9 days so far. Normally i wouldn't have been but im happy now:) Howa collage? xxxx

Hey,

WELL DONE!!! I am so proud of you hun congrates! Keep it up I am sure you will! As for the thinking about your ed do u think there is anything you could do to take your mind of things like listening to music,going out,or doing something creative?

I am always here to talk to and I am so sorry I made you worried!

I know the feeling I have got work from collage to lol! I hope it does;nt stress u out to much!!!

His name is Stuart! and thanks he has helped me loads!

What year are you in at school?

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Thanks:) Well not reli, when im out its worse! And at school i just feel myself hanging over the skirt, even though it is the smallest waist band i still feel awful! Year 10 now, and cuz im in a grammar they are very preasurising !! Awww thats brill, its nice knowing sum1 things your beautiful when you cant see it yourself at times! xxxx

Hiya,

How are you? U having a good weekend?

Hun you know its just the ed making you feel fat! I know how horrible it feels cos nothing makes you feel better but thereis always hope just keep fighting and the fog clears I promice!
It must be really hard for you with all that pressure as well so do ur school not know about your issues?

Have u got a boyfriend? And yeah it is lovely he makes me feel like a princess! AH I am getting soppy now lol!

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Heyyy, yeah Yeahh my weekends goin good, Dance, then round my friends then off to the theatre. Saw Jekyll and Hyde, i know people in it and involved so i went along, to be very pleasntly suprised. Jekyll was AMAZING!!!!! I cant get over how talented he was, and hes not even going anywhere like mountview or arts ED! i was like what!!! Newayyyy.... I suppose it is, but im just gonna have to live with it. Iv asked to be discharged from the place i go to, i know i will have to go back evry few months for a check and thats whats worrying me, like them putting me back as a patient cuz iv like gone bac down with my weight. Yeah i think school know, but its just reli in my head tbh, i dont like 2 trouble ppl and i act the same outloud, its just like "inside". Sound stupid but i dunno how 2 describe it llol! No i havnt, wish i did tho! Im too fat for one rite now, thats why no1 wants me im guessing! Nahh its not soppy, its so sweet:) Hows your weekend then? Hows Collage? xxx

Hey, I am so glad you had a nice weekend! Never seen Jekyll and Hyde whats it about? Do u like acting? ooo and dance is good to what dance do u do? I used to do lots of dacing I really liked street dance,contempory and jazz and dances like from "chicago" and things!

How come u asked to be discharged hun do u feel ready forit cos like you said you have lost weight and still feel fat?

I know like appontements can be annoying and stuff I had nurses coming everyday and some days I just wanted to scream but like sometimes if u just try and put up with it it will save u from having to have them again.If u get me? cos like if they discharge you and u slip back you will have to go back with them! I mean its yours and the professionals choice but I just want whats best for you! One day you will have a free life away from them and your ED!

Why do u think u have dropped weight? Have u been stressed? Hun I am sure people dont think u are troubling them at all but its up to you who you tell and who u dont.I used to be really schared of telling people but it does'nt bother me anymore!

Thats your ed talking again saying your fat I promice you your not and I cant even see you but your ed is trying to make you believe that! You will find a boyfroiend I am sure I am a believer in fate and it just means you have'nt found the right one yet thats all!

My weekend been great thanks spent all sunday with my bf and then now back at collage which isn't going to good I am really stressed and feel a bit down about it but still keeping going!

How are you?

Love Jennyxxxx

OH MY LIFEEEEE Im so sorry i havnt replied for goodness knows how long!!!!!! Got LOTSSS to catch up on!!!!!! Well iv been officially discharged! I was weighed for last time, i was just so glad to be out of there!!! i realised that it wasnt what i wanted to spend the rest of my life worrying about . I stoped throwing up for a couple of months  them had a really low period when it all started again. BUT, now im really happy, Iv found a guy who makes me feel amazing:D Iv even managed to keep down the odd *now aswell:D How have u been hunnnn???? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

OH MY LIFEEEEE Im so sorry i havnt replied for goodness knows how long!!!!!! Got LOTSSS to catch up on!!!!!! Well iv been officially discharged! I was weighed for last time,  i was just so glad to be out of there!!!  i realised that it wansnt what i wanted to spend the rest of my life worrying about . I stoped throwing up for a couple of months  them had a really low period when it all started again. BUT, now im really happy, Iv found a guy who makes me feel amazing:D Iv even managed to keep down the odd biscuit or chocolate now aswell:D How have u been hunnnn???? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hunni I have been so worried not your fault though! I have been like posting loads and loads asking if u were ok on like the site but I can just so relieved to hear you are well and now we can have a good old chat lol!

Well done honey that must feel so amazing to be discharged and I am so pleased for you I really am it just shows what an amazing strong person you are and you should be so so so proud of yourself keep it up hun! Everyone has low patches and liked you said u got better now and these patchs only make us stronger and as time goes on they will become less and less accurent! I mean everyone has some sort of struggle in life I suppose its how we deal with them!Ah wow tell me more about your boyfriend? I have been a bit poorly I lost quite a lot of weight,came out of collage annd been fighting feeling low still trying to remain postitive and got a fantastic boyfriend to so fighting on forward!

Love Jennyxxxxx

Awwwww, im sorryyyyyy!!!!! Welllll i sppose, but now im just feeling really rubbish. But iv chosen now to be on my own so thats how it will beee! Well technically hes not bf bf YET! As good as tbf and me thinks hes gonna ask:) Yeah hes called Georgeeeeee teehee and hes an amazin singer lol! S'how i met him. He just makes me smile and i love bein around himmmm:) Awww nooo, iv been reli ill aswell. My apetite is baccc LOL! Awwww nooo, i reli hope you stay strong hunnnnn keep fighting it you know you can, you can beat it!!!!! I feel like iv beaten it now, like it doesnt control me anymore i can pic and choose when i wanna do things and eat and stuff. But its just made my self image worse cuz i have no punishment anymore, cuz thats how i saw throing up and stuff if you get me! Oooooo and i 4got to mentionnnn, i broke my wrist! So had a pink glitery cast on for like 6 weeks!!!!!! Had my cast off yesterdayyy!!! Feel so good to e able to write again haha!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hiya,

Ah hun how did u brek ur wrist? Hope it gets better soon! I am sorry to hear you are feeling rubbish do u know why this is? You can feel better hun never loose hope! Ah ah the lad sounds lovely I hope it works out for you! ah why were u will? Glad ur appitite is back now though! I am so glad u are doing great u should be sooo proud of yourself!! hun you dont need to punish yourself anymore hun you never need to your special,wonderful and deserve to be happy! Hold on to that!

Always here,

Love Jennyxxxxxxxxxxxx

Heyyyyy Sorry its been a bit again! Erm got thrown over ice skating! Yeah, im not great atm, i just feel so awful all the time, iv put on weight, i feel like everyone is thinging it jst wont say, i cant even walk round school without feeling like it. I find myself in the toilets crying every day, i dont know why i feel so awful. I dont knw if I ever told you but i used to SH for a time, and now iv started that again aswell. Why do i feel so rubbish?!?!? Anyway, how are you, hows the BF, Eating? Lauren xxxxxx