Dear Ana and Mia

Just a poem i thought id share...i wrote it in a hope that it would help me let go of my ED because it shows only a few of the harsh realities of life with an eating disorder.

Dear Ana and Mia,
This is for you,
Im going to say,
What you've put me through.

You've taken my confidence,
Stole my self-esteem,
You told me you's make me beautiful,
That life would be a dream.

You said you'd give me strength,
That what i needed was control,
For a while you kept your promise,
And then my life you stole.

I pushed away my family,
And then away my friends,
When all they tried to do was help...
You told me i was hated,
And that would never end.

So i continued to confide in you,
Instead of those who cared,
You said you were my only friend,
So my troubles, with you i shared.

You made me lies to those around,
Slowly isolating myself,
Which slowly knocked my confidence,
Further to the ground.

You made me live only by your rules,
Taking everything i had,
And if i ever let you down,
"Cut yourself" you said.

You'd stand me infront of the mirror,
And tell me i was fat,
You'd tell me this so often,
So id believe just that.

Id try o do better for you,
Because you meant so much,
What we had, i couldnt lose,
You gave life a softer touch.