Mia doesnt Help

I am at the point in my life where I am finally doing something about mia, its taken me 5 years, this poem explains what drove me 2 seeking help.

Home in my cosy world, where theres no intrusion,

I know this place, I know my place and I know others' place

I don't fit in here, I don't look right, I don't feel right. But mia has the control even though I dont no she's there.

But I don't need to get help because I dont know I need it yet.

I am an actor, I should recieve an award and I would, only noone knows Im acting, they think its just me but I don't even know who 'me' is.

I say the right things and wear the right clothes, I have the right attitude and hold the right pose. I have the right friends and help others to mend.

But I dont need help because I don't know I need it yet.

This place is knew I don't know the surroundings, I don't know the people and I dont know how to act here.

I still dont know how to fit in, I look worse now and I feel worse now, but im still an actor and actors act.

So I smile and make friends and noone knows I need help.

I don't need help, because I don't know I need it yet.

It's Just me and mia now, just mia and I and I realise that there are 2 of us in this relationship

I don't know when this happened or how or when I became we and mia became she.

I need help to get rid of mia, I thought she was my invisible friend, turns out shes my invisible fiend.

I need help and now I know I need it.