Day care- sooo scared!

tomorrow is dooms day for me... i will be entering a hospital for teenagers with mental problems like me. i've been told to pack my stuff and get ready and if i don't co operate then i could be sectioned. i'm scared that they'll make me eat, i just don't want to.

take care every1, all the best

Hiya ,

I'm sorry I dont know what happens in day care but you know that it is something that is going to help you cos hun you cant carry on like this.Iam not going to lie to you and say you wont have to eat because we both know that that isn't true but please just think of this as a way of getting your life back on track.This is here to help you and its not going to be easy believe me I know but you need to sort this out before some real damage is done!

I wish you all the best and if u can let me know how u are,

Love jenny

Hey everyone,

Try to remember these people are here to help you and they want the best for you so let them help you. They will help you get better so just think about how healthy you can become and keep this in your mind.

You will be free again! Keep positive and remeber to let them help you, they are going to help you gain control again .

Lizzie xx

my name is becky, and i was in an eating disorders hospital for 6 weeks. i was then allowed to continue at home because i was doing so well, and i had began to fight against the eating disorder.

daycare/inpatient, is an unforgettable expierence. there are going to be times where you will rebel against what you want to do, because i did, but then i sson realized how they were trying to help me and get me well again. if i didnt go into hospital i wouldnt be here today, so i will advise you this, it will be the best place for you. it will do you the world of good.

when i began to eat properly in hospital and began putting on weight, i suprisingly felt so much better, because my body was getting tht nutrients it so desperatly needed. i got my smile back. :) and you will too.

now looking back i try to enjoy my life as much as possible because with things like mental illnesses so much of yur life is taken away from you :( now when i eat i think to myself, food is my friend, the vocie is dead and gone because food is what keeps me alive, full of energy and having fun out and about. i couldnt be happier now. and the fact that i enjoy food, and is not scared of it shows that you too can get like me, not haveing to worry, and feeling good about yourself. i have faith, strength, courage, hope and mostly determination to succeed in life. i now have the oppertunity to do so.

because anorexia is with me no more. however i am here for anyone who needs me. i can help you =] iam recovered. you will be too =]

much love xxxxxxx

Hey Becky...

WOW!!!  You are an inspiration to us all hun!!!  I've gone through daycare and inpatient care too, but I can't say I felt the same about it.  I was made an inpatient when I didn't think I needed it, it was more for my depression than anything that meant I couldn't eat, but it turned into full blown anorexia from being in that environment.  I got out, but was put straight back in again when I lost more weight.    I've had some SERIOUSLY close run-ins with going back to inpatient care, and twice nearly been rushed to A&E, but thankfully have pulled myself together both times and am still being given outpatient care to try and combat this EVIL illness.

It gives me so much hope when you describe your relationship with food now, because sitting here right now I can't imagine ever actually wanting to eat or enjoying the food...but that is because my senses are all a bit dull and I can't actually taste what I eat, and I have no appetite either, did you get that too or am I just weird?  And if so, will it go away and how?

I agree with you that when you do eat you do ultimately feel better.  When I was being forced to eat as an inpatient for months I came out feeling much stronger and more lively.  Unfortunately my biggest downhill was when I came out of there, so I haven't felt like that for a long time...but I'm HOPING I will feel like that again soon because I'm really trying.

Anorexia shouldn't be with anyone, it's evil and sad!!!  I hate it with a vengeance, and I am here to fight with every other person trying to get the voice out of their head that makes them so self destructive!!!

Good luck everyone!  And those going into hospital, just keep going and remember that it's for the best, for you to get your life and smiles back!!!

Love Caitlin

xxxx

hey caitlin

first off, i think you have an anazing name!! so jelous lol

right well, my first piece of advice is try your absolute hardest to keep on the straight and narrow! you have come so far, and you dont need to be an inpatient again! you need to be strong and fight it! because you can and you will!

yeah, i was like you, had no appetite and anything i was eating i couldnt taste, but when your brain begins to get the essentail vitamins and minerals it needs then your brain will begin to function again properly and youll begin to taste. you may hate the taste at first but as you get stronger and the anorexia gets weaker in time, you will begin to feel more relaced around food. you just have to realize that food is what keeps you alive. you cant live without it, but you can live without the voice! you are better than that!

the fact that u know you dont need the voice, and the fact that you hate it so much is such a big achievment. knowing this will helop you get thru this! because if you hate it o much, you've gota et if tis time, for good. just like me.

get rid of it!! keep fighting, i am here for you, i will help be your strength! i wont let my anorexia return, and i will give you my strength! one day you will be strong like me, and you wil look back and see how much the anorexia ruined your life, and youll reach for the food and say, yeah why cant i enjoy myself and eat? why shuud the voice stop me from living my life?

and thats exactly it. the voice cant. it thinks it can, but you will find the strength and faith, and wilpower to pull thru this!

stay strong gawjus!!!!

much love becky xxxxxx