i havent been on here in a while...

hey

i suffer/d from bulimia i gues nearly recoverd but i did lose alot of weight to start with which put me into an anorexic bmi for a couple of months - to wat u say about once u reach target summit goes clik - its not summit ive herd b4 - ive herd ppl say tht one day they just realised it wasnt wat they wanted to do to themselves and realised no matter how hard overcomin it was they wanted to live a mor normal life

i dunt feel like summit went clik wen i reached a better weight - i fink wen u eat better ur thought processes work better - the nurse i saw always sed tht eatin so little and little nutrients i wasnt going to hav rational view so mayb its fort tht wen u r healthyier weight u can see urself better mayb n see u are ok and u dunt need to lose weight - im not sure sorry

it is mega hard to move away from rules n regulations u set urself whilst in depth of the illness - wat i found was if i combated riddin one at a time then soon enuf i would b left with none of few of my old rules and without them removing them slowly and lettin myself adapt i dunt miss them tht much and can get thru weeks without feelin like i shuld b doin them - it all just takes time

mayb readress reasons to fight and then it may seem easier to fight - fink like if u dunt feel like goin shoppin but u make a list and realise ther r many reasons to go shoppin u will find tht bit of fight to get up and do it

take care keep fighting uve come so far x

Hey babe it's fantasic to hear how far you have come. You should feel proud of yourself.

I myself still struggle with the stupid anorexia rules! I know it's very hard to let go of them. How about making some new rules? Rules which are healthier and better for you?

E.g. Instead of ED saying you are not allowed to eat X today, make a new rule. This rule is to allow yourself to eat X because it's an achievement for you. It's good and one step closer to gaining your life back.

As for the click? For me there has been no click as such, it just happens over time. Recovery is a long, slow process. But the more you push forward, the more happier you feel. Stick with it, it's hard but you will get there. This whole process for me has been a real eye opener. I now know who I am and where I want to go in life. Keep going, it does get easier.