Obsessiveness

yes!! im really strggling with my obsessions at the moment they're making me get really fustrated and they're really ridiculous. like before dinner i have to to this wee routine thing and breathe deeply etc, i have to count in certain ways, my obsessions control everything

before i went into hospital i had ritual like behaviour which stopped but recently when ive started eating less theyve got sooooo bad. My counsellor told me to tolerate them and concentrate on eating first but id rather sort out the obsessions first.

I hate people interupting my routines and cant relax until ive finished but even when ive "finished" i think of something else i "have" to do. by the end of the day im so fed up and tired i just feel so depressed.

how are things with you? if you don't mind me asking, what are you recovering from?

hope this helped you know other people have obsessions too, im glad im not alone!

harriet

Ive never really experienced obsessions but i do have this kind of one. I have to sit on a certain chair if its a Sunday, because thats the hardest meal i face in the week and i suppose thats the chair ive succeeded in. We have just bought some new cutlery and i have to use my old pair still becuase i feel like if i dont new things will change, like my weight or meal plan.

Thinking about it i lied at the beginning of this post. I do have obsessions! I think if you feel comfortable eating in a certain way its better than punishing yourself. Lizzie xx

Hi, 

I have several OCD type behaviours that are souly ED related, I don't have anything like it in my "ordinary" life.  I do things like plan what i will eat in my head then write it down and I can't do anything else until I have written it down and sorted it out in my head. So I have spent hours doing this before I can carry on with the rest of the day, and then if I don't stick to it I have to rewrite them all.

I also have other little things that I do which are food related. I remember talking to a counsellor and saying that if I put as much effort in to my ordinary life as I did with my ED it would be quite a skill, but actually it's just wasted energy and time, which is frustrating.  

hey

yeh i guess i do too, although i never really thought about them as obsessions. but i always have to eat my breakfast with a teaspoon, and always have to have my meals off a small plate. it doesnt matter how much or what im eating, it just always has to be like that. i think some people at uni wonder why i only have small plates but its just like i cant really cope with anything else. i could have brought bigger plates with me to uni for if other people are eating with me, but then it would be more strange with just me with a small plate!

how funny!! i just never really thought about it before.

i guess in time these things will go away too, but i think we probably have to overcome other things first.

hollie xxx 

OMG! i never noticed before reading this, but i totally agree.

I used to have to go to the toilet before meals, and if people interupted my routine i would get really anoyed and it would be harder for me to fource my meal down me. My parents used to get anoyed with my routine, which made the process all the harder. I so believe that there needs to be more 'publicity' on yhese type of things, it would make it so much easier for people with ED to recover with ease. I think the fact that my family didnt understand made it soo much harder for me to even think of recovering. (im now recovered for about a year). My brother used to use my ED against me in fights to make me feel bad. It was horrible.

OMG! i never noticed before reading this, but i totally agree.

I used to have to go to the toilet before meals, and if people interupted my routine i would get really anoyed and it would be harder for me to fource my meal down me. My parents used to get anoyed with my routine, which made the process all the harder. I so believe that there needs to be more 'publicity' on yhese type of things, it would make it so much easier for people with ED to recover with ease. I think the fact that my family didnt understand made it soo much harder for me to even think of recovering. (im now recovered for about a year). My brother used to use my ED against me in fights to make me feel bad. It was horrible.

OMG! i never noticed before reading this, but i totally agree.

I used to have to go to the toilet before meals, and if people interupted my routine i would get really anoyed and it would be harder for me to fource my meal down me. My parents used to get anoyed with my routine, which made the process all the harder. I so believe that there needs to be more 'publicity' on yhese type of things, it would make it so much easier for people with ED to recover with ease. I think the fact that my family didnt understand made it soo much harder for me to even think of recovering. (im now recovered for about a year). My brother used to use my ED against me in fights to make me feel bad. It was horrible.

you sound like me haha i have to go to the toliet before i eat, sit in the same place, have my food a certain way on the plate, use a certain plate, eat at either on the hour or half past the hour ect ect... its really strange i don no why i do it xxx

Thnx for th replies. Helps a bit to know Im not the only one.

Hope you are all dealin with them well and getting towards ending the for good.

And Harriet thingsmight for once be looking up for me, thanks for askin; I'm recovering from (m)anorexia, so I understnad wot evryone heres going through. How r things for you.

Best wishes everyone, Aiden.

hey

I have absolutely loads of weird obsessions!!

one of them is exactly the same toilet one as you lol - little bit scary.

thanks for my message the other day =)

how are things going for you??

take care,

lexy -xxx-

thats good that things are looking up for you now, i managed to stop doing my routines this morning :) but ill probably just start something else tho

i used to go to the toilets before each meal, dnt no why i just did lol it will gradually go away though!

hope you're well!!

Nice one stoppin routines Harriet; I know its reli hard to do. Thing is though after you have stopped one you either:

 a) feel really good and happy that you did, or

b) it rests on your mind constantly until you can't take it and you do it again.

I really hope you get an a)

And Lexy things are goin steady for me, though my next weight is on tuesday so I'll have to wait and see. Hope you are both well, Aiden

hey

thanks! yea i was just so fed up last night, i thought 'right, tomorrow is going to be a good day and i will not ruin it with my routines' i kinda managed to do that but still had a few

il probably develop other routines though but i hope not.

hope you r doing well!!

harriet

hey,

I'd lost at my last weigh-in which my nurse wasn't happy about.

let me know how your eigh-in goes on tuesday =)

my 18th on tuesday!!! I'll be thinking of you!

take care and keep in touch,

lexy -xxx-

lexy, happy birthday for tuesday. i havnt spoken to you before but can i ask what happens when you move from adolesence to adult care? im 17 and im really worried about it. xxx sarah (sorry for being nosey)

Hey Lexy, thnx for replying.

First off happy birthday, all the best for the coming year.

And I went up * this week.

Thnx for taking an interest. Are things starting to look for you?

littlelayd - I'm still in adolescent care and that is one of my biggest worries at the moment - the transition between the two

let me know how everything is going for you,

take care *hugs*

aiden - things are pretty much the same, if not worse.

please keep in touch and let me know how you are doing,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

hia lexy, i know im 17 and im so worried about going into adult care.... i dont know how it works and even what kind of care im going to get. i need a lot of care and spport and im worried its not going to to open and il end up as an in patient AGAIN! stay strong hun, we can tlk bout this later yeah?  xxx sarah

Hey,

Omg i posted a comment about this in the 'eating disorders' bit...wanted to no if its OCD or not!!!

I wash my hands lots and if i get food on my hands i cry nd panic cos i think the food will go thru my skin or somit...also everythin has to have lids on it (like lid on the jar or somit)....r these the sort of things u mean by obsessions or am i on the wrong track?

Hope ure okay

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey melaniiep,i still have a big problem with hand washing too, and i total understand about the skin thing i cant bare to touch foods that i wouldnt put in my mouth. i luv to cook for other people because i enjoy it wen they eat (i dont no y) but i cant touch there food at all xxx

hey sarah,

yeh - sorry its late and I'm struggling, but I'm not ignoring you.

take care gorgeous,

lexy -xxx-

lexy, im struggling to hun but we can stay strong together! we need to keep fighting xxx