grrrrr

i want 2 try an get better from my ana, but everytime i feel positive i see some skinny celeb in a magazine or on tv, or even adverts for dif diets, it drives me mad an sets off my ana, if i eat an then read a magazine i end up making myself sick, or if i feel ok 2 eat an see skinny people on tv tht are being shown as beautiful it sends me mad an i cant eat. i also find this a problem when spending time with my girl friends as a group,cos all they ever go on about is how fat or thin they are,an how they wanna lose a bit of weight here or there, some of them no of my ana so dont get y they wud do this, but them talkin like tht makes me feel sick,an makes me feel wrong 4 wanting 2 get better, its all so frustrating an dont no how i can ever get better in a world like this  sorry for the rant. love maddy xxxxxxxxxx