Hi i seem to be new to almost everything......even exploring myself!!!
firstly i thought i was wonder woman, i could take on the world and my "the dark cloud" as i like to reffer to my ed
however i crashed and burned after an inpatient stay for 6 months for my anorexia, i was ready to conquer the world..however less than 6 months later i am back to square one...the only differnce i have recognised i am not wonder woman and i NEED help, which i am now recieving from friends...family and professionals!!!
however i am really struggling getting back to a normal eating pattern and end up bingeing and then feel guilt... ... however my doctor has told me that they are normal and he not overly concerned, as they are leading to weight gain! which yes is a positive... however one of my biggest worries is gaining weight to fast and becoming out of control !!! which is the path i am leading down
has anyone else experienced these binge behaviours and how do you try to control the urges to binge?
please also excuse my horrendous spelling/grammer
much love to all those recovering its a hell of a journey, be strong and get those boxing gloves on...its gonna be hard fight to win...but what a prize at the end....living as apposed to merley existing!!!)
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written by:joey20
posted: 01.06.2011 message:
Hi littleruppy! how r things going? am so proud u managed to come thru inpatient with a positive attitude and more insight into ur ed! just sorry things seem to have gone backwards... dont let ur dr become passive about the change in ur ed behaviour...it's still not a healthy pattern and it can cause its own set of problems! coming from personal experience minus the inpatient stay...i was ana n then start eating and gaining, but would also have the bulimia side in my recovery which has since led to more problems as people around me were only concerned with the ana side of things... keep ur focus on complete recovery and try and break any binge cycles by whatever means u can! one thing maybe could be to have something within constant reach that reminds u of how great recovery is and also how awful those feelings of guilt after binging are...recovery means having those meals and snacks in a balanced way, understanding mantally what ur body needs and not letting emotions dictate ur eating! i know its so much harder actually acting on that... i struggle so much too, but we can and will get there! to avoid those binge urges, i try and make sure i have company...tho sometimes i know i can become a completely different person if iv got really bad cravings :S or trying to keep myself busy with anything from jigsaws and puzzles to just going out for walks, anything non food related that keeps me busy! love xxxx
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