jay xxxxx

hey hun!!!

ok, apol as this wil prob be kinda brief,

im shattered...6am starts r killing me lol (i set alarm as i need to be up,get ready, get sorted, and eat before i leave for uni) but im shatterd...

usually get in for about 5/5.30 ish... long days!

i feel stressed, i feel anxious, i feel like im going to fail, i feel like i have no routine (i dont, each day of wk and EVERY wk is never the same)  i feel fat, i am fat, i fee low, i am low.

i basically am eating'going to uni and alive ..but none which i feel like i wana do right now.

sounds bad uh ? time of my life and mood hits low...

im seriously fed up tho... mates at uni lush tho, idk if they think anything of my 'little eating' and stuff... idk ? i am just faking it all atm... 'fake it til u make it' .. i hada make up a story that i went to school, had a gap yr, etc...

and i HATE lyin, bloody hate it. so much

but i dont want passed to be what they know. they dont need to.(im trying to hard to not let them 'see' food,anxetiy,mood.sh stuff)

im at funeral tomoz, and a neighbour was also died at the wkend. what a shame, what a ******** shame *grr life*

im kinda feeling like ranting atm - can u tell lol ?

im tired, am in a mood abit, im sleepy and im stressed lol

desperate house wifes on in 5 yeyeyeyeyeyey :D

AND NOW uuuuuuu missy ???

update *sends squishes*

xxxJayxxx