I am new and i am scared..

Hey loopylass94, i'm so sorry this i happening to you but believe me your family care and love you which is why your mum is trying to help. I've felt like a burden on my family for a very long time and even though i still feel that way, i know my family don't see me like that, they just want me to be healthy and happy. I am positive your family don't see you as a burden. I've never been to an eating disorder clinic, i've been threatened to be sent and signed up for a couple but managed to talk my way out of it so i'm sorry i can't be much help in that respect. Just now it will help, you are there to get better. I hope everything works out for you. There's a light at the end of the tunnel and don't ever feel as if you aren't good enough! If you need to talk i'm here, take care x

Thank you.. It means so much to me that people can relate to me and what i am feeling. I hurts so much inside to feel this bad. I feel like nobody understands :( I am being sent for blood tests tomorrow to test to see what i am deficiant in :(.. i dont want to do this.. I dont feel like i am strong enough to do this..

I am sick of being so tired all of the time. I dont know if i can do this anymore. xx

Everyone on here understands! I feel like that sometimes too, but if you do then just come on here and you'll see that pretty much everyone is in or has been in the same boat. Its hard to find hope, but when you find it never let go of it and you will find it! Don't give up on yourself, we are all a lot stronger then we think we are x

Thank you.. I hope i find it because its all to much, i am dreading my results coming back because then that will just mean more stress :/..

But thats for understanding, i remember when i was little and food was just food and i would eat, i find it crazy thet now i cant do any of that because i am so scared.. Tbh sometimes i dont get it myself, its like there is someone else inside me living my life.

How long have you had ED for ? x

I completely know what you're saying! Feels like an outerbodily experience if you will. Like i'm watching myself doing all these things but i can't stop me! I've had it for almost 4 years now and i'm 17. I'm "in recovery", i'm at a healthy weight but i still really struggle with unhealthy thoughts and i'm at the stage where i'm not strong enough all the time to ignore them so i give in. x

I am also 17..

I am feeling quite down today, almost like i am an annoyance to my mum.. I can tell she is getting sick of me. i wish she would stop treating me like i am a peice of rubish and leave me alone.. My sisters wont listen either all i keep getting is "why dont you just eat its annoying me" It is making me feel so low.. Nobody in my house understands me and i have to just put up with it everyday.. I feel so alone.

If they all have such a major problem with it then why dont the just ignore me and forget i even exsist because right now i would rather be invisible that be treated like this.

:'( I am having a realy bad day and nobody understands me.. I cant even try and explain to my mum, she isnt bothered and she dosnt understand, aslong as she is okay them she just dosnt care about anything else :'(

How can i do this atall..

:'( :'( xxx

:( have you got a therapist to talk about this to? Is good that you're opening up on here about it, its a positive step. It may seem like they don't care but they do, believe me. Once they realise the severity of this eating disorder they'll be able to understand a little, not all of it of course but enough to know that life is hard for you and you are fragile. Look into having family therapy sessions, i have them at the moment, i have to say i hate them but they really help my family to understand and know how to support me. Its when you sit in a room with one or two therapists and they talk about family issues and how to support one another. Don't ever forget you are loved! Keep you chin up hun, you'll get through this x