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Hi,

I'm not in the same situation as you, but i was off school with my ED, only doing part time school, and i ended up in an adolescent unit because my weight dropped too low, so i sort of know what you are going through.

You have to try and eat three nutritous meals and three snacks a day to build yourself back up. Even when i was at my lowest weight, i never skipped a meal, and the reason i didn't skip a meal is because it wrecks your metabolism up. I know how hard it is, but just try and put all your courage and determination into getting better.

I'm here if you want to talk,

-xxx-

hi thay for writing back to me, it  was good to hear from someone who know what it like to have a ed. i trying relly hard this weekend to eat because on monday i got to see my doctor who is weight me so i hoping i have not lose any more weight

Hi,

It's ok, i don't mind talking to you :). I know how it feels to feel alone and like nobody understands.

It's really good that you tried hard at the weekend. I go through stages of trying hard and then giving up on my eating, so i sort of know that my weight fluctuates. I don't get weighed regularly.

How did it go at the doctors?

take care,

-xxx-

Hi,

It's ok, i don't mind talking to you :). I know how it feels to feel alone and like nobody understands.

It's really good that you tried hard at the weekend. I go through stages of trying hard and then giving up on my eating, so i sort of know that my weight fluctuates. I don't get weighed regularly.

How did it go at the doctors?

take care,

-xxx-

Hi it did not go that well at the doctor, i had lose 5ibs which the doctor did not seem that happy with. I AM EATING so i dont get why i have lose this much eight what do you like doing? hope your ok

take care

Hi,

I'm sorry to hear that it didn't go very well at the doctors. Maybe you could try increasing your food intake a little each day, so that you slowly gain weight? It isn't good to increase it suddenly, because then this makes you store more fat than muscle.

I like reading, going for walks (sometimes), watching tv and listening to music. I like light rock music and some club music the most, because it sort of shows my emotions, although i do listen to pop music and alternative and all the other genres as well.

How are you doing?

take care,

-xxx-

hi thay for the reple, i like watching tv and i love waching the harry pottor film.Do you like watching any fims? i eating a little bit each day but it still very hard to do hope your ok too.

Hi,

How are you doing? Hope you are doing better than me.

I like watching films as well. I LOVE the harry potter films - they are so good. I watch them all the time. I have all five of them, and i can't wait unti the sixth movie comes out. I am definately going to see it at the cinema and then buy it when it comes out. I also like the indiana jones and mission impossible films, and i like Flight Plan, Poseidon, The Beach and the Matrix films as well.

It's good that you are eating a bit each day. You just have to start off with small amounts and gradually work your way towards eating a better amount of food.

hope you're okay,

-xxx- lillies

Hi why are  you not doing that well, i would like to help you feel better, because you have been help me deal with my ed?what you been up to, do you like it beening hot?hope yor ok?

Hi why are  you not doing that well, i would like to help you feel better, because you have been help me deal with my ed?what you been up to, do you like it beening hot?hope yor ok?

Hi,

Erm, its kind of hard to describe what is wrong with me, because i have a lot of problems, but basically, i have EDNOS, OCD, depression and anxiety and suffer from panic attacks and get badly bullied. All these things just get on top of me a lot of the time and make me feel very depressed. I also have exams coming up, which makes me more stressed so now my eating is being affected (i am eating less), and i think i have lost weight.

I haven't been up to much, apart from revising and sleeping. I did go and see my dad on saturday though, although i came away feeling very ill, because i don't like busy places. What have you been up to?

I do like it being hot, because it gives me chance to get a tan to cover up my self harming scars, but the hot weather also means i have to wear more revealing clothes like vest tops so i get really self conscious.

How are you doing? How did your weigh-in go?

hope you're okay,

-xxx- lillies

Hi thay for your messing?i used to get bully at school and when i took people they just did nother, my school i going back to when i well i hiope this does not happen,. do you still get bully?i have had self harm prober in the past, i dont do it much now..i have not been up to much at the moment but i going to look around a ed unit nxt weekd which i dont want to do?my weight is ok but when i got weight the doctor say that i lose some more weight but better then more like the last time i got weight?take care

Hi,

Don't worry about looking around the eating disorders unit. It will seem like a scary place at first, but just remember that all they want to do is to help you to get better. How did it go looking around there? If you want any information on an ED unit let me know, because i have been in one. *hugs*

Yes, i still get bullied. I feel ashamed saying it because i am in sixth form, so i feel really pathetic :(

I have been eating really weirdly recently - starving myself, then binge eating then eating normally again. Not good :(

take care,

-xxx- lillies

Hi how are you doing? i look around the ed unit it look ok but i dont want to go ther it look scared place. what it like in a ed unit ? people who bully you just dont understand that all and it prob because they got nother better to do with their time they should grow up. my eating not that good at the moment i keep makeing my self sick afther eating and takeing lax which is not good hope your ok take care

Hi,

It's nice to hear from you :) I hope you're okay.

I'll give you as much information as i can on an ED unit, although some of it might get edited out, this is my experience of inpatient treatment:

Meal times - Someone sits by you and watches you eat, and they make sure that you don't hide any food, and at the ED unit i went to, i had a time limit  to eat my main meal and a pudding, and if i didn't finish it then i had to have supplement drinks - i always finished though. I had to have your sleeves rolled up and my hair tied back. The staff will often make conversations with you and the radio was on where i was to make the atmosphere better.

Rest periods - After each meal, for an hour, and after each snack, for half an hour, i had to sit down and not move or go to the toilet - i was supervised, to make sure that i didn't burn off the food i had just eaten, or make myself sick. During this time, we often played board games, read books, talked and watched tv.

Weighing - I found being weighed very stressful - but you don't actually gain huge amounts of weight when you start eating better - just a bit at a time  - when you are really underweight it is hardly noticeable.

Therapy - I had therapy from a psychotherapist, who focussed on problems in my past and helped me to deal with them, a psychiatrist who dealt with my medication and how i was generally, the staff who i just talked to normally, and some of them i talked about my problems with and occupational therapists, who i went for walks with, learnt how to cope with being outside (i spent my time in my bedroom with the curtains closed because of panic attacks) and i also did painting, cooking, drama, etc with them to help me feel relaxed. The therapy really helped.

School - Where i went to , and this is normally the case, there was a school on site, with one full time tutor and some part time tutors who came in to help for various lessons. You were taken out of class for thearpy, meetings, doctors appointments, snack times etc, so you got a lot of breaks, which was always good :).

I was allowed home for the weekend, which gradually increased until i was discharged.

When i first went in i had a complete physical check. They put this clip thing on my finger and then my pulse came up on this screen, they took my blood, weighed me and did my height, listened to my breathing and my heart, checked my stomach and blood pressure. I also saw the dietician who gave me a meal plan.

Bedtime was 10 - 11.pm depending on how old you were - mine was 11.pm because i was 16 (and still am) when i went in there.

If you want any more information, let me know and i will be happy to give it to you.

I'm not doing too good at the moment. I am self harming, being bullied, have bad depression and i am struggling with my food, and nobody seems to care about me at all.

You shouldn't make yourself sick after a meal, because it disrupts your levels of nutrients and stuff which can make you very ill *hugs*. Please try not to do that anymore. Laxatives don't make you lose weight - i read that somewhere in a magazine.

I hope you feel better,

Whereabouts do you live - england, wales etc?

-xxx- lillies

Hi the ed  unit sound so scared to been in i wish i did not have to go in one my mum and dad are going to a metting next weeks which is about his ed unit. i some time self harm by cutting my self but i terying not to do it because of the hot weather? it hard not to do it when you not very happy.i live in england? where about do you live?

take care

Hi,

Please don't be scared about the ED unit - i know it sounds scary, but all the people around you want to do is to make you better *hugs*

I hope the meeting goes okay, let me know how it goes

I also self harm, so i know exactly what it feels like. It takes some of the pain away for a moment and that is what i find so addictive :(. Please, please try not to self harm. I used to do it but i don't anymore because of the hot weather, and you just have to try and tell yourself that you won't do it because of the hot weather, and you have to fight against this thing telling you to do it, and keep fighting until it goes away. You could try holding an ice cube in your hand - which really hurts but doesn't leave a mark - that might work instead of the self harming. Someone told me that on these boards.

I live in rainy old Wales :(

take care and stay strong,

-xxx- lillies

HI sorry it took me so long to write back to you, i had so much going on in my head at the moment?.how are you copeing, and what you been up to

Hi,

It's okay, don't worry. Only write when you feel up to it. Don't feel as though you have to write all the time, but it's nice to hear from you anyway *hugs* :)

How did your weigh in go? Has the ED unit been mentioned at all?

I'm sorry to hear that you've got a lot going on - you have to try and look at each problem seperately instead of lumping them all together, and that does help.

I'm about the same really. I stopped self harming, but  i have started again,. and i just feel really tired and drained all of the time. I haven't been up to much really. I went to stay at my nan and grandad's for a few days and i went shopping and brought some nice clothes, where i was reminded of the fact of what size clothes i am.

How are you doing?

take care,

-xxx- lillies