Original topic post: Haven't been on here in years...
written by:beckii
posted: 10.07.2011 message:
Hi guys,
For those of you who don't know me I'm Beckii I hope you're all doing well and still going strong! Anyway, my parents are now clueless and I can now get back on here to ask you gus for a little bit of advice.
Basically I'm a bit scared. I'm 18 next year... and I know that generally this means that treatment is much harder to get. I know that I'm not OK, because I've been through all of this before... but there's something in me that won't let me say anything. It's as though everyone has given up on me. And I'm not doing great... but it's in a different way that before. At the moment my biggest problem is the purging, whereas before it was just that I wasn't eating enough. I just don't know how to ask for help anymore, I feel like after 4 years I just don't deserve it anymore.
Thanks for reading this!
Beckii xxx
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written by:trapped1993
posted: 16.07.2011 message:
hey bekki its been a while dont know if u rember me.. how have u been doing?
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written by:trapped1993
posted: 16.07.2011 message:
hey bekki its been a while dont know if u rember me.. how have u been doing? have u tried wrighting it down
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written by:beckii
posted: 20.07.2011 message:
Hey, I know it's been ages! But I just feel like I could really do with a bit of support right now! I'm doing OK, still fighting like crazy but I never realised how difficult it is until I tried to stop properly! It's horrible realising that you're so reliant on something. I write in my diary every night but writing down my thoughts will only get me so far. I don't think I look bad at the moment... but it's all the thoughts that are getting me down. I'm trying so so so hard to be positive but it seems like this thing is trying its best to break me and I'm pretty scared.
How are you doing? xxx
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written by:jgm93x
posted: 25.07.2011 message:
beckii? beckii, BECKII?!.... it's jo :) no idea if you remember me, i haven't been on here in years either but randonly deciding to chec it out today. anyway, rambling as per usual. i'm sorry that you're still struggling sweetheart :( about adult services though, atmi hav quite a good experience of them. i'm being transferred across from camhs to adult as i turn 18 in a few weeks time. i guess it's just a lot more patient driven i'd say, they can't force you inquite the same way child services do, recovery is more up to you, you choose how to use the service. being ill isn't a choice but getting better is :) it's really worth it as far as i can tell, love jo x xx
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