Hi everyone xxx

Hey!

Well done for sharing your story with the people on here. i have only just started writing here too so i am new to the boards as well.

Sorry to hear about you having to go to an ED clinic. do you know where about's your going? Are you being treated as an inpatient or an outpatient?

I have been going to CAMHS for quite a while now but they have recently said that i have to go to an inpatient place (I am really scared!) You get a lot of support by going to CAMHS. i have individual therapy as well as family therapy. I think that you will probably get that too. Don't be worried about it though as it really isn't that bad! You will grow to really like your counseller and it should help you to get over your difficulties.

Let me know how you're getting on.

x

Hey hun

I'm Chloe, 16, had ana/mia for 5 years. Welcome to the board! Everyone here is SO supportive & lovely, I don't know what I'd do without them sometimes

I know being referred is scary, I felt the same when I was, but they are there to help you & hopefully they will help you along the raod to recovery. Of course they won't say that! I was scared of exactly the same thing, though it turned out I was underweight, because EDs distort your body image so you may well be a lot smaller than you think you are. I know how that feels, but they won't say that because you can be really ill & not be underweight, there can be all sorts of underlying problems.

3 people is normal - at my hospital I have a psychiatrist, dietician & CBT therapist (who is great). I also see my doctor. I have come so far since seeing my team, it's been a long journey but I finally feel like I will be able to recover one day, because these people support you & even though my psychiatrist doesn't have a clue sometimes, it's nice to have the support team, especially the therapist who can help sort out the emotional stuff. Just try to be honest with them & don't be ashamed, tell them where you want to be. Keep fighting hun, you are beautiful!

Chloe x

Heloo.

it sounds like were both in the same boat here.

i am also not underweight but still have a problem, and trust me i thought what u thought about them thinking you dont have one, but they work with it everyday and they can tell signs from the minute you walk in the room. dont feel alone.

i also had to go to a clinic and i had help before hand. they just asked the normal questions that i used to get like when did it start, how did it start. what my eating patterns are like now. how do i feel about the situation is. how is school like, do my friends no.

just like the questions ive already been asked at prevous help/

how are things atm? you think they are improving atall?

keep in touch

xo

Hey again

Thanks so much for replying (I was really worried that no one would!). It’s great to hear some of your stories, if you’ve got time can u tell me more?

Things are ok at the moment, I’ve got a major coursework deadline but I just can’t concentrate for enough time to actually get it done.

SarahM – I do no where I am going but I probably can’t say it on here cause it will get edited. At the moment I am being treated as an outpatient, but I have been threatened by my counsellor that I might be sectioned, which is so scary. I am not sure what I am supposed to do to please her cause everything she suggests is just too hard! 

I don’t like the thought of family therapy cause I hate talking about things to my family. I hate seeing their disappointed faces and it just makes me really upset. What’s it like for you hun?

Do you no when you will be going to the inpatient place? You must be really scared although I suppose it is probably best.

Chloe –  Its great that you feel you will be able to recover…how long have you been getting help for?

I do find it hard to be honest because I no they have probably seen it all before but I feel really embarrassed. It’s like even though I no they are there to help, I sometimes feel they are working against me. When I try to explain how I am feeling I can see they are thinking ‘you are mad!’ but I suppose their not. (right well I have just really babbled, sorry! – Its great to be able to get everything out tho)

How are you getting on at the moment? Do you have your exams coming up soon?

Pleasehelp – Sometimes you feel like you are the only person going through these things and its nice to no that I am not alone – not that I’d wish this on anyone! Its good to no the sort of questions they ask and they seem pretty straight forward so that’s good. I am really not looking forward to it though.

Things aren’t great at the moment and I don’t expect them to get better. Since getting help I don’t feel things have improved, in fact I think they have got worse. I suppose its just because I am having to face up to everything but I sometimes wish I didn’t get help in the first place! O well, sorry it’s quite depressing!

Anyway how are things with you? Are you still getting help/recovering?

Thanks so much guys for replying, write back if u have time, im always here if u want to talk, take care

Love Roxy xxxxxxxxx

Hi I am in the same boat and my doctor has told me an ED clinic may be the best option this is my story I'm not even sure if I have an ED:

I'm a little nervous as this is the first time I have stopped and thought that maybe I have an ED. I'm 19 years old and have had a very bad life, feel free to message me and I'll tell you :) I have just in these last few months started to be obsessed with my weight. Things have been happening and I have been too miserable to eat, I have been going to the gym a lot and swimming but having no energy as I have barely eaten. I have such a self-loathing for myself I weigh myself and look in the mirror for ages before collapsing into tears at my ugliness. I feel like people will only love me if I am my recommended weight for my height. I restrict my diet and wait until I am feeling faint and dizzy before I will eat. I find it hard to swallow and I feel such immense guilt for eating at all. The reason I think I have an ED-NOS is because I have all of the characteristics of Anorexia but I am currently overweight (I gathered this from a book called Beating Eating Disorders by Anna Paterson as this is what she said) Please could someone help me figure this all out so I can get help and move on with my life, losing weight in a healthy way,

Nicola xx

Hi Nicola

im sorry to hear how u are feeling at the moment, and yer it does sound like we are in the same boat. How do you feel about going to the ED clinic, have you been referred yet? I am so nervous about my appointment.

I no what u mean about stopping and thinking bout the ED because in some ways it doesn't actually feel real, like how did it happen to me?

Do u no the reason you have become obsessed with your weight? I am the same when you say u look in the mirror and cry. I do that so often cause i hate what i see.

What is good though is that u said it has only been in the last few months. My councellor said to me that the longer you have had it, the harder it is to give it up, so hopefully u can get back to normal quickly!

Try not to be so hard on yourself...just remember that you are a good person and you want to get better and thats the main thing. If you want to do it then you will be able to

How are things at the moment? Does anyone no about this?

Take care, Love Roxy xxxxxxxxx

Things are not good at all...all my triggers keep attacking me and the voices in my head won't shut up. I'm Schizophrenic, OCD, Bi Polar and Personality Disordered, I'[m not good :( Thank you for your support roxy :) I have an appointement and I am terrified :( I don't want to go to an ED clinic I'm over weight not underweight I'm just so desperate to be able to look in the mirror and smile again...my eyes were so full of light, not now...I see empty eyes and I feel so numb because I don't know if I'm strong enough to get through all this. Actually I have been starving myself since october but I wasn't obsessed with losing weight I just hated the way I looked and thought I could change that. But I think I must have been that way inclined from the start because I feel like there isn't a way out of the ED trap :( I appreciate all your support and you have my full support if you want it :) xxxx

Ps: I told my mom she trhinks I just want attention :( my friends know and they don't see to care :(

Nicola xxx