Hello. I haven't been on here in a while but I used to come on a lot. I have had a roller-coaster of a year but the past few months my eating has almost 'normalized'. At first it had some really positive points, I was able to go and visit friends and had the energy to do things I had a passion for. But lately each day is a fight between eating for the energy and concentration and giving in to the thoughts. I have gained weight and I feel like I look horrible. I know that looks don't really matter and no one is bothered how I look but I can't help the way I feel. I feel so low today and I don't know what I want. Part of my wants to avoid the real world but part of me really wants to be a part of it. I have lived with this for so long. My new psych doesn't know what to do to help me. I left the ED clinic, counselling, and stopped all my medication. I feel like literally no one understands me and I like in a different world from everyone else. Thanks for letting me get this out. I am here if anyone wants to talk about anything. I am 21 btw and have had an ED and other mh problems for 7 years. Clem. x
Reply post 1: (No Subject)
written by:clementine.
posted: 19.07.2011 message:
For some reason it deletes all my paragraphs, so sorry if it is hard to read. C.
Reply post 2: (No Subject)
written by:smilepetal
posted: 19.07.2011 message:
Hiya, just read your message. I understand what you mean and how you feel, I know that it's such a battle in your head. Part of you wants to get better, the other part doesn't. I went to a Ed clinic too. Ask yourself what's more important, what do I have to get better for. It's hard I know. Because you get frustrated because you feel no one really understands. Here if you want to message me back. Charl x
Reply post 3: (No Subject)
written by:clementine.
posted: 21.07.2011 message:
Hy Charl, thank you so much for your reply. Tell me more about yourself? I do have a lot to get better for which does help as motivation but at the same time it is very frustrating because it is affecting everything I do and it just feels like I will never be free of all these thoughts How are you? Clem. x
The following page sections include static unchanging site components such as the page banner, useful links and copyright information. Return to the top of page if you want to start again.
Back to Eating disorders
