posted: 22.08.2008
message: Hey gorgeous!
Oh darling don't worry about your exams, at least you know your results!!! I was supposed to ring up the school today between 10am-1pm and I chickened out.
I'm so S*** scared, I actually can't do it. Instead I've now put myself under even more pressure prolonging the agony and waiting for them to be posted. Apparently they post them out quickly, perhaps even by tomorrow morning, but I don't know, and I'm totally freaking out.
The thing is, when I did my exams I was at my worst, living on ridiculously next to nothing calories and not sleeping at all! I mean, every day was a debate as to whether I was allowed to take them or not, I so nearly went back a year, so surely just doing them should be an achievement?
However, I've never failed an exam in my life, my school work has been the one thing I have always known I will succeed in, and now I KNOW I've failed and I'm SO scared, I don't know what to do! Even when the results come I don't know how I will not just burn them and not read them...
I'm sorry I'm being so silly, and here you are upset! Don't listen to me. Hun, it's great that you did your exams, and you passed most of them, which is more than I will do, and you should be so proud of yourself!
Well done sweetheart!
love you lots
Caitlin
xxxxx