hey i have finally got some help to help me to recover from my ED! which makes me happy but at the same time very nervous.
The thought of recovering fully scares me so much and in a way i don't want to recover as i am scared what will happen if i do fully recover. Although there is a huge part of me that does want top beat it still.
Everyone sees me as this determined person who can get anything i fight for but i dont know if i can fight this properly as i just see it as part of me now that i have had my ED for several years i ccan't imagine me without it
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posted: 28.05.2011 message:
hey, I think its really normal that you are feeling nervous and scared about recovery, everyone who suffers from an ED hates it yet feels so horribly attached to it at the same time. Recovery is hard, i have been in recovery for a couple of years now, have moved towards almost being completely better and then slipped again, but i know i can and will get there soon. it sounds like you a strong person, so you can get there too. people know that we are all human, so dont feel u cant ask for help from others- its too difficult to recover by yourself, although essentially the only person who can get you better is yourself, others can certainly help u along the way.
remember u used to be someone without an ED, you can be a person who doesnt have an ED again. keep fighting and have faith in yourself. u will get there.
love Tess xxx
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posted: 28.05.2011 message:
Hey chattycat, don't think we've ever spoken on the boards. I'm flounder and I'm 16, That's so great that you're getting help in beating this. It's such a positive. :) Can I ask what you struggle with? And what support are you getting? I'm currently at CAMHS, and I'm also feeling the same, I want to get better, but I'm finding it hard to let go, it's very scary but I know that things will be so much better once I'm happy and healthy. I'm always here if you want to talk. Just try your hardest and stay positive, remember recovery is full of ups and downs. It might not seem like it now, but your already stronger than you think. Love and hugs, xxxx
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posted: 04.06.2011 message:
hi thanks both of you i have bulimia i am getting CBT privatelyas it will take over 2 years for my to get the help on the NHS and if i leave it i know i will get worse i want to recover while i have the motivation to do so. I get that it is normal i suppose its just soething i have never felt before so it is really hard for me to accept it i guess. I know that my recovery won't be straight forward but sttarting it seems to be the hardest thing as i am having to change things that i am so used tto doing xx