So I have an eating disorder of some sort for 6 years now. I can't break through it.
I'm 21 next month and feel I'm too old for this even though I am an Applied Psychology degree graduate I know that age is a very simple and unneccesary causal factor.
I think a lot about how this happened and what's going on. At the age of 16 I was under CAHMS. Then I moved to uni and turned 18 and lost that support. For 2 years I was lost and didn't know where to turn. My doctor tried countless avenues but nothing felt right, until last year I finally found an ed clinic that I trusted and helped. Until I moved back home in May. They have kept to their promise of contacting me every week to see how I'm doing but it's edgy as Im no longer under that health board. It feels like I'm such a burden, and everyone tip-toes around me, feeling sorry for that girl. It's horrid.
I feel like I want someone to just hold me and tell me it'll be alright....And as soon as I think this I think shut up, you don't deserve that so get on with it. If someone offers help I tell them there's nothing wrong. I sometimes believe more often than not that I don't want to beat this. However I realise that's unrealistc as it's likely that it'll destroy me young if I continue.
Does anyone else feel like this? Sorry for the long rant.
Reply post 1: (No Subject)
written by:clementine.
posted: 21.07.2011 message:
Heya. Sorry it has been so difficult for you. I can relate, I am 21 and have had my ED for about 7 years. Have you tried the Ed clinci at home? Are your parents supportive? I am here if you want to talk. Clem.
Reply post 2: (No Subject)
written by:Flower1234
posted: 21.07.2011 message:
Hi, I'm not much to go by, since I'm 13, but I feel the same. I've been told that that's just what Ed does to you; tells you that your problems are nothing and that you don't deserve help, when really, you do. I want to be a doctor and I am determined that Ed is not going to ruin my dream for me.
I hope that you will recover too. I really do, because everyone deserves to recover. It doesn't matter how old you are, you can't help it. I was 12.
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