Reasons to recover

I think this is a great idea! I am forever doing things like this!

Yes, you definitely need to eat to be fit & strong for dancing! It really annoys me how dance teacher put pressure on dancers to be thin when actually that's b******* because a good dancer is strong & healthy, you can't dance well if you are ill/too thin! Just think of it as fuelling your body for all the physical energy you will exert! & as for the rest - so true, to be able to concentrate on enjoying life & studying & all that is very important, & can't be done without health! & to be normal... god I always think why can't I be a normal teenager & enjoy time with my friends & not worry... great reasons for recovery! Keep it up!

• I want to be able to run seriously again, for which I need to eat plenty & be strong
• I want to be able to concentrate on my A-levels & uni so I can get my desired degree
• I want to be free of the physical negativities that come with this damned ED
• I am so fed up of being known as the anorexic girl, or "oh that's Chloe she has problems" I want people to take me for who I am & not focus on my past

Anyway, hope you are ok stay strong!

Chloe

Brilliant idea I so need to keep this in my mind right now!

• I really want to have a family and be a good mum
• I want to become a good child/adolescent psychologist (at the moment that is my aim) so that I can help others
• I want my hair to be shiny and healthy and grow again because I had to get it all cut off when it died!
• I want to go back to my dancing because I miss it SO MUCH
• I'm sick of missing opportunities, like becoming a dancer I totally *that one up!
• I want to go out with "normal" people and do "normal" things and be "NORMAL" (but still me!)

Keep going girls and boys!

Love Caitlin

xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Ah I love this idea its so positive!

- I want to be "Jenny" again not "Jenny with issues"

-I want to prove everyone wrong about me.

-I want to have a good life

-I want to have kids and I wont be able to if I mess with my body

-I want my hair to look good

-I dont want downy hair

-I want to enjoy stuff rather than focusing on calories

-I WANT TO BE FREE!

Stay strong,

Jennyxxx

This is such a clever idea,please may i join in.

* I want to laugh and know tears wont follow.

* I  want to sleep through the night without thinking of food.

* I want to be the bubbly old me without people thinking i should be super skinny becuase im "the anorexic girls."

* I want to truly be in control.

* I want to be a mother and be in  a loving realtionship.

* WANT TO BE HAPPY AND FREE TOO!

everyone keep going

x

Okay, so i havn't been on here in a while, i forgot how amazing you all are :) . This is a great idea, here are some of my motivations

-i want to be able to drive my car all the time and not have to fit it around when i've eaten or when i dont feel depressed and like i may drive into a wall

-i want to be able to walk my dog and give him the attention he deserves

-i want to be able to go out with my friends and have a drink without worrying whats in it

-i want to be FREE

stay strong   x

Hiya amaing people ;)

How are you all? I mean this from the heart i hope you are all remaining strong.

I have been on this website so many times and thought about signing up but everytime i thought about it, i didnt feel that i was in the right place to be giving people inspirational thoughts.

I am finally in that position in my life were i have realised that it is time to become "Laura" again and not "Laura and Ann".

I hope some of my motivations help someone remain strong:-

1. I WANT TO LIVE

2.I WANT TO BE ABLE TO GO BACK TO MY DREAM JOB WORKING IN THE AIRPORT :)

3.I WANT TO BE INDEPENANT AND NOT RELY ON MY MUM HELPING.

4.I WANT TO BE ABLE TO GO OUT AND HAVE A MEAL AND DRINK WITHOUT WORRING ABOUT IT.

5.I WANT TO BE ABLE TO HAVE NORMAL THOUGHTS, TO BE ABLE TO GO OUT WITH MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WHEN I HAVE TO EAT.

6.I WANT TO BE ABLE T HAVE KIDS.

7.I WANT TO BE IN A LOVING RELATIONSHIP.

8.I WANT TO BE "BUBBLY FUN LOVING LAURA" AGAIN.

9.I WANT TO BE CHEERY AND SMILIE AND REALLY MEAN IT.

10.I WANT TO BE FREE.

There are so many things i would love to wirte but i would go on forever hehe. I hope these help someone remain strong and positive.

>Remember Love Yourself

>Praise yourself when you have achieved your target.

>YOU DESERVE TO LIVE, BE FREE, LOVING YOURSELF.

Take care

Love to you all xxxx ;)

this is a brilliant idea!

1. i want to be the old Skye again

2. i want to be able to have a relationship with someone without worrying that they might find i have an ED or what they might say if i told them

3. i want to learn to enjoy the little things in life again - like going out with friends and even going for a meal

4. i want feel like im worthy of living and like i deserve life and all its opportunties as much as the enxt person

5. i want to be independant

6. i want my mum to be able to live her own life without worrying about me and my ED

7. i want to feel alive again

keep going people this is wonderful idea and if its helping people realise that recovery is totally possibly then i hope it continue for a long time and helps as many people as possible

Skye x

i want to get my bf back and to make him happy.

i want my body as it was.

i want to be able to go for meals and not worry.

i want to live my life again.

i really dont wanna die.

i dont always wanna be tired or ill all the time.

i wanna look healthy

that is just some reasons of mine

- I want to be able to have children more than anything in the world

- I want to be able to concentrate on my a-levels and do well so I can go to university

- I want to be able to feel happy with myself again

- I want to be free

- I want to be in control

- I want to be able to have a good relationship with food like I used to have

- I want to be able to not be contstantly worrying about this, I want my life back

- I want to make my family and friends proud of me, I want them to get their lives back so they don't have to worry about me

- I want to be able to go for meals without worrying

- I don't want to become another statistic

- I don't want people watching how much I eat anymore

hi, hope everyones ok. your all amazing - serouisly.

my reasons to recover:

 - to see my new born niece grow

 - to get my life back

 - earn my famllies trust back

 - to just be me and not ' the biulimic one'

 - to have the enegry to do the things i enjoy

take care everyone. be strong. xxx

hi, hope everyones ok. your all amazing - serouisly.

my reasons to recover:

 - to see my new born niece grow

 - to get my life back

 - earn my famllies trust back

 - to just be me and not ' the biulimic one'

 - to have the enegry to do the things i enjoy

take care everyone. be strong. xxx

hi,

don't give up there are reasons for living a life without your ED,

my reasons to recover,

-i have an amazing mum, who wants me to live

-i want to be back doing what i used to do and not what my thoughts tell me to or not do.

-i want to be happy

-i want to be free

-i want to be a mental health nurse (camhs)

-i want to be able to have kids and marry

-i want to be able to go on hour long shopping sprees

-i want the energy to do things i enjoy doing

-i want to be like i used to be

-be with my cat until she dies (bless her!)

-not have to constantly worry about portion sizes

-have my old eating habits back

-i want my hair to be great again

-i want to have really good qualifications

-i want my mind back

-i want to be free

-i want to live my life

good luck everyone

Stacey xxx be strong, as being like this is sooo hard to overcome...

Hey im new to this forum, i have been meaning to join but have only just got the courage to admit i have a problem!

you all sound amazing and your reasons for recovery are very motivational.. i thought id add some of my own:

• Most of all i want to be happy with who i am and feel confident and gorgeous again!
• I want to succeed in uni and my ambition to become a clinical psychologist and help others.
• I want to live, and stop my family, friends and boyfriend from constant worry.
• I want children and a family of my own more than anything.
• I dont want what i eat to control my life anymore, there are more important things to worry about or enjoy.
• I want positive comments about how i look instead of constant worrying/pitying looks and comments.
• I want to live life to the full rather than in fear.
• Again I just want to be happy.
  

here are the reasons why i am GLAD i recovered!

- i can give back to others now, i can be the loving person i know i am without being focussed on myself all the time

- i eat what i want and i dont care! i enjoy eating and i know i appreciate it more than most people because i went without it for so long

- i feel attractive again, dont feel embarrassed about my body like i used to

- christmas is fun again

- i have strength to do what i want, i have my indepence

the list goes on and on!!

Lara xxxx

I want to be happy for who i am.

Have my old self confidence back

live my life with out fear 

Stay strong everyone    x3

I'm not sure if I count because I am back at a healthy weight now, but I still dont feel recovered :/ I want my friends to not have to worry about me. I want to be able to have a social life and not be worring about calories all the time. I want people to know me, not anorexic me. I want to have the happiness purely from life that I think i can only get from losing weight. I want to be able to do as I please and be trusted. I want to be healthy and happy.

hey miss marmite!

you can be that person you want to be, it takes time, but there is ALWAYS hope, believe in yourself. they will always worry about you, and trust me when i say there is happiness in things other than weight loss. were you ever truly at peace or happy at your unwell weights?

stay strong!

Lara xXx

I want to find out who I really am. I want to learn how to love myself rather then hate myself. I want my boyfriend to see me healthy and happy. I don't want numbers to ruin my entire life. I don't want to weigh myself every single day, and become intensely fearful whether a number decreases or increases. I want to have energy in my legs everyday not just for a few weeks. I want to be a singer, and have the energy to focus on singing and writing music. I want people to see me for Hannah, and not hide behind starvation or my scars. I want to be proud of myself. I want to visit my grandmother's grave, and to do that, I want to be recovered and I will pray to God that she is proud of me. I would like my grandparents to be proud of me if they were with me. I want to carry on being strong. I don't want to faint in the mornings. I want to have kids, that won't happen if I carry on starving myself. I want a future, that is a happy 'normal' future, that everyone else seems to have. At the end of the day, I know that I don't want to die,  I want to be able to see that I am allowed to be here on this planet. I want to be free. I will do anything and everything in my power on this earth to get better. I want to be healthy, not 'thin'. I want to be happy. I want to accept my body. I want to go shopping for the best clothes I can find for £2 with my best friend! I want to eat what I want, when I want it. And not have any rules. Hannah xxxx These are great guys, keep it all up.

im new to this but did ana start for you because of dancing?? i need to talk to someone who understands how i feel. i got to dance college and was told that im not allowed to dance until i get better as my bmi was dangerously underweight. i need to get over it and when i think about how much i want to dance it makes me just stop thinking about it but then theres this other voice which is always saying about calories and my body and stuff, i just want it to stop. i dont really know what im asking but i just want someone to know how i feel. Sam x

Hi hun

I'm a dancer and I know exactly how you feel. Ana didn't start for me because of dancing. I used to want to be a popstar lol until I realised I couldn't sing so decided to stick to dancing!!! So I think I have always been concious of what I look like and I have the typical anorexic personality qualities but I think it was being bullied that started it off for me.
I think my ed started when I was about 12/13 and I didn't start dancing properly until I was 16 (I'm 21 now). In a way dancing made me better becuase it gave me a focus other than food/weight etc and it gave me a reason to eat.  However, I totally get where you're coming from with mirrors etc.  When I was at college I was the first one in and the last one to leave, I luved it, I was never off even when I felt but there were times when I got up and just could not face having to put on leotard and tights and stare at myself in the mirror all day so I would make an excuse and sit out.  It killed me to sit there and watch everyone else dance and I hated that I was letting the ed do that to me.
Since I started dancing I eat better than I did but I think my ana thoughts are worse.  While I was at college my ballet teacher realized I wasn't eating, she was lovely about it and tried to help but then she told my tutor who was horrible. She used to make me go to the office every morning and eat in front of her or I wasn't allowed to dance. She would say things in front of the whole class asking what I'd eaten and she basically made my life hell! I'm living in London now and trying to work as a professional dancer and it is so hard because I still feel I don't look right and 24/7 I'm worrying about how I look and planing what I can/can't eat etc.
Anyway...enough about me!! I just wanted you to know that I've been there and I understand completely what you're going through.

It's not a case of being able to get over it! I wish it was that easy!! Have you tried getting professional help - going to doctors, councellor etc?
You need to try and understand why you feel like this and how it started.  For me dance is the only thing that keeps you going.  When you're making the decision whether to eat or not try and think of it as a decision between being a fit, healthy, strong dancer or being ill, weak, and unable to walk let alone dance. 
Maybe you could try writing a list about what dance means to you and the positive things about dancing and then do the same for the ED and see which one is more important to you.

I have been struggling with an ED for almost 10 years and it kills me to think how much of my life I have already wasted! I am determined not to let it take away my dream and the one chance I have of becoming a dancer!  Think how much better a dancer you would be if you actually had strength and energy!!

What kind of dance do you do? I know in your head the ideal dancer is probably stick has and has what you consider to be the 'perfect figure'. However, if you actually look at dancers they're toned and strong but not necessarily skinny.  If you're eating healthy and dancing you body will naturally be toned and in good shape.  Surely this is better than looking weak and frail?  

 I want you to know that you can speak to me whenever and I am always here to listen and support you.

Sorry for me mega long message!

Take care of yourself
BIG BIG hugs xxx

I have just relapsed. But these reasons I made earlier aren't empowering. ugh. It's not happening. Need to come up with some more.

and to the dancers and everyone else for that matter:

I think to have the ability to move your body in such a beautiful rhythmic way  is an excellent talent to combine with music is even better. Be proud of your talent. It's a shape, they are numbers. You can do this.

1. My boyfriend!

2. My brother and all of my family.

3. If I starve and restrict again, I will not have the energy for my interview on Thursday. 

4. I want to sing loud and proud.