Hi!...

hey sweetheart,

although when originally starting out to see my counsellor it wasn't food related at all, I was absolutely petrified!

I guess if you think about it, its someone you dont know who you are talking to about some quite personal information, so I guess its going to be quite scary the first few times you go.

however, I have now been having counselling for nearly a year, and I really think I would be a lot worse without it!

let me know how things are going,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

no ur not mad...

going for help yourself...means u want to change and that voice will do anything 2make u feel stupid about wanting to get better but your not...in fact your incredibly brave...well done..

but theres no need to be terrified, this is the hardest step and it will be a long journey to recover, a constant battle with the voice..but u will do it, stay strong and keep an aim in sight...

i hope it goes well with the counsellor and this place is realy good for venting emotions on bad days but gud for spreading positive vibes to people on good days,,

and remember u r never on ur own

take care

cafrin x

hi again,

Thanks for all the encouraging words!

Em, this is going to sound completely contradictory but i've decided not to go to the counsellor afterall. I was getting really bad panc attacks thinking about it, and it seemed to be doing me more harm than help so im not going.

I've had this for over 4 yrs on and off, and i said that if i manged to make myself stop the last time by myself, then why shouldn't i be able to do it again? Also one of my friends went ended up going to 5 counsellors to sort his ed and none of them helped, so why should i assume that they would work for me?

x

hey sweetheart,

it doesn't sound cantradictory at all - everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and you have to do what you feel is best =)

take care,

lexy -xxx-