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Hi, my name is Maeve and I'm 18. I've suffered from ana since I was nearly 14 but have gone thro some episodes of mia too, which I'm struggling with at the moment.

Things have moved on a lot and I am to some extent recovered from the ana, but unfortunately I am still struggling with constant thoughts of food, weight and calories. I seem to plot and plan and worry all day! It prevents me from doing other things I would like to do like art, writing and violin.

I really want to recover and move on but it often feels like I am stuck in the ED and will never be completely free of it. I've been struggling a lot with bingeing and being sick afterwards recently. I just seem to love the taste of food as it distracts me from other thoughts, but I feel so worthless and guilty afterwards. I'm trying hard to get back on track though and managed a binge and purge free day yesterday which was good!

I hope you are all coping and keeping faith. It is important to believe and hang onto the positive in life during these challenging times. Feel free to write to me anytime as I would love to talk to people who are experiencing similar difficulties and help in any way I can!

Love maeve xxx