New + uni

Hey!

Nice one for coming on here, I can STRONGLY recomment beat, I've got addicted to it...lol.  Seriously though, it's great because you can talk about everything without focusing on numbers, calories, weight, foods etc which I can promise is not a helpful thing to talk about!

Recovery is beyond hard hun, it really is, but you just have to think that if you got yourself so entrenched into the world of eating disorders(which is defying all acts of human nature) you SURE AS HELL can get yourself back out.  It's like I read somewhere, you've dug yourself this massive hole right, and people KEEP ON shovelling the **** in on top of you trying to bury you, but as long as you STAMP THE DIRT DOWN, it will slowly rise up under your feet until your hole is filled and you can walk out...

One day you will walk out I promise you, if you've decided that you want to recover then you willI am in the process of recovering from anorexia now.  There are ups and downs, big and small, and there are times you feel completely lost in the world and are not sure which way to turn.  That is when I get on here and read everyone's encouraging words which help me get myself back on track, fighting for LIFE!(hence the name...)

Never hesitate to write anything on here, I and many others I'm sure, will always be here to help if you need it.  Just keep focusing on where you want to be.  You say you want to get through uni and get your degree, well you won't if you don't get through this first.  It will be one of the hardest things you've done, but you'll look back and be so proud of yourself, and everyone around you will be proud too!

Keep fighting...take care

Love Caitlin

xxx

Hey Missymel,

I know how you feel, I tried to get help at uni and I didn't find it very useful so I'm still looking!

I've really struggled being at uni but my housemates don't know about my ED and neither do my parents and friends from home so things weren't much different to when I was at home. The only thing I can say is don't let the ED be your life, I kept myself to myself for the first semester when I started uni because I was scared people would find out about my ED and I was really miserable and the only thing I had was my ED... but then I made loads of really good friends and just went out and socialised even when I didn't feel like it and it worked as a pretty good distraction and people questioned me less when I came out of my shell and I'm so much happier now.

The uni doc will prob tell you to tell your personal tutor who can offer you support, I didn't tell mine because I was scared of them mentioning it in front of other people and I don't like talking about it but if you're fairly open with it I guess it will be beneficial to let the right people know and they can keep encouraging you to seek help.

Hope you're well and looking forward to uni, it's honestly the best thing I've ever done!

 x

heya,

B-eat is addictive and can really help when things get really hard.

Your post caught my attention coz I have just done a first yr of uni with an ED. It was hard.  Work load took over and I took no notice on food.  I think that you planning to talk to uni doctor is a great idea.  Letting the uni know is a good thing as they can help in many ways...academically and personally. I would not be going into my 2nd yr if it was not for the support of my uni.  for example...they have put me in touch with a psyc and in 2nd yr hopefully they can do more.  Work load becomes a lot easier as they are more leinient with deadline if things get way too much.

The uni cares for your health more than you coming out with a degree.  Uni is a different experience and although hard coping with ED was up and down. easier to hide as a new beginging but  at the same time hard to cope with.  I have made friends although that was hard in itself but a lot of them are very supportive.

Here if you have any questions I am happy to help.

Take care

xxx