Patiently waiting

Patiently waiting

Every new start brings me back two steps

With my conscience in threads

Its been so long since I’ve slept

And my heart has grown cold from all that I’ve wept

The self-hatred came crashing like a wave

When I finally did what was classed as brave

I raised my hand and said “can’t you see, I have a problem, somebody help me”

but the weeks went by 1,2,3

And know body will tell me how to start recovery

Its hard to get up in the morning

Until I hear the postman coming

He brings hope of news of my referral

But all that comes threw my door are fast food adverts that lay in piles on the floor

So back I go to my room

And can only hope that the day will come soon

The day that my help arrives

So this black widow can stop spinning her web of lies

I hope and prey that after this day

I will be able to raise my hand and say

I had an ED a short while ago

But now I can think straight so watch me glow

Now my thoughts aren’t consumed by the night

And I am here to help the fight

To stop the war that so many lose

Because we should all love ourselves and we have nothing to prove

This life is ours and we must live for now, and we have the chance to turn this around