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Hey! Im Lizzie x

I hate anorexia too and its ruined my life -alot. But i dont think its weak to try and get rid of it. It shows that you are in control and recovering can help you to be yourself again.

I feel the same as you. I get really paranoid about my body and i feel fat 24/7 now im on the recovery food diet and its hard but i so want to move on and get better!

You know after you have just had a meal and you can sometimes feel really bloated and as big as a bouncy castle? I think you feel like that. But trust me you wont look like it otherwise you wouldnt be in hospital would you? I hope you can see this too.

Sweetie please get better and think of the positives, try not looking in mirrors too. Good Luck and keep strong!

Drop another post when your next on,

Love Lizzie xxxx

Jessie, you sound really down, but a few words of encouragement.

Firstly, I have had anorexia, and I know how it isn't easy just to not feel after eating; but logically you can't be fat, because the most intelligent people in the country- doctors- are certain you are not.

I guess my thinking is a bit academic but think about it.

Secondly; something that really encouraged me, I don't know whether you've heard this before, but it is proven that the 'voice' will be weaker as you gain weight:

Your thoughts getting healthier is synonymous with weight going on; you won't feel fat after putting on weight.

Anyway, keep fighting. One day soon, the 'voice' will be gone.

Hello :),

I've had anorexia/EDNOS for about two and a half years now (i'm also 16, nearly seventeen). I was in an adolescent unit for three months from july-october last year, because my weight dropped too low, but i was never admitted to a general hospital. Are you in a specialised hospital or a general hospital? Just wondering.

I am still underweight i think (i don't get weighed now), but i feel so fat and incredibly disgusting, and every time i eat it is like a battle going on inside my head, so i know how you feel. You just have to try and tell yourself that you have a distorted perception of normality because you aren't very well.

I hope you get better soon,

-xxx- Lillies

hey sweetheart,

I've never been hospitalised with anorexia, but you are definitely NOT a weak person!! I became quite underweight and had to stay off school, but then began binge eating. I can feel myself slipping at the moment though, and I know how hard it is to keep going when anorexia is telling you how big you are.

you are fighting this illness on a daily basis, and that takes so much strength and courage hunni!!

I'm always here if you ever need me,

let me know how things are going,

take care gorgeous,

lexy -xxx-

thanks so much guys for writing back.. it's such a help!

it's a bit silly really i suppose you're probably all like oh, well she's so needy she probably has so many people to talk to at the hospital.. but i always put on a happy face when im with anyone even at the hospital and seeing as this is all over the internet.. my happy face is down.. do any of you feel like that?

i felt really bad today because when you go home from the hospital for a few days you have a diet sheet that you have to follow and i found my snack really hard but my mum made me have it. so anyway i woke up this morning and felt HUMUNGOUS and then today was awful and here i am at home stressing about my life.. ha!

what's ednos lillies?! sorry i hope thats not  a completely stupid question and please only say if you want to.. i wont be offended!

how are all of you guys doing? i hope things are getting a bit better every single day.. please dont feel guilty about feeling slightly better if you ever do.. i know i sometimes feel bad.. but its only our anorexia making us feel bad.

does anyone have gcse's coming up these next few weeks? i do and im really scared.. i have revised until my brain hurts though, so hopefully all the pain will pay off!

good luck everyone.. i bet you're all amazing people and none of you deserve this life of misery xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

write soon if you can xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey sweetheart,

I have my A levels starting next week, and I know what you mean about feeling scared.

I'm not feeling too great to be honest, but never mind.

let me know how things are going,

take care,

lexy -xxx-

Hi,

ED-NOS is eating disorder not otherwise specified - it means that you have a mixture of lots of different eating disorders so you can't actually be catergorized into one eating disorder.

How did it go at the hospital this week?

take care,

-xxx- lillies