Recovering

Hi ammii3, I am also anorexic and was dagnosed around a year ago. I am currently normal weight and I cannot express how happier I am. Just think about how your ED is getting in the way of your life such as your friends etc. and all the things you can do without it. Also it is important to fight the loneliness you crave as I am exactly the same, but when I go out, I enjoy my self and being on your own will make you more depressed and unhappy!! Try and talk to someone about how you are feeling, and I am always here if you need a chat. The reason why you feel out of character and confused is because it is the ED not you!!

I admitt that my relationship with food is still unhealthy and I still have a long way to go until I am completely recovered, but I know I will get there eventually and so will you!! DO NOT GIVE UP. I hope this has helped, Good luck xx

Hi buttercups,

thank you so much for the understanding advice it's nice to be reminded every once in a while that people like me got through the illness. It's just that sometimes it is really hard to remember that the ED isn't me because it absorbs so much of my personality. I do talk to people a lot about how I'm feeling but as you may know it is one of the most difficult things to explain because I just feel overwhelmed with different emotions and thoughts right now.

It is great to hear that you are on the road to full recovery and I wish you all the best for the future. It would be helpful to hear what spurred you on to fight the ED.
Thank you again xx

Hi ammii3, how are you doing sweetie? I also feel very similar, but like buttercup said, even though you may not feel like socialising when you isolate yourself your mood is much worse. I've just left school and I found when I wasn't at school I kept myself away from everyone and was very down, and my eating was awful. But I spoke to my therapist and by going out and seeing friends I was distracted and surrounded by people who made me smile. Do you have any support? And can you talk to anyone about how you feel? Remember you are worth so much more than your ED, and you can do this. Try and seperate yourself from your ED, I had a family therapy session last week and they did a strange but good idea where they named my ED, and we talked about it using a puppet, which seperated it a little, but also identified how entangled my thoughts have become. I'm always here for you chic. And buttercups well done on reaching a healthy weight and tackling this, you are such an inspiration, and one day we will get there. Flo <3x

Hi Flo,

Thank you for the reply. Still feeling quite down at the moment if I'm honest but still fighting on! I do hav e a therapist and a family therapist like you which I find both very helpful. But my therapist has been away recently and it has been hard but as you know, you just have to get on with things. Although I have loads of support I know that it is easy to separate myself from the rest of the world and I hate bombarding everyone else with my problems. Also thank you for your support by sharing your situation.
I hope that you are well and feel ok. Ammii3

Hello Flo and Ammii3. My main inspiration to get better was the fact I didn't want to go into hospital and have to leave school and restart my education. I also began to realise that my ED was not only hurting me, but also my family. I also thought about all the things I could be doing right now if I wasn't ill like playing netball, going out, going on holiday, learning to drive and all the things I have to look forward to in the future without my ED. I think what Flo said is a brilliant idea and it is always important to think positive. Flo it sound great what you are doing and I'm sure if you continue you will definitely get there soon.  I know it is difficult, but keep on fighting and even though you haven't got your therapist right now remember you are still not alone as I am sure that your family and friends would love to listen and help you even if they do not fully understand as they are going through it too as I expect they can see how hard this is for you. I hope you are both well, keep fighting and never give up. Always here Buttercups x