I never believed I could get here...

I just wanted to say well done! I'm glad you finally feel like you're getting better and you seem to have accomplished so much, you're an inspiration to us all! Just keep going the way you are and yeah, congrats :) ! xxx

well doneee, do you still think about it none stop or does it feel like any other normal person where you can just pick anything up to eat ithout thinking? xx

erin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm beaming

love you huni xxxxx

Hey :D

Well I'm not there entirely but I am well on my way! Almost 2 months without binging or purging and I'm to be discharged from the inpatient unit in 3 weeks!

I honestly feel soooo much better, I just needed to get my feet on the right track but now I'm on it, nothing has been able to knock it, even some very unhelpful and previously triggering things that people on the ward have said to me.

I'm off all meds apart from the odd vitamins because my body's actually able to work and regulate itself properly now, I'm allowed time off the ward including overnight stays at home, I did a 2 course meal with my boyfriend on Friday and I'm even being trusted to start doing a yoga class once a week just to keep myself feeling well.

Keep at it girlies, it honestly becomes so much easier, and Danielle, everything begins to change once you stick to eating well, but like I've said, I'm not fully recovered, but I've done damned well for almost two months and I am sooo much happier.

Eating regularly is absolutely essential to know when you are really hungry and full, and it's still tricky at times, but I've managed for this long, so I'm not prepared to let myself fall into old habits.

Relationships are improving, my brain is working, my health is improving, I am farrr happier than ever before, and hopefully I'll be fit to get back to uni in January and be able to have the biggest achievement of all: to be able to say that I've beat anorexia :D

Adele, are you getting any better? xxxx  I hope you are!  :)

Colbicat, thanks for your kind words :) sometimes it's nice to know and be sure that recovery truely is the right thing when this horrible disease has been tricking me for so long! :)

It's definitely getting easier, and without a doubt the best thing I've stuck at to date :D

Positive thoughts to you all!!! :D xxxxxx

Wow Erin, that's some achievement, discharge within 3mths!!! It just proves that when you really want it anything can happen. It's so amazing that you're off meds now too, you must be doing so well and I'm so proud of you cos a while back things weren't looking so good. And yes....you're going to beat anorexia and that'll be the proudest day of your life and I'm so so proud of you!!

I'm not doing so good at the moment. I'm struggling with really sad thoughts and emotional streif. I'm struggling with eating patterns and behaviours and weight gain  the hospital want to discharge me. They say that they know I'm not better and that I'm still struggling a lot...but they're going to do it anyway. It seems like that's it for me now...help and support being all but a distant memory.

Hugs huni...keep up the fight because seeing Erin back the way she sld be is the most amazing thing ever.

aml Adele

Just wanted to say congrats and well done! Keep it up and you can do it! Does it really get easier? I've had a really good period before but then these last few months i've slipped back and it's fairly bad. Talk of inpatient but i managed to gain. But once i did i felt scared but glad and find my self slipping again. How do you do it? If i could have anything in the world it'd be to get rid off this awful illness which none off us deserve. I mean i'm too scared to eat anything incase i don't stop eating, is that normal? Maz9393 :)

Congratulations, that was such an inspiring thing to read. It really gives me hope and I'm determined to get back to being 100% me, I am still unsure of who I am, but I'm using this time to find out :) Wishing you all love and support, keep fighting xx

Hey, I was discharged from hospital yesterday :D and it's still going really well apart from having a sickness bug yesterday which was really difficult, but despite it I've been eating fine today :) I've definitely conquered the binge/purge routine and there's not a chance I'd let myself fall back into that trap! Adele, thanks :) I really hope that you've managed a bit better lately? Do you have your discharge date? The team who are looking after you must be able to see some improvements in your attitude towards food otherwise they wouldn't consider letting you go just yet, and remember, if it's too soon you need to tell them so because you don't want to do half a job right? let's get it beaten and gone for good! :) Maz9393, if you really really want rid of the illness you will do it :) It honestly does get easier! I'm not 100% and I have my down days but overall I've having so many more good days and I'm starting to like myself, because each day managing to eat is an achievement :) I think it's really normal to be worried about overeating, but that's why you need someone to set in place a regular eating pattern as the more you restrict the more your body will try to fight the restriction whereas with regular eating you can feel in control and wont think of food as much. Xxxx