Let me explain... Both me and a friend (lets call her X) are recovering from anorexia. I am further ahead in recovery (I am at a healthier weight with less eating difficulties. She is a low weight and still with a lot of issues regarding food). We both see the same psychologist, however this psychologist has now left and me and X will be seeing someone else.
I know who I'll be seeing, but X doesn't yet know. I am familliar with many of the counsellors at the centre. But if X saw the same person I would be jealous. I was when we saw the same psychologist but I saw more of her than X did, so I didn't feel too bad.
I feel so selfish.
There's one psychiaritst, a man, who I see for family therapy. I seem to have a history of wanting conern/attention from male authority figues (stems from my dad leaving when I was yong) and I feel if X starts to see him then I would be immensly jealous.
I have just realised this is all making me sound like such a horrible person. And I feel so ashamed. I just don't know what to do.
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written by:flowergirl
posted: 04.08.2008 message:
Hun this seems like a completly normal way to react like what u said with problems you had with your dad.It must be very difficult having you and someone u know suffering with an eating disorder maybe it is best that u dont seem to be spending that much time with each other now if ur x friends!
What do u think would make u feel better in this situation?
Do u think u coul explain to your phycolgist how your feeling or would that be too much?
xxx
Reply post 2: (No Subject)
written by:shabba
posted: 08.08.2008 message:
Hey thanks for your reply, it means a lot .
My friend has told me that she will be refered to somewhere else, another NHS counselling service. I am relieved in a way. I have been going to my current counselling centre for over 3 years now.
It may sound stupid but in a way I feel it is 'my territory'. That's why I was so jealous when I knew she was seeing the same psychologist (and might of started seeing the same person I will continue to see), although a part of me was also happy to share my experiences with her.
I know I need to move away from those feelings. And I need to detach myself as I get too involved and too attached to people/things. But I'm working on it.
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