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hi i will be facing the same thing at the weekend. i will not eat anything if possible, as i hate going out when ive eaten. if my family is around i will eat a little, or make myself sick if i have 'alone' time. its awful isnt it??? i feel like i live a secret life, im a size *now, so no-one thinks i have a problem anymore. i just wish i could eat normal food. when i do eat it has to be *, things with no * etc. Then i will binge and feel guilty. i feel for you, hope things improve for you.

hi i am albe to eat not. but if  able eat litte. make myself sick. can sometime go day without eating beacause feel so gulity  when do eat. i am size *  feel bigger.do 4 hr exercise day.ill al l time i i got no energy  zo  

your not some feel sorry for yourself loser, i think that about myself too. I find it really hard to eat at breakfast at lunch and im startin to feel a little guilty about eatin tea. I hate all this.

its soo weird.  

i have no choice of what i eat i am at the stange wher my parents are completley in control i hate it....?

i liked it b4 my parents found out coz of the stuff they make me have now. I dont make my self sick but im not looking 4ward to morrw? The doctors at the hospital are talkin about hospital and im soo frigtend. I like havin the control and it makes me feel better of my self. I guess to make me better and beet anorexia they have to take control of me it has been like this 4 a long time now. I surpose hospital would be twice as worce.

I have to have brckfast snaks lunch and tea and i never tell my parents that i feel horible and hate myself for eating them.

Im ranting on about myself and im soo sorry but its the place wher i think i can exspres . If u no what i meen?

I  dont no if any of u people who have posted messiges above if ur family no about ur illness. Well i dident tell them??

They found out? But i think that it would be gud to tell them and try and get all the help that u can and i am glad that my family no coz i no that i can get help for my illness. But i have advise..... Let ur parents take control of you if ur wanting to get better it might not seem the best thing to do at the time but the only way to do that is to get someone to take all control of u and make u have the thing. I meen i dident get my parents to do that the doctors and people i see told the to do that.? Good im hopeless im soo sorry for ranting..

But its made me feel better...Xx

hopefully someone will rite bak to this and take the advise that i have just givin..

Hope all goes good and keep strong..

All my love hattiiy x

hey i'm kind of having this as well. my mum's just gone away for a week but before she went she was making me food and eating a bit herself with me so i couldn't hide the food or throw it away. now she's away i don't have to eat so much which i know is bad for me but i don't have that feeling of guilt or being forced into it. but i had this experience on sunday where i was dizzy/faint, massive headache, exhausted, stomach pain (not from hunger just pain) AND hands and legs shaking all at the same time. eventually i drank because i hoped it would raise my energy . then my stomach pain went away enough so i could eat and the whole time i was making and eating it ana was telling me not to but i had to shout at her until i'd eaten it . that's inspired me to try and eat more because that pain and exhaustion was more than i could bear, i literally couldn't stand up by myself without leaning on something or someone. hope this helps anyone else xxxxxxx

Hi Baby Boo i have to eat exactly what my mum (and the doctors) tells me too and i hate it. it's really really hard , i often feel angry but i dont want to lash out at her or anyone else in my family. I feel like its way too much food, yet there is nothing i can do to stop it and i am just going to get fatter and fatter and angrier and angrier. It really scares me, loads!

I hope things start to get better for you, but i just wanted to say that i feel the same way too and i guess we all just have to try to be strong, even though at times it is really really hard.

Tess

xxx