im back!

i have been making myself sick for a while now and i have told my mum and dad. thing is i want support from my friends as well i just dont no how to tell them cuz they will think im ill but im not and they mite think i have gone mad!!! wat shall i do??harrie xxx

Hiya Becky,

Well done thats amazing that you have come so far!

I hope you dont mind me asking but I am a recovering anoreixc and have been eating a proper diet for a few months now and although I am now at a stable weight my mind is still quite in a anorexic state and although I never want to go back to being poorly and I dont think I would let myself.I cant help this desire to starve myslef.I just wanted to know does it fade cos I hate feeling fat? and will I ever be happy with my body?Because right now I feel HUGE!!!!

Is there anyway I can help this process of getting my mind back quicker?

SORRY for all the questions!

Love Jennyxxxxxxxxx

yay, backy your back.

I'm glad you're okay, I thought something may have happened to you.

I don't know if you remeber me, but I remember you! You wrote in my topic 'starting' I think....... Well I have a new topic now, 'despair'. You can read it if you want, but you dont have to bother, just a suggestion. Sorry if I sound all over the place, things dont seem to be going right for me at the moment so yeah...

Speak soon hopefully

xxxxAimiexxxx

That was such a fantastic thing to read, you are amazing. I've been through a very simliar situation, although I was in hospital only for a few days. But it did make me think about my life, where I was going with anorexia and where I wanted to be in the future. It was a real turning point and I don't regret it.

 Keep strong x

Hey Becky

It puts a huge smile on my face to read your post, because I'm SO determined to get there!!!  I was in hospital from January until May, and then I moved to outpatient care, and thing actually got worse instead of better, I've been on the edge of being sectioned for the past few months.  I was on these calorie drinks, but I always cheated them so I decided to take matters into my own hands recently and replace them with food.  It's been so hard and I've struggled a lot lately, but I've been going good for two weeks now, slight relapse this weekend, but I think that was the crucial period not to completely relapse in and I'm SO determined to keep it going through next week!!!

Thanks for posting your positivity on here, it's SO inspiring to read!!!

Love Caitlin

xxxx

hellooooo guyssss =]

well i have lots of you to reply too, so lets start with harrie!

iam glad that you have told your parents asap. because thats always such a hard step, and i am glad you want help too before things get worse. just tell your frieds that you are havign some problems and that it would be great if they were there to support you because it will help you get through this fase before it gets serious. it is important to get help now. its early days so the faster you get help the better! let me know hoe things are going xxx

jenny...

i just want to say well done for keeping to your plan and iam proud of your progress =] there are days where these thoughts will come into your head but you've just got to remind yourself that the more you listen the more likrly you are to go back downhill and like you said you really dont want to be poorly again, you've got your life to live. you may feel fat, but in reality you are not. your beautiful and its these thoughts that mek you feel and see otherwise. what you have to do, is to try and get these thoughts out of your head, by staying strong and realizing that the anorexia wants to get the better of you. and we wont let it okay!!! iam going to be here for you always! xxx

Aimee..!

i do remember you! and its great talking to you again! i should now be back on a regualr basis. :) iam sorry to hear that things are not going so well. i will read your other topic dispair, and i will try to help you as much as i can ! stay strong beautiful =]=] xxxx

hi caitalin..!

iam glad ive inspired you! iam glad that your determined! it feels like an achiement to me to know that i have managed to help in some way. just by maing someone smile :)  i used to have to have energy drinks and like you i cheated them. however in the end i realized that they were exactly what my body needed to become healthy again-not fat! thats the difference! try your best not to relapse because you can get thru this and begin enjoying life jut like i do =] xxxx

thankyou to all of your comments, and i reli hope ive helped in someway. ill always be here for all of you to talk to! im fighting with you!!

love from becky xxxx

well i have talked to my friends but the worst thing has happened i told one of my friends and she told one person and then they told another and another and now wen i see people i no from skl they give me strange looks. i fear its making me worse i dont want to leave the house much anymore and i feel so sad i dont no why this is happening to me!!!harrie xxx

well now you know ywho your true friends are. that wasnt very nice at all for them to do that. dont be ashamed because what is happeing is not your fault. you cant control it, but you will be able to with all the help you can get.

dont hide yourself away. go out, try and enjoy yourself and maybe this will take your mind off of wanting to throw up. i know how ya feel. there are so many temptations but you just have to do all you can to avoid wanting to make yourself sick.

makesure you get some more help. and your true friends will be there for you. iam a true friend! whqt you tell me stays between us. i had people spread rumours about me at school. word does get out. its horrible, but just stand up, and be proud of who  you are. =]

loys of love xxxxx

thanxz soooo much becky you are right about true friends and i no i can trust you and hopefully you no you can always trust me. Its so great to be able to talk to someone about this who will understand me thanxz agenlots of love xxxxomigosh i dont half go on do i lol

aww thats okay xxxx

i know i can trust you :) thankyou aswell its always nice to talk to you x

how are you?

much love xxxx

aww thats okay xxxx

i know i can trust you :) thankyou aswell its always nice to talk to you x

how are you?

much love xxxx

Yeah its great talkin 2 you an all XDIm doing alryte considering my problems at the moment lol.Wat about you??Thinking of you xxxxx Harrie

:)

well if you want to talk about your problems, im here to help you =]

iam doing great thankyou!

enjoying life finally :P

becca xxxx

thanks, sometimes its nice to think bout sumin else.gd 4 u chiik!!! =Pdo u watch bigbrother??xxx

yeah, it is :)

i used to watch it all the time, but i havent really got into it this year =/ i gues thats coz im out alot of the time and is never in to see it =]

when i was ill i never got the chance to go out with my mates, now i take every oppertunity i get =]=]

i take it you watch big bro then?

how old are you then..>?

becky xxxx

ya i do.im 12 wat about u??harrie xxx

heyaaaa

iam 15 years old

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