scared and alone?

heya,

ive just replied to ur other post but hey,

im only yr 10 so dont hav many exams this yr but had two 2day n another on wed. havin an ED is so hard n exams r hard so its not surpisin ur a bit down it must b so hard to cope wiv both at once so ur doin reali well.

hunni im sure the skool nurse will b fine, shell probs ask u a few questions abt ur elationship wiv food n mayb weigh u but i dunno cos i neva saw mine but im sure itll b fine :)

hunni im prayin for u n im here if u wanna chat

Danielle xxx

Hi,

I'm doing my AS levels at the moment. Twenty days after my last GCSE exam i was hospitalised (voluntarily), so i know how hard it is to cope with exams and an ED at the same time. It is really hard to focus on revision, but you just have to try and eat small, nutritous snacks regularly to keep your blood sugar level up.

I have depression as well. It makes me feel really down and awful. I am on medication for mine, but sometimes it feels as though it doesn't really help :(

I see my school nurse once a week/fortnightly, and i have done for the past 20 months, and i find that it really helps. School nurses are really understanding, and they provide a lot of support and help. Mine was kind enough to go for a walk with me the day before i went into hospital even though i wasn't at school. School nurses aren't scary at all, and they just want to help you and make you feel better.

Let me know how it goes,

-xxx- lillies

Soz you feel so alone. You are lucky to hav school nurse to talk to. Hope she helps.Try not to worry about GCSEs, they are important but you are more important.

Could nurse help you tell parents? Then you would hav more support to get you thro exams.Sometimes not teling is worse than actually telling. I thought mine would freak but said they were relieved coz they knew something was wrong but I wouldn't talk. Wish I had.

Good luck!

xxx annie

Hey thanks :)

Im gonna go see her tommorow hopefully ill let you know how it goes, im soooo scared but i know that it is for the best :D

So should be okay, although im feeling sooo unhappy at the minute :(

hiya,

hunni itll b fine n it shud help u n yes its definatly for the best :D

ill b prayin for u

stay strong beautiful

Danielle xxx

Hi,

Good luck for tomorrow *hugs*

Let me know how it goes,

-xxx- lillies

Hey,

well the school nurse is on holiday, how very typical haha, have to go see her next week instead...

:)

Hi,

Oh dear....or is that a good thing? I can't really tell from your comment how you feel about it.

How are things going for you?

Things aren't going too great for me at the moment :(

hope you're okay,

-xxx- lillies

Its bad haha, rather it would have been before then it would have been over with :)

Things arent great at the moment though

Hi,

Things aren't great with me either, had a lot of bad stuff happen today :(

Did my german exam, which didn't go too well. I kept forgetting everything.

I binge ate yesterday and i ate the recommended amount today, so i must have put on loads of weight. I give up with my eating, It is making me so miserable

How are you doing?

take care,

-xxx- lillies

Soz to hear nurse away.  Praps u can speak to parents instead. I woz scared of mine, thougth they would moan and not believe me but it woznt like that.  They actually listened and said they wanted to help.  Amazing coz they were usually so busy with everything never had time for me.  When is nurse back?  How were exams?  Nearly forgot to ask. Soz x take care xxx annie

Went to see the nurse and she was soooo nice and isnt going to make me do anything i dont want to such as rig my parents :)

i have to see her every wednesdy now but she honestly is really really nice so i didnt even have to worry :D

Exams were alright bit tiring especially with no food feeling abit weak but im great at the minute :)

Glad it went well with nurse.  She sounds cool.  Good to hav someone to talk to. 

Good you go thro exams and feel ok.

I am eating ok at the moment.  Trying not to panic about calories.  Try hard nnot to read labels as that makes me worse.  What is the worst bit for u?

I dont know actually....just food all together, i hate it :(

the nurse tried to weigh me today but i didnt want her too because i dont want to knowhow much i weigh....will probs make things worse:(

but yeah things are okay at the min :)

I am not really clever and I hav got my prblems but I know weight is a stupid measurement coz of bones.  counsellor told me that.  u r prob right not to get weighed. Eating probs are in our heads anyway and not on the scales.  I know all that but it shard to believe it!!  Weird right.

Don't stop eating though.  Not good idea.  Just makes everything worse.

keep smiling   X

Hi,

I am glad to hear that your school nurse is nice *hugs*. I also see my school nurse, and she is really nice as well. They are really helpful and mine has helped me through a lot of difficult times over the past two and a half years.

Don't feel as though you have to be weighed unless the professionals insist it is absolutely neseccary because they think you are at a dangerously low weight - if you think it will make you worse, then just say you don't want to be weighed at the moment - or they could weigh you, but you don't have to look.

How are things going? *hugs*

take care,

-xxx- lillies

things are bad...i want to get better but i cant help looking at how many calories are in food and then feeling guilty :@

havent eaten for a while, dont know what to do.....teachers at school who know said to email them if i needed to, but i really dont have a clue what to say....even though i know they would listen ;(

GRRRRR i hate this soooo bad!! :( :(

Hi,

I know how frustrating it feels for you - i'm going through an ED at the moment as well, and i don't really know how to describe it to people either. *hugs*

Maybe you could try talking to your school nurse again? She sounds nice and she wouldn't mind listening to you and helping you out with your problems.

Sorry this is so short but i;m really tired,

take care,

-xxx- lillies