Total Posts: 53
Joined: Aug 2011
|
Hi, i'm 17,
currently suffering from anorexia and depression, i had been in recovery on and off for about 6 months, but i've recently relapsed.
Feeling very hopeless, my relationships with the people i care about are suffering, i'm deceptive and manipulative, and i dont want that. I just feel so scared, I'm trying to avoid inpatients, just feel so tired. Yesterday i saw my dietician after a long time without seeing her and she said she was concerned, and how long do i think my body will cope with this, and i didnt have an answer. I have a younger sister, and two loving parents who are seperated but i hate the worry i'm causing them.
Flo
Tags:
Posted on July 11, 2012 at 8:46 AM
|
Total Posts: 12
Joined: Jun 2012
|
re: Not a carer, trying to understand things from a a carers perspective.
Hiya Flo my daughters almost 18 and was diagnosed in march with anorexia it came on really quick or it seemed to from my point of view To start with the seriousness of the illness didnt hit me and its taken reading a lot on here going with * to her appointments and getting books out of the library to try and understand it and unless we try and understand it, it would be so easy to think oh its just a behaviour thing and then get cross, so now if * has had a difficult week when being weighed i try to hide my sadness and be positive and i felt like i had won the lottery when she gained but didnt show a reaction to that either. So basically its like walking on eggshells to try and preserve the fantastic relationship we had/have and hope she is being truthfull sometimes we have massive rows when im not so patient maybe or after an appointment and they do end up probably helping as it gets everything out in the open, and i try to sperate the ED from her so weve given it a name and she finds it better too i think to seperate it from her, i dont know how anyone else feels as i know every case is a slightly different story, talk to your mum she will love that i know when * had decieved me so confessed and said she felt so much better and felt like she had been in prison while she was being deceptive, and all i felt was greatfull that she had trusted me enough to tell me what she was up to and that was a point then of real clarity positive things happened like she made a list of all the reasons to kick it and we all posted notes for her Let them in you will be suprised and" You alone can do it, But you cant do it alone" is so true.
Lots and lots of love to you Flo from a mum who wishes this illness never existed. Julia xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Posted on July 11, 2012 at 5:56 PM
|
Total Posts: 12
Joined: May 2012
|
re: Not a carer, trying to understand things from a a carers perspective.
Hi Flo,
As Merryweather said, every case is different and each individual reacts differently to the situation.
I feel if anyone has a serious mental health condition, whatever it may be, it may have an impact on those around them. It can be very hard, distressing, upsetting and stressful to see someone you love suffer. However, life is fraught with difficulties.
Without going into too much detail, in my situation, it all became too much and had a very negative impact on every aspect of my life. I understood it was the ED that was the root of the problem.
Try to remember that no matter what happens, your parents love you and want to see you return to full health. At times, your journey, which those around you are part of, might be difficult. There will be ups and downs, tears and laughs, stressful times and happy times. That's just life.
I'm sure your parents will have done a lot of reading and understand that you and your ED as two separate things. They will understand it's not you, but your ED that makes you "deceptive and manipulative". Try not to worry about these things and focus on your recovery.
I guess all I can say is, if you can find the strength and the courage, seek out professional help, stay strong and be positive as you continue your journey of recovery.
Just as Merryweather said, "you alone can do it, but you can't do it alone". Try to communicate as openly as you can with those whom you trust.
Take care and keep fighting.
Posted on July 12, 2012 at 3:31 PM
|
