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El199

El199
Total Posts: 9
Joined: Dec 2012

Hello,

I'm new here and guess I wanted to post to introduce myself. I developed borderline anorexia three and a half years ago, and two years ago it transformed almost overnight into a non-purging subtype of bulimia.

A few weeks ago I finally got the courage to go and get help and am now on a waiting list for self-help CBT but no idea how long the list is! Anyway, I am at a real low point with the ED and really struggling to keep going with it because, as you're all aware, it's a huge burden. My friends and family are wonderful but I don't think any of them can truly understand what it's like which is why I've come here both to get support and try and offer it.


I feel so alone and afraid and so sick of being ill even .



xxxx

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Posted on December 28, 2012 at 6:43 PM
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itllbeok

itllbeok
Total Posts: 4
Joined: Oct 2012

re: Another new person...

Hi

Welcome to beat. I don't use the site that much any more but it was a great help when i really needed it. How old are you by the way?



I'm 22 and in recovery from bulimia, which I had for 5 years on and off. I'm glad that you went to get help. It can take a while but hopefully the wait will be worth it. I had group cbt at a hospital, which was quite helpful. Do you know how many sessions you will get? The important thing about any type of therapy is to be honest, otherwise what's the point?



It's good that you have supportive friends and family. My friends/housemates were what got my through when I lived away from home. I know what you mean when you say that they will never truly understand but the important thing is that they are trying to. Discuss with them some specific things they could do to help you. For example my housemate took me food shopping each week , she knew the things that I couldn't buy and helped me to stick to what i needed.



I went to therapy with someone who had suffered for 10 years and it was then that I told myself that that was not going to happen to me . It does get better trust me .



Take care x

Posted on December 28, 2012 at 10:12 PM

sailor

sailor
Total Posts: 1
Joined: Dec 2012

re: Another new person...

Hi there, this is a first for me. Similarly to you, I too am "in limbo" awaiting CBT to assist me with my ED/Depression, which to me is a bit like chicken and egg, I think it is hard to know which one comes first but I feel both are exacerbated by each other! I have signed up to the message board like you and the others as a way of releasing some of my anxiety around food and my obsession with it in one way or another.


I've had an ED of one sort or another most of my life and I would say up until 5 years ago I was pretty much cured of it (or so I thought). I was mainly bulimic throughout my teens, 20's & 30's but since my late forties I have experienced episodes of Anorexia/Orthorexia and binge-eating.


I am 52 next year and so terribly weary of the whole thing.


I wondered are there any others in my age group out there - most folks seem to think of eating disorders as being confined to certain age groups?



Thanks :o)

Posted on December 29, 2012 at 4:27 PM

El199

El199
Total Posts: 9
Joined: Dec 2012

re: Another new person...

Hey thanks for your replies



I'm 19, but 20 this month. Not too sure how many sessions. The psychologist said that I would get self-help CBT to start with but if that didn't provide enough progress I would then start a course of one-on-one CBT, so I'm assuming it's more a case of seeing how it goes. I was offered group CBT though but felt far too nervous of talking about it with lots of others,

I like the idea of going food shopping with someone else,

Must say I don't like being in limbo waiting for the CBT, Im sure you know what I mean. It feels like Ive accepted that this is something I can't tackle alone but in the meantime there isn't a lot that can be done really; it's probably what has brought me to a low point> there was so much hype about the treatment but now it's come to a standstill. I too suffered mild depression at one point, and I think you're right, not eating enough certainly messes with your hormones enough to worsen the depression, and then the depression makes the eating even more disordered.

Sorry to sound incredibly naive but can I ask what sort of symptoms orthorexia consists of? Never heard much about it myself



xxxx

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