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Bunnylove - Dont worry yourself too much. I know its easier said than done but once you've nailed it you will look back and wonder why you worried so much if you go down that road too far relax, take a bath or chat to us on hear! Take your mind of it.
You made an excellent point about people guessing our emotions though - all the more reason to smile even when you feel torn inside. Keep smiling and eventually it will stick -I feel that other people react better to a smiley person so eventually everything relaxes, you feel better and the smile is for real. I recently had to give this a go myself as I was weraing my troubles on my sleeve. Colleagues were concerned about me. So one day I came into work and was overtly happy and smiley - even though I was still trying to claw my way out of my recent low. I felt I became more approachable . Its all how you perceive the world and allow the world to perceive you.
Thanks Tulip, My appointment is next Wednesday so fingers crossed! I have a heavy weekend this weekend so its going to be a good test beforehand after my progress. Im hoping this will be enough to keep on track. I am glad my words are of some help, sometimes we are too hard on ourselves. I am my own worst enemie I know. It can help to have a bit of cheerleading every now and then
Rach xxx
Posted on July 12, 2012 at 3:51 PM
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Thank you for your sympathy Tulip. Well, I am blissfully happy right now as I wanted the most challenging of my outdoor performances to go without a hitch and it did! .
We need reassurance if food causes us anxiety.
I guess this stess reaction happens to us in everyday life as well so keeping calm is the key.
I miss the dance classes over the summer break.
Tulip as a parent when things go wrong in my daughters life I look back on her up-bringing. She said next day that I had also been good in other ways which was comforting. I reflected on my relationship with my mum
I hope everyone gets their CBT soon as it does help with the problem solving skills. In the meantimes do use the self help books.
Lots of love
Bunnylove xxx
Posted on July 12, 2012 at 4:04 PM
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Woah, my brain is fried. I had all the notifications of posts arrive at once. Is lovely to hear from everyone!
Bunny love i'm so glad it went without a hitch That is brilliant. I've actually felt in control in regards to binging, for me i got to my 'healthy weight' and then started binging, felt stuck in a rut. How long did it take for you to feel ok about food, once you started eating healthily?
Tulip, i'm glad it was helpful, it really helped me too. I went and saw her again today, and she said we need to find an incentive for me to stand up to anorexia, not because of other people. I'm really struggling with it,
Rachlou i agree, you are right. i am trying to think of the positive things and use those when i am struggling, its sad but i cant remember what i was like before the eating became an issue. I miss being more relaxed and carefree. But i agree with what you said about when you smile even when things arent really okay, it does lift your mood. Those around you are happy when you smile at them, and generally everyone seems in a more positive mood, it is much easier to get through the day like this than having people constantly asking what is wrong.
Something i am really frustrated with is that i haven't been allowed to go on my challenge due to my emotional health and eating disorder, i've hated having those labels, and disagreeing with them, but they wanted me to go at a different time when they would have staff available to support me, but i dont understand how having a member of staff to help me would have made much of a difference. I really am fine to go on the residential. Sigh and huff.
How are you guys all doing? Look forward to hear from you, a quote one of the moms told me which i really loved was 'You alone can do it, but you cant do it alone'
Love flo x
Posted on July 12, 2012 at 8:26 PM
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Fab quote Flo Im doing good thank you - still one day at a time but Im getting on to a couple weeks binge free now! Happy days. Fingers crossed I can keep going as its weekends for me that can be a mindfeild! I am celebrating with friends this weekend for a hen party - If I can stay in control and not let this trouble me then come Monday I will be ecstatic. Its always when my gaurd is down and Im enjoying myself that before I know it I have slipped big time.. I know I can do it though. It wouldnt be very good if I was cheering you guys on and didnt beleive in myself now would it!?
I hope everyone has a fantatsic weekend.
Rach Lou xxx
Posted on July 13, 2012 at 3:52 PM
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Flo I suppose I am disappointed for you that you couldnt get to your challenge but I think others were concerned about you being able to make good decisions on your own about meals. I did find , expecially at first that having other people encourage me to eat meals or snacks did make it easier.Once you are convinced in your own mind though , you will do it yourself. What is most convincing for me to stand up to anorexic tendencies is that if I dont eat properly I really notice I am in a low mood, easily upset and I feel jaded when I want to do things. Dancing is one of my hobbies and I lack energy if I dont eat. I dont feel I concentrate well on my Ou work either so I really feel I get punished for folowing restrictive habits.My fertility was an issue which meant I only had one child and that is something which may not matter right now but one day it will for you.
Discovering that regular eating alongside allowing myself to be a normal healthy weight has enabled my weight to remain stable and I am less obsessive about food. I used to be vry hungry and of couse that makes our minds preoccupied with eating. It is our bodies natural reaction. Getting used to a normal body takes a little while but eventually you dont notice any more and it feels more comforable so it has many benefits.
Rach you are doing amazingly and I hope you can continue to enjoy this lovely rspite. Binge eating is as difficult an Ed as any other. The good habits will get easier the more you practice them. It would be lovely to relax at the hen party and enjoy the occasion. It is a special event and my dietician assured me that people can have treats at such times but you want to be aware of staying comfortable by noticing how you are feeling and taking your time to enjoy the food.
I am a bit disappointed in my result for my assignment which was a good pass but I had hoped for a bit more. However I did well on the exercise front because I feel I have had such a busy week with the dance events that I am foregoing my usual swimming to have a quiet night in . That is unusual for me! I know it sounds like nothing to other people but I need a lot of reassurance with things like that as I that has been my worst OCD problem. I think we are all quite hard on ourselves if we dont achieve all we aspire to but we do try very hard!
Lots of love
Bunnylove xxxxxxxx
Posted on July 13, 2012 at 9:23 PM
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Yes BunnyLove - we are hard on ourselves and are never happy with results. Its the nature of us else we wouldnt strive for the next thing each time. I dont think these are necessarily bad traits - they just need to be channelled in the right direction.
Self attack is my big thing and I am very hard on myself, I am constantly being told to stop beating myself up so I am hoping to work on this over the coming weeks.
The weekend was fab and ultimately I did slip off the wagon for a few days as it were and I knew I would... I am nursing my tummy back now but have been good since so I can hopefully draw a line under it...
I went for my CBT session today - first one so nothing too exciting. I met my therapist and she seems nice, she got me to reveal myself to her and what I want to acheive. Normally such situations would have left me feeling drained or emotional but weirdly I didnt really feel anything. I am having weekly session starting at the end of this month so fingers crossed it will help with my thought processes that contribute to my ED. Binge eating is and Anorexia was a symptom to me rather than the cause - Im hoping once I control my thoughts or at least undertsand them and stop blaming myself then things may get easier... Hopeful
I hope everyone had a good weekend and is feeling positive as we are half way through this week.
Love Rach Lou xxx
Posted on July 18, 2012 at 4:11 PM
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Hi Bunnylove, i was really angry and disappointed at first. The fact that the team at the challenge and my team at Camhs had made the decision i wasn't safe to go without me having a say made me so frustrated. I guess if i look at it now when i'm calmer and more rational i can see that they just needed to cover their own backs, and had my best interests at heart. I'm going to look into doing some voluntary work, and there is also a female only volunteering project happening towards the end of the holidays. I have 6 weeks off now until i start my final year at A level, i'm nervous of how to fill my time, and that i do not have the structure of school, or the free time to use the gym facilities, which is causing me anxiety. but for now I've been going for runs, helps me clear my head. I'm about to write a CV so i can apply for a new job as i am not enjoying working in my current position anymore, my boss is very flirty and sometimes inappropriate, and i think i need an environment which is not involving food.
it is really lovely and reassuring to hear you words Bunnylove, i have such admiration for you Thankyou for helping me remember it isnt a bad thing to eat, and that my body will eventually settle if i eat healthily, it is just a scary thing to get my head around. I think it is brilliant that you have dance, and that you managed to have your daughter. I havent really thought about my fertility in the long term, my periods are affected but i've just dismissed that. but i would like to be a mom, i love children.
How is your dancing going at the moment? and OU? Bunnylove a pass is fantastic! I too beat myself up for not getting the good enough grade, but 'what is good at enough?' I am very proud, and that is such an achievement, I think you feel a little sense of pride/achievement that you are strong enough to not let the OCD rule. Well done!
I am feeling in a good mood this morning, the sun in shining which i believe is such an influence on mood, the vitamin D definitely causes the feel good factor.
Hi Rachlou, so glad you are learning to be easier on yourself, i do that too. Constantly worrying about what i have or havent done, and if it was good enough, or blaming myself when i actually had no control over the situation. For me the easiest way to lessen this is to imagine if i were my best friend, and they were telling me what i tell myself, then i think of what i would say to them, like encouragement and reassurance, the more positive things which i find hard to accept myself - not sure i am explaining myself well but i hope you understand where i am coming from?
Really glad you got your first CBT session, i get on really well with my therapist, she is very warm and has a lovely calming voice, i find it hard to be dishonest with her. She makes me smile too when i am having a 'flapping moment' during a session.
I think it's fab that you are not letting the little slip turn into a big slip, i find that difficult.
I turn 18 soon and the team were talking about a transition to adults, they asked me what i wanted, and i said i worried because i'd already been using the service for 2 years, and although i've made alot of progress, at the same time i'm still holding onto my eating disordered thinking and i dont want to waste anymore time. Also the idea of talking to someone new and change is horrible. I dont know what to do, my dietician said she doesnt feel happy to discharge me, and i should just give adults a try, and if i dont like it i dont have to carry on going, but i dont know.
My reply is so long! Sorry guys. Hope you are all ok?
Lots of love, flo x
Posted on July 23, 2012 at 10:58 AM
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Hi everyone,
Sorry I haven't replied in so long. For some reason I did not receive any notifications of new posts
Hope everyone is feeling well at the moment. The sunny weather is good as people in general seem happier which is lovely and it's nice not to have to stay in sheltering from the rain!
Bunnylove, well done on your assignment. I know u r a bit disappointed but a good pass is good, especially for what sounded like a very challenging assignment, really well done. Have you had your family holiday yet?
Hi Rachel, must be good to have done your first cbt session, to have got the initial anxiety out of the way. I hope it really helps. I echo flos words, well done for moving on from your little blip. That can be so difficult and a time when we r very likely to be punishing ourselves with self attack. I hope the journal long is still helping and that it and the cbt help you get to the root difficulties.
Flo, I hope the job hunting etc is going well and you are managing to enjoy having some time off and not getting too anxious. It must be quite daunting thinking about moving on to adult services but your dieticians point sounds good about trying it out. Hopefully with the option of not continuing it if u r not happy u can try not putting too much pressure on yourself about it. U definitely shouldn't worry about wasting people's time. They are there to help you and you need help. That's not a bad thing. I hope the volunteering works out. Do you know what type of things it would involve?
I'm feeling positive at the moment and I'm trying to seize that and take steps forward. I'm really working hard at trying not to worry about my weight and shape but rather concentrate on eating properly. Easier said than done but definitely a good focus.
I just got a little cat. He's 1 and needed a home. He is really sweet and friendly and I love having him.
Best wishes xxx
Posted on July 25, 2012 at 5:32 PM
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Hi Tulip, lovely to hear from you! I wasn't receiving notifications for a while either, very frustrating.
I currently am printing off CV's, and i have been naughty and called in sick at work today although i am fine, however my therapist said to be it is how i feel emotionally too, sickness isnt just physical, which made me feel much better about not going. I just dont feel able to be there for 8 hours atm.
I'm seeing the dietician again this week, i'm really nervous for going.
My psych told me to think of an incentive, a reason for recovery, but for myself ; not to please others, or just to make it to uni, or get people off my back. To be honest i really cant think of one, i want to be healthy, but atm i feel like i am unhealthy. I'm just so confused with how i feel, sorry for this long waffly response.
I'm so proud of you, it's brilliant youre feeling more positive, i want to do that too, try and forget the number and focus on regulating a normal eating pattern, it's much harder to do than to say though Awww! My kitten will be 1 in August, she's getting big now, and is so cute but naughty. What colour is he?
How are you doing today tulip?
Lots of love flo xx
Posted on July 27, 2012 at 11:47 AM
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Hi flo,
Thanku for your message. It's always so lovely to hear from you. Well done for taking the day off and I hope you felt better for it. I did the same recently as just felt too
Down to go to work but I felt bad too as you feel like there's nothing wrong but it's right that mental illness is just as valid as physical illness.
I hope your visit to the dietician goes well. Try not to worry too much and remember that she's just trying to help. Have you managed to think of an incentive for getting better yet? That sounds really hard. I don't know what mine would be either. Sounds tricky. How have you been?
I struggled at the weekend do now im feeling quite low, with all the bad thoughts that come after I've binged. Generally I've been doing better but it's like I can only do so much and then I crack and binge. I just really want to stop but but don't seem strong enough.
My cat is 1year old. I don't know his exact age. He's black and white. Now he's settled in he's started to be a bit naughty too but he's really really friendly and so cute!
Hope you have a great week flo, lots of love xxx
Posted on July 30, 2012 at 10:39 AM
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Flo TUlip Rach and everyone isnt this aazing that we hav all decided to check the website at once. I am leaving for my Hols this week and felt it ws strange that nobody had written so it must have been a website problem. I forged ahead with another assignment due not long after I get back. I am pleased to have done this and feel really ready for a change of routine. I hope to get outdoors a lot and have taken lots of arty things which I hope to use. I will see my daughter for the first time since January and we will spend a lot of time talking although we have spoken on the phone. Ther was nothing better than getting engrossed in another task to take my mind off the last one. Another new very helpfulk recreation is the new garden my husband created in Spring. All we had was dull m oss grass but he turned it all over and we planted wild seeds as well as perrennials and it has turned into a riot. I had to thin out the plants and have discovered that just like caring for animals, having to handle the delicate plants brings out the gentler feelings of nurturance. I have experineced quite a lot of anger and low tolerance levels in myself which I havnt liked but the pottering in the garden has helped them melt away effortlessly. I was under pressure to do something extra for voluntary work as they really need extra help but I was stressed about how to manage. However I went along and explained that I feel able to do but I am getting it organised.This will m,ean I can do more if I do get time. BY the time the forms are sorted I should be less busy with my OU anyway.
Flo I think it is excellent that you have decided to leave a job which has caused you continual stress. I was pleased to leave catering as well.
I think it was hard for you to have decisions taken out of your hands about the challenge but maybe in your heart you know that you would have found it too difficult to make healthy decisions around foor without some backup.Your safety is an issue for those responsible for your wellbeing. If you can do well and start to show that you realise your health is very important I expect people will give you more freedom and respect you as being capable of running your life. I can remeber how I didnt think of my longterm future at your age . it is an age when people want to take some risks but it is better if the risks are an adventurous sort . I am afraid I was a timid soul and maybe my eating was my main way of expressing things I needed to. We must find better ways to express ourselves. I think we all get to a stage when we want to show that we are our 'own person'. We can do that in nice ways like choosing our hobbies , clothes, harirstyles etc if we have that freedom.
Thank you Tulip and Rach for all your understanding. I think I am managing to be optimistic that I can at least persevere regardless of whether I can ever get a higher mark. The dance week was very lively and intensive and although I wasnt the best performer I loved being involved in performances.
Biggest eating challenge recently has been that a friend has wanted to eat out quite regularly and that isnt an area I am comfortable with but it has arisen before and made me feel awkward if I dont join in. I am realising that eating out is an important social activity for many people so i do need to accept doing it at least occasionally.It was worrying me so much that I wished I coulkd speak to my dietician about it although I have been discharged. It just hadnt arisen but it has kept cropping up.I will hear from everyone again in two weeks. I hope I can stay relaxed about food. I have been a bit stressed by weighing, not a good idea for me and I feel t wasnt wise to start that so it is good I wont have that in the holiday cottage. I hope this helps me. I need to go by how I feel ,
Lots of love
Bunnylove xxxxxxxxx
Posted on August 02, 2012 at 5:41 PM
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Hi ya,
How is everyone? I hope that you are all enjoying the summer and holidays
I've not been doing too well but I'm trying to get back on track and i'm going to go back to my self help book as i've slipped away from that recently.
I had my CBT assessment this week and I was really upset by it. The Therapist said that as the eating disorder seems to be my main issue she does not think that CBT will help. She is going to speak to her supervisor to see what can be done and she will look into referring me to the eating disorder service but it will depend on their criteria.
I was really upset and quite cross as I have been saying the same thing to all the professionals i have spoken to and i seem to keep being passed onto someone else who then says that they can't help me. She is the 5th person that i have had to discuss everything with and I find it really hard to talk about some things. I feel like i am telling them really personal things which i don't like to talk about and don't want to talk about with people unnecessarily and then find out i didn't really need to have opened up so much as they are not able to help me anyway. I am confused anyway as CBT is supposed to help people like me and i was surprised that she didn't seem to have experience with people with EDs as the person that referred me to her knew that that was what my issue was. i am also now concerned that i might not get any help as i might not fit the criteria for the ED service. However i have now decided that if they won't help me i will try to find some help privately as i am determined to deal with this and i know that i can't do it on my own.
Thanks for being here to listen.
Lots of love
Tulip
Posted on August 19, 2012 at 7:29 PM
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Hi Tulip, i'm good thankyou, i have had my longest period of eating healthily for about 6 months, i'm on my third week of sticking to eating regularly, which is still terrifying, and i'm hating how i look, but i really want to give it a shot and see if my weight will even out and my metabolism slowly stabilise instead of fluctuating so much, i'm going to get weighed soon though, so think i may feel a little differently, and i've stopped keeping my food diary so not sure what to say to the dietician.
I think the self help book is a really positive tool, have you been on the 'personal best' site that is linked from B-eat? I think you would really benefit from it if you havent already seen it. Hope it helps.
I'm confused to why they seem to think CBT can't work for you, i've been having CBT for two years and i've been diagnosed as anorexic, yeah i have had additional specialist support, but CBT is about managing psychological problems, which at the end of the day are the key problems in eating disorders. Gosh this has annoyed me so i can imagine how infuriating this must be for you. Go back to your GP, or keep badgering them to offer or try to find you the correct support. I hope you are ok.
Lots of love Flo x
Posted on August 24, 2012 at 1:35 PM
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Hi Tulip and Flo I have been home for over 10 days now and had no Beat notifications so I am very glad I looked in. I am amazed that a CBT therapist said she couldnt help you Tulip. Certainly my psychologist in 2008 had thought my primary problem was OCD but realised an Ed was in important aspect and wanted to refer me to the specialist ED clinic. However the main difference is they have dieticians and are highly trained in this but CBT comes into helping people to change the way they think. I had started to trust the person I had spoken to and she kept me although she said she would take advice from the specialist. They need to careully moniter your phu=ysical health as well when it is an ED.
Flo how was your summer? I enjoyed my holiday and had managed to get my assignment ready before I went and posted it off yesterday. I didnt mind sharing one cottage with all my family but hubby missed his persoanl space . It was restful for me though instead of going between houses. I feel I needed to watch the exercise levels but things are more structured now classes are back.
I am so glad to be in touch again. My eating has been very carefree though.
Lots of love
bunnylove xxxxxxxxx
Posted on August 30, 2012 at 12:19 AM
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Hey everyone. How's it going? I'm new to this message board but I am starting to realise that getting support for my binge eating disorder is really important. I've had a really bad binge day. I had about a week where I didn't binge because I read a few books on bingeing and somehow educating myself about overestimate filled me with knowledge and just helped. I felt more in control and just dint feel the need to binge. But then my mum left today to go to France. It is just me and my sister and her boyfriend at home and I was sat alone at the kitchen table and I don't know what happened....I felt lonely and bored and so binged. Im sure you guys all know how frustrating bingeing is. I just feel so lonely right now. I need a group to join where I can actually meet up with binge eaters and talk..does anyone know where I can find this? Like group counselling sessions. Anyway, I am feeling disappointed in myself. I am at one of my heaviest weights at the moment and I just always seem to go back to bingeing. It doesn't seem to bro something that I am growing out of. It is better than it used to be..anyway guys, was just wondering if I could get some support or just to know that I shouldn't be angry at myself.i feel like such a bad person but I know I'm not...I just feel so guilty. I am so alone right now.
Thanks,
Bluesky xx
Posted on August 30, 2012 at 6:41 PM
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Hi Flo and Bunnylove,
So lovely to hear from you both. I haven't been getting notifications either so i must remember to keep checking!
Flo, well done! I'm really proud of you for doing so well. 3 weeks of sticking to your eating plan is fantastic. I understand that the weighing is scary and i hope it doesn't throw you off. I am avoiding weighing myself at the moment as whether i've put on weight or lost weight it always disturbs me somehow and is not helpful in my eating.
Thanks for the info about the other website. I will check it out. Aways helpful to have another tool available.
Bunnylove, i'm so glad you had a lovely holiday and that your eating has been carefree. Thats brilliant and hopefully you are feeling nice and refreshed and relaxed now. Hope you manage to settle back into your routines ok.
With regards to the CBT the therapist back tracked a little after speaking to her supervisor. They have now offered me three sessions of CBT to see how i get on with it. I'm back on the waiting list as i could not make the appointment slot with the original therapist but in a way i think that is a good thing, except for the delay, as i don't think i would have felt that comfortable having the sessions with someone who from the outset did not think that they could help me. A good thing that has come out of this is that when i thought i would not be offered any help i started to look at private options and i have found a specialist ED therapist near me who can hopefully see me from October so i am going to take up the NHS help but also try to see the specialist privately. I think it will be helpful to see someone who knows about the intricacies of EDs. This is making me feel more positive. I really want to get better but know that i am not strong enough to do it on my own.
This week has been a bit up and down. It started good especially as i managed to really get going with my exercise which is so good for my mood but then my eating has gone downhill as the week has gone on. Hopefully i'll be able to get back on track soon.
Lots of love and hugs
tulip
Posted on August 31, 2012 at 10:56 AM
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Hey bluesky,
Welcome to the board. Really nice to hear from you.
I think you should be really proud that you had managed to go a week without binging. Try to focus on that rather than the binge. I know it's really hard not to feel angry with yourself. I feel like that a lot but try to remember that it isn't you, it's the illness and you are fighting a battle in which there will be ups and downs
In relation to getting support, have you discussed this with a doctor. They may be able to help. I have just been offered some cognitive behaviour therapy to try and help me. Otherwise if you look on the beat website there is a part where you can look up if there are any support groups near you.
I hope you manage to find something and you are always very welcome here and we can all support each other through the ups and downs.
Lots of love tulip
Lot
Posted on August 31, 2012 at 5:12 PM
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Thanks tulip. I really appreciate your support. Yes I guess that it is good that I went for a week without bingeing. It was because I had read books about emotional eating and it made me feel less alone nd I just didn't feel like bingeing after I had read them. It was reading and feeling like someone wasn't judging me and was just there to listen. I know it sounds weird but reading helped. Anyway, in reference to what you said about seeing a doctor. Well, I am 23 now and first went to my doctor about this when I was 18. I had a course of CBT therapy. I don't really remember it impacting me that much. I was binge free for a year which was good but when I started uni and felt really insecure, my bingeing started up again. I went to see a CBT therapist again and got better but then relapsed again and had to see her a few months later. Then I got depression and went to a therapist and felt so much better after seeing her for Los of sessions. We didn't address bingeing but addressed why I was feeling depressed. Fte that I went into third year uni and did not feel depressed so didn't binge. I had new ways of thinking about things so I had few cognitive distortions and knew how to rationalise irrational thoughts. Anyway, after finishing uni I lived a home for a bit and put on weight through bingeing again, I was coping using food as I was not in a situation that I really wanted to be in. I saw a therapist for a few sessions then went travelling. Traveling was awesome but when I got back I slipped into bingeing again to pass the time, to keep me company etc etc. so yeah, that is where I am now. I am moving out of my parents house which will be better for me and improve my mood. But, as u can see I've seen many well qualified excellent therapists and though they work, it appears to be something I keep going back to. If I saw another therapist I don't know what else hey could tell me that I dontknow. I know how it all works but sometimes I don't put it into practice as I prefer to just let it all float away with emotional eating. Anyway, I guess it is realising tht I will not immediately get better after seeing a therapist. I have the tools but it takes time time time to recover dfrom bingeing.
What do u guys all think?
stay strong.
Bluesky x
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re: Binge Eating Disorder? I hate it so much.
Bluesky welcome to the boards. You seem to understand the cause of your problem really well as you pinpointed that you felt a bit lost when your mum left and turned to what was familiar. I can relate to that. For me, when people let me down I will turn to exercise and get focused on the ED.It would be nice if you had a friend to call at moments like that but you can always write here and we are here for you. I have had therapy tthree timnes and I think the problem is they are only there at set times and we need solace at the moment when we are down which could be anytime. It is very helpful to use writing or any other pleasant relaxation. You needed to give yourself some other sort of treat not a food one and it is good to anticipate a low time if possible by having a plan. We do need to go to a lot of trouble to find alternative behaviours since the ed is a comfort zone at the time. I have been struggling with feeling sad about less contact with my two main supports as they are busy but I am going to see if there are more opportunities if I could be more flexible.
When you are not working or studying I wonder what your other interests are bluesky . Could you develop them further?
Tulip I feel just like you about weighing. Health experts encourage watching weight but I am affected the wrong way whatever my weight has done . I find the right thing for me is to use my knowledge I gained from my dietician and very importantly to eat to satisfaction and neither leave myself hungry or feel overfull either. I do believe our bodies can give us the right signals to help us and that is more reliable I think young women need to remember that hormones affect weight and appetite as well. Having a nutritious diet and a balance between rest and exercise will help to keep things more stable.
Glad you are going to get some extra support but at least we are not rationed here!
Lots of love
bunnylove xxxxxxxx
Posted on September 08, 2012 at 12:39 PM
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re: Binge Eating Disorder? I hate it so much.
Hi everyone,
Hope you are all ok. I just had to come on here as I am having such a horrible week.
My little cat got run over on Saturday night and had to be put down on tuesday. That has been awful and I am so sad.
Last night I binged and today I feel so bad. I've been in a real state at work. Feel so guilty and can't concentrating and really loathing myself. I was in such a state that I didn't feel I could carry on working this afternoon and broke down in front of my manager and ended up telling her I've been having some eating problems. No-one else at work knows.
She didn't really want me going home and being on my own which was probably sensible as I have been having some unhealthy thoughts today and I am feeling a little bit brighter now esp after writing this post.
Thanku guys for listening.
Hope u r all ok.
Flo we haven't heard from u for ages. How's things?
Tulip xxx
Posted on September 13, 2012 at 2:05 PM
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