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Hi , am new (ish) was here years ago, feels alone

xxxjayxxx

xxxjayxxx
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I am Jay, i am 23 years old and live in UK



I have suffered from Anorexia for 12 years (i have also been diagnosed w/ OCD, depression and a personality disorder)



I have been IP many times, general wards, Eating Disorder units,


I have recently got out of another medical general ward admission as i was very ill. i hate this illness and all that comes along with it...

I am now back home, have been for around 3 months, and i am been tube fed at home. I have had this before but this is the first time at home.


The thing is, i am not getting any support with meals, the crisis team wont come out to see me they said they don't want to take responsibility if something were to happen to me in their care.

I see an NG consultant (Along with a dietitian) a community consultant, a psychologist , A GP and social worker....


but i feel lost, my head screams i am useless etc.



thankyou if you managed to read,



much love



Jay xox

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Posted on November 09, 2011 at 5:36 PM
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Corinne

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re: Hi , am new (ish) was here years ago, feels alone

Hi Jay,

Seems like you've been through a lot! and aren't getting much help from the so called "experts".
12 years is a long time and I get the impression that you're rather fed up with it! As I would be.

I spoke to a girl a few months back in the same situation however she was still in hospital and she has since managed to get back to her former life! I'm sure you can do it! smiling

If you ever need to chat, I'm always here! smiling

From Corinne xxxx

Posted on November 09, 2011 at 9:55 PM

xxxjayxxx

xxxjayxxx
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re: Hi , am new (ish) was here years ago, feels alone

Thank you so much for your reply, i just feel alone with it all....



my eating is a massive struggle, I am depressed with it all

Posted on November 10, 2011 at 3:43 PM

Snaily

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re: Hi , am new (ish) was here years ago, feels alone

Hey Jay,



Sending you lots of hugs, keep fighting I understand how hard it can be but you can beat the eating disorder, it must be really hard with the crisis team not being willing to help you with your meals. Try if you can to use things you have learnt from your inpatient admissions in the past to help with your eating now. Stay strong and keep fighting, you can beat this, I know the eating disorder and other mental health struggles can make you feel so alone and isolated but i'm always here if you need any support with your eating or your depression.



lots of love and hugs Sarah xxx

Posted on November 14, 2011 at 12:02 PM

MilaMonroe

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re: Hi , am new (ish) was here years ago, feels alone

Hey Jay
You are far from useless! I know so well that things are so much easier said than done, but you could perhaps find an outlet for your thoughts, feelings and emotions? Perhaps words - writing stories, a diary, poems, songs - will help relieve you of your struggles a little. Every little feeling of release is worth something! Or perhaps you enjoy art? Art can be a great medium for feelings and emotions - as is music or dance - anything! I'm far from qualified to suggest what you could do, but I have a friend struggling who has turned his life around becuase of art! I wish to follow suit! Hope you're well and feeling more positive today than you did when you wrote your original post.

xx

Posted on November 14, 2011 at 7:12 PM

xxxjayxxx

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re: Hi , am new (ish) was here years ago, feels alone

I cant thank you enough for all your words and support

Posted on November 15, 2011 at 6:00 PM

MilaMonroe

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re: Hi , am new (ish) was here years ago, feels alone

Hope you're well Jay! X

Posted on April 16, 2012 at 7:19 PM

xxxjayxxx

xxxjayxxx
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re: Hi , am new (ish) was here years ago, feels alone

Thanks so much for the words....

its now been almost 9 month since i left hospital

things have changed...

i have a nurse out to help and support me...

I'm scared of recovery... so scared, and i already struggle with body image alot...

i mayswell give it a shott, i need to make it work this time.

thankyou again...



Jay xox

Posted on April 17, 2012 at 10:52 AM

foxylady2011

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re: Hi , am new (ish) was here years ago, feels alone

Hi Jay



I'm glad to hear that you are getting more support. Its so difficult fighting this on your own isn't it. I live on my own and I am struggling big time with all the voices in my head at the moment. I purposely didn't weigh myself for months.

I'm so emotionally drained from it all. Im getting no sleep from it and the only thing that is keeping me going are my cats. I wish I could take something to stop all these thoughts in my head and numb my brain from thinking. I dont care what anyone says, but there IS a voice in your head telling you off all the time.



Please don't think you are alone in this because you definitely are not.



Keep in touch



Foxy xx

Posted on April 17, 2012 at 2:59 PM
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