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carole Total Posts: 52 Joined: Aug 2011	Hi Izzy - are you there? I wrote a couple of long posts over last few weeks and have just come on to check as one of them hadn't appeared only to find that the whole thread has disappeared - really fed up now. Hope you and little *-are ok. I'm bit stressed going through job selection exercise at work - still eating normally but exercise increased this week. Love you lots and hope you're managing to eat enough still ((((((((((((((((izzy,hope and Carole, Mazzar))))))))))))))))))) Tags: Posted on November 10, 2011 at 10:22 PM
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isabel Total Posts: 48 Joined: Aug 2011	re: Izzy hey hun, i know its totally gone what a nightmare! is this where u have to re apply for your job? i can imagine how sressful that is i hope u are managing ok. glad u are managing to eat, so then at least u are ok to exercise more and if u are like me it will be a good stress reliever for u. just dont overdo it. i am ok thamks getting into the swing of being a mam, but have been told to rest more as i am breast feeding and not producing enough milk as i am not resting enough, easy to say rest but not easy when you have a 10 week old baby to run around after and try and organise everything! i am managing to eat just nough i think its so hard to find time! baby is well though shes soooo cute noiw smiling cooing and laughing its great!shes sat on my knee as i type she ikes the light from the laotop! have u heard frpm mazzar hope shes ok, anyway must go hun, take care speak soon love u lots xxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on November 11, 2011 at 12:38 PM
bunnylove Total Posts: 252 Joined: Jul 2011	re: Izzy Izzy and Carole ,sorry butting in on your thread but I always feel my beat friends understand a side of me that others dont. With my poorly bunny gone and my course finished both at the same time I said to myself @what about those cupboards I was going to tidy and all the help I was going to give my mum? but suddenly they didnt seem so urgent. I made a suggestion of throwing out two old magazines to my mu but she wasnt keen so I felt too unfocused . I got quite worried about how it will be for me over the 4 weeks with classes off. Carole you mentioned taking extra exercise and we have to watch filling up spare time with that if our bodies arnt up to it and I know my joints arnt. So a friend suggested a short course at the OU so I looked them up. I have a course with only a few points which means only one assignment and I can leave it till April if I want so much less pressure . The good thing is that I always have a sedentary task and that is good for me. I do still exercise but nothing like as much as I used to but now I do what fits my life instead of my life having to fit round the exercise. I wish I could always have been like that but we live and learn. Izzie I hope you enjoy these early years because I realise now that they soon pass. Its hard to get time but I think I was too fussy about the house. I am so pleased to hear you are managing to eat, that is a huge achievement. Lots of love bunnylove xxxxxxxxx Posted on November 15, 2011 at 1:15 PM
Mazzar Total Posts: 108 Joined: Nov 2011	re: Izzy Hi Izzy & Carole, I missed you both. How are you? I am so sorry I haven't been around, I have been seriously ill with my lungs. Love you both. Mazzar xxxx Posted on November 16, 2011 at 9:55 AM
carole Total Posts: 52 Joined: Aug 2011	re: Izzy Mazzar! You don't know how happy I am to hear from you! I thought it was something serious as I knew you wouldn't just leave the boards for no reason. How are you feeling now? Are you on the mend? I'm doing good, still struggling with eating v exercise but am eating a lot more so that I can exercise and am managing to maintain my weight. How are your daughters and hubby? I bet they've been really worried about you. Izzy is a yummy mummy now haha, I'm sure she'll be over the moon to hear from you and will want to tell you all about our little niece ! I'm sending you some lush bath bombs for you to have a nice long soak with and some other pamper products. love you lots and lots Izzy, glad you're managing to eat enough - i know its really hard hun but I know that your little daughter is keeping you going - just like my little puppy - we've been together a year this weekend! Mind I was having a lovely soak at the weekend and thought she was going to jump in the bath with me as she kept putting her feet up on the edge hehe. what have you bought my little niece for xmas then? I bet she'll be ruined - have you bought her a christmas outfit? Yes, this is where I have to apply for my job - all the other grades above me are going through same process but theirs started earlier so they get to find out before Xmas whereas my grade doesn't find out until early in the New Year love you both loads, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Bunnylove, I'm managing my exercise as I'm eating normally and almost in the healthy weight range. I did the first year of an OU degree 4 years ago and that was one of the reasons my ed triggered again because I put myself under too much stress to pass - which I did but I took the obsession for perfection too far. Carole Posted on November 16, 2011 at 6:22 PM
isabel Total Posts: 48 Joined: Aug 2011	re: Izzy hi everyone, Mazzar so glad to have u back and hear you are ok, i hope u r recovering well and taking it easy? How do you feel now? I hope you have been treated so that it won't re-occur? I am sending you a pamper basket full of nice creams and face masks so you can pamper yourself. As Carole said, i am now a mammy i had a beautiful baby on ** september she is perfect! I love her soooo much and she is keeping me going at the minute as i know i must eat and be healthy for her. I cant describe how happy i am! Carole, awww a year that has flown by and i am glad she keeps you going just as my daughter does me, it so good to have someone to care for isn't it.hahaha aww bless her trying to get in the bath!My d loves the bath, she used to hate it and scream the house down, but she cries when she has to get out now!!!We have bought her lots of clothes for christmas and a sit me up cosy which teaches her to sit up and it has a play mat too, oh and a big peppa pig that talks hehehe (for me and her!!!), and we are wanting to get her a jumperoo too so she can start weight bearing on her legs!we are going to get her a little mrs clause dress for christmas day!!!!arghhh so excited thinking about it! How did the re-applying of your job go? must be hard waiting until january to know if you have it. Have you made plans for christmas this year? Bunnylove how are you?are you starting another course?make sure you don't put too much pressure on yourself, you need sometime for yourself. Well big hugs to you all, and soooo happy to have you back mazzar, lots of love to you all, Izzy x Posted on November 18, 2011 at 11:03 PM
bunnylove Total Posts: 252 Joined: Jul 2011	re: Izzy Izzy i am so glad to hear that you are enjoying your little one. This time may seem long when you are enduring sleepless nights but looking back, it all seems over so quickly! Yesterday we had a huge health scare with our remaining bunny as his heart stopped and then he revived and it happened again so we rushed him to the vet where he spent the night on drips and oxygen and had loads of tests. If he was a cat or dog he would get a pacemaker but they dont do it for rabbits but he has responded well to the treatment. We dont know how long he will last but we are just glad he is home again and i will know he is fragile. I took on the short OU course although I had planned a long break as this website was off and I had some quiet times . I dont really think my Mum will let me tidy her house and the cupboards I was going to tidy somehow didnt seem so urgent after all. ,and I was worried about the long break at Christmas when there wont be classes . I need to be usefully occupied but this one is only for 10 points and has only one assignment so there is much less pressure.Having some writing to do is helpful as I struggle with negative thoughts so keeping focused seems to help. You have everything to stay healthy for now so it is such a relief that you are managing to connect your eating to the need to be well for others. I realise now for myself, when my daughter has grown up and gone that it isnt good enough just to eat enough to get by, but to feel well and happy instead of stressed and drained. I am eating even when we have a bad day like yesterday as I have established a really good habit of eating with hubby every evening and we make it a relaxed affair. He loves our pet and needs moral support from me when things look worrying because he dosent see many people. I have planned an outing with him tomorrow as there is no dancing for a change , to see the Lighting up and to look at a Christmas craft and food fair and an art exhibition. My classes dont leave so many chances to do something together but the others are away on a line dance weekend which I dont bother with so I am making the most of the rare chance. I hope I can be good company for him as he has been working hard to try to make a flowerbed where the garden was neglected. A lot had to be dug to put in new drains so he is determined to get some flowers growing for me next spring. It is good to celebrtate life whenever we can and to appreciate our loved ones. I greatly appreciate my Beat friends Lots of love Bunnylove xxxxxxxx Posted on November 19, 2011 at 10:08 PM
Mazzar Total Posts: 108 Joined: Nov 2011	re: Izzy Izzy, thank you for my pampering treats. You are very kind. I am so happy for you with your new addition. I remember only too well how busy she is keeping you but cherish these moments as they grow up fast! I missed you & Carole so much. Has Hannah been in touch at all? Thinking of you all. Love Mazzar xxxx Posted on November 21, 2011 at 9:57 AM
isabel Total Posts: 48 Joined: Aug 2011	re: Izzy Bunnylove, how is your rabbit? i do hope he has pulled through, bless him. I understand where you are coming from with your course that it will do you more good than harm as you will be focussed on something. I hope you enjoy it. Did u get out with your hubby to the craft fayre?I love little fayres like that! Mazzar how are you now?do you feel back to normal?i do hope so, and i hope its not getting any worse? sorry this is short gotta feed little one speak soon love to you all xxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on November 22, 2011 at 8:55 PM
bunnylove Total Posts: 252 Joined: Jul 2011	re: Izzy Hi Izzy , thank you very much for your kind interest. Our bunny perked up but I see signs that he is having little lapses in his consciousness so I am perparing myself . The vets phoned today offering further investigation and possibly surgery costing thousands but we know from our other pet that they may not revcover fully to enjoy a good quality of life. Besides we need to pay a hu ge plumbers bill as we had new drains done and our daughter may need help to get a car which we said we would do to improve her chances of getting work. We could spend loads on our bunny only to lose him and it would be a stressful end. Our daughter phones , distressed because she thought she had fluffed a telephone job interview but I have persuaded her that if she wasnt up to the job it would be better not to get it as it is in mental health support work. She is in learning disabilities just now. It involves 24 hour care and I think some of the people could have really challenging behaviour and be very risk, a big challenge for a 22 year old who has only a year of work experience. She is going to a CBT training course this weekend so that should be interesting for her. If I had realised that my daughters needs would escalate again I would have hesitated to do another course right away Izzie but this website went dead for a while so I realised i need to be independent as I dont want to look for a job as after Christmas my disabled friends willhave their class again and I have lots of activitiesand I would find work too strerssful after 22 years away so studying is a good option. Flexibility is the key word for what we are working to achieve, rahter than rigid rules. Izzy if you can attain that as a parent it will be a huge asset and allow you to remain calm and easy going ( something I didnt achieve at your age) which will help your little one to develop a calm disposition. However , today I feel I succeeded in reassuring my daughter that everything will be for the best so I am glad that as parents our task is an ongoing one and we get many second chances to do better at it. Look after your health Izzy as you are irrreplaceable and your little one is looking to you all the time and learning . I enjoyed my husbands company as it was a nice little break although I didnt buy anything as it was all quite expensive although lovely. I am quite low in interest in material objects because I am always being clumsy with ornaments and I lose jewellry and there are so many other preoccupations. Classes and courses help me more but they are costly. Health is so important and I am being constantly reminded of that. Lots of love from bunnylove xxxxxxx Posted on November 24, 2011 at 4:19 PM
carole Total Posts: 52 Joined: Aug 2011	re: Izzy Izzy, I bet my little niece will look gorgeous in her mrs clause outfit and very cute too hehe. I've had a couple of links up with skype the last few weeks and can see my little nephew walking - he looks very cute and when I ask for a kiss he kisses the laptop screen hehe. The first stage of my job application went well as I worked hard to pull my evidence together and my line manager said some nice things too - I get my scores next week but these don't tell you where you are in relation to everyone else but I should be able to tell if my line manager scored me well. Have to fill in up to 5 job preferences next week and then find out in January whether I've got one. 1800 jobs to go across my part of the organisation.... Been stressing lots about it and keep waking up in night and panicking. It's out of my control now and that's obviously the scary thing. Been invited out for 3 different christmas meals at work and refused them all which is stressing me out too as worry about what people think about me not going. My new boss has been good at trying to deflect the questions though and tries to change the subject if my team start to ask why not going etc. My old boss (who's team I still work in and who's the boss of my boss - confusing for you!) said that I should go on e one that he's going to and sit in between him and one of my other team mates who knows about ana . I was going to do that then bottled out again last week. I am going to see twilight with my friend at the weekend so looking forward to that and have also saved up a bit of money to get some clothes - not much though as have been on bit of a spending spree last few weeks and bought jewellery and bath bombs! Your daughter is going to be so spoiled at Christmas - I hope you have a spare room to put all her presents in! What are you doing Christmas day? So glad you're managing to eat enough - you should be so proud so yourself and your daughter will be when she grows up. Mazzar, it's do good to have you back - I know you've been missed by a lot of people on the boards because of the support that you give to everyone and now its time to let's us all give something back. How does it feel to have a new niece hehe? Missed you loads and hope that you're on the mend now and that next year is better and healthier for you. Have you got nothing planned for Christmas? I only have 12 more working days left - I'm taking 2 weeks off and cannot wait! Also hoping the snow stays away so that I can travel down and see my little nephew this year - couldn't travel last year and there was also the argument with my sister about my little puppy. Are you watching X Factor and I'm a Celeb? Don't knowmwhat will do when they finish hehe Love you both lots and lots and my little niece too xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx X Posted on November 24, 2011 at 7:30 PM
Mazzar Total Posts: 108 Joined: Nov 2011	re: Izzy Carole, yes I am so pleased to have a new niece! She sounds gorgeous doesn't she? I hope you enjoy the film & have a lovely spend up. I have done a little bit of online shopping, nothing exiting really. I got some new fluffy pj's & bed socks to keep me warm & cosy. How is your pup? Is she still up to her funny little tricks? Thank you for my treats you sent me. I have another chest infection at the moment so I am doing all I can to avoid going back to the hospital. We might go to my sisters holiday home for xmas but we will see nearer the time how I am. Love you & Izzy very much, I missed you both. Thank you for your kind words & thoughts. Mazzar xxxx Posted on November 24, 2011 at 8:16 PM
carole Total Posts: 52 Joined: Aug 2011	re: Izzy Mazzar, so sorry you've got another chest infection Hun - will pray you get better soon and manage to stay out of hospital. How are your daughters doing? My puppy is still up to mischief but it very cute. When I'm getting ready to go up to bed every night I tell her to get teddy and she runs to her toy box and gets her favourite one out and then runs upstairs hehe. Also in the middle of the night she gets under the duvet and snuggles right into my chest and uses my arm as a pillow! Really hope you manage to get away to your sisters holiday home at Christmas - is it somewhere nice? Glad to see you've managed to do some online shopping though Love you lots and lots and sending you a massive hug, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on November 24, 2011 at 9:08 PM
bunnylove Total Posts: 252 Joined: Jul 2011	re: Izzy Hello my friends. I am sorry if anyone feels I am butting in on a special little friendship but I am so glad to find a thread which continues. I am watching the health of my remaining pet with trepidation. Mazzar, obviously human health is more crucial even if it doesnt feel like that when I am watching a sick pet so you must be so anxious when something ominous starts all over again.Its really stressful in itself so all we can do is muster up the courage to face all the difficulties and treasure each moment when we are all well enough to enjoy family life. Lots of love bunnylove xxxxxxxx Posted on November 28, 2011 at 12:56 PM
Mazzar Total Posts: 108 Joined: Nov 2011	re: Izzy Carole, your pup sounds as gorgeous as ever. What a little sweetie. Thank you for your kind words again. I spent Sunday at the hospital but managed to escape with more pills & nebules! I will get there. My sister's holiday home is in a small village near where we live. We can stay on the Friday night of xmas weekend right round till the Tues after xmas. Will see how I am. Love you lots & thinking of you as always. Bunnylove, no need to apologise for posting here. You are very welcome. I am so so sorry about your bunny. I am sending you lots of love & strength. Love to Izzy & her beautiful baby too. Mazzar xxxx Posted on November 28, 2011 at 3:27 PM
isabel Total Posts: 48 Joined: Aug 2011	re: Izzy hi ladies, Carole, i am glad you are getting on with the job application it sounds very stressful and confusing!!i am keeping my fingers crossed for you though i know exactly how you feel about xmas meals but what a very nice suggestion from your ex boss would you not be tempted to try that and you have the comfort of 2 friends who know about ana near you? aw i bet it was lovely seeing your nephew i hope you get to go to see him in person for chritsmas that will be lovely i bet you spoil him! do you buy your puppy presents?i used to buy my pets hwen i was younger and i will be buying my (now my sisters) hamster a prezi hehe!! how was the film?i love bath bombs i got lots at my baby shower and look forward to using them every night but also like them in my bathroom as they look so pretty! Mazzar, so sorry to hear you are still ill, bless you i bet you are fed up sending you a huge hug to make you feel better hope u manage to get to your sisters holiday home for xmas. how a\re your ds doing? Bunnylove, how is your bunny?i hope he is holding on, i understand what you are saying about the money for vet bills etc if he may not live that long. how is your daughter doing, i understand what you mean about the lack of experience for the mental health job. Has shse done her cbt course how did she find it? well my poor little girl is ill she has a viral infection and has been coughing lots its been scary as she hasnt been able to get her breath, bless her. so she has been getting lots of mammy cuddles! it is just today she has started picking up and is acting more like herself. She is currently sat on my partners knee and she is meant to be going to sleep but shes sat staring at me and everytime i look at her she smiles!!!the little tinker!!!!finally starting to feel better after the birth i had a lot of problems with anemia and mastitis and just felt generally worn out but i am getting in the swing of things now and feeling a little healthier in myself hope the snow stays away so i can keep going out for walks with the pram well big hugs and kisses to you all, lots of love izzy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on November 30, 2011 at 8:33 PM
Mazzar Total Posts: 108 Joined: Nov 2011	re: Izzy Izzy, I am so sorry your little one has been poorly. There are so many bugs around right now. I do hope she is feeling better. I am glad you are feeling better too, there are so many things to contend with when you have a baby. You must rest when you can & enjoy being with her as much as possible. My youngest D seems to need me more than ever right now, she is under a lot of pressure at school which she doesn't cope well with. She is also scared to be leaving school & going to college although she is exited as well. We got my disabled D into a 'virtual' sixth form. She starts in Jan. She will get a laptop & do all the lessons/work in the comfort of her own armchair! It is specially designed for kids like her with autism ect... Cant wait to get it going as we have been waiting for something to come a long. I have been back in hospital with a double lung infection which has floored me again but I do feel a bit better today. Anyway love to you & your little one. Thinking of you, Carole, Hannah, Bunnylove & Mamamiafan. Love Mazzar xxxx Posted on December 01, 2011 at 7:00 PM
bunnylove Total Posts: 252 Joined: Jul 2011	re: Izzy Izzy I am really sorry to hear your little daughter has been ill. The first bug they get is a worry but she will have antibodies from you which will help her. You will have been losing more sleep than ever but she sounds as if she is on the mend. You started off without a lot in reserve for yourself so it isnt surprising it has taken a while to get back on your feet. I am struggling with my OU course as there are calculations and chemistry but what does come across is that a bit extra makes you safer when it comes to nutrients. We ceertainly do hope the snow keeps away as I am terrified of icy pavements but I hate to be stuck inside. I am so pleased my remaining pet is feeling better although every little sign of being off colour gives us a scare. he wants to go outside again but I think he stayed out too long so I had to carry him in as he didnt run in as normal. His fur felt cold and damp and he didnt want his dandelions but I offered him a treat which had been banned before he took his bad turn . I wonder is this a trick to get a treat since he perked up later or maybe he needed an energy lift. I am so happy that hubby and I are not just down to being a couple alone yet as it would be the first time since we had our daughter. We are used to looking after something together! My daughter has been moved to a different house to care for people with more physical needs and is not as confident in this area so it is stressful for her. Her new line manager is not as helpful nor are her team members as friendly so she is looking for a lot of emotional support. The working world is difficult as people often get changes over which they have no control. Izzy you are doing a challenging work being a mum but the good thing is you are your own boss . I liked that aspect of it but there are no breaks guaranteed! Mazzar as I was saying to Izzy, my daughters work worries call for a lot of support and I found as you have that I needed to give her more support when she was older than when she was in primary school. Watching a favourite TV programme or playing a game took her mind off a bad day but later she needed to talk things through. I am sorry to hear of the bad time you are having with your health nowadays. but delighted at the prospect of help with your disabled daughter,s education.I think she will enjoy having something tailer made for her needs. Maybe a little less stress will help your immune system. I hope so. My daughter is on night duty just now so is waiting to talk just now so I had better go. It has been a sedentary evening but I am coping all right with it. I hope you all wrap up warm and look after yourselves in this wintry weather. One more week of dance classes and I will be in charge of my own exercise but the OU work will help me to stay moderate. Much love from bunnylove xxxxxx Posted on December 01, 2011 at 11:37 PM
isabel Total Posts: 48 Joined: Aug 2011	re: Izzy hi girls, so sorry to hear you have been back in hosp mazzar what a terribke few months you have had. i hope it stays away for christmas for you, glad to hear you are feeling better today. have u been on any of your famous shopping sprees?!wow so glad to hear your eldest d can be in a virtual college thats fab i bet she will love it. oh your poor youngest daughter under pressure at school bless her at least she cares about her eduation there are so many kids today that aren't bothered. it was very firghtening when my daughter was ill i hardley slept as i wanted to watch her to make sure she was ok. she is neary better now and has her second injections this week bless her i hate taking her!!! Bunnylove glad to hear your bunny is getting better, he will love being in the house with lots of cuddles especially as now its so cold! i bet it would be weird for you and your hubby just having each other, would you not get another pet?maybe a dog to walk together?your poor daughter i do hope she is ok at work, it is awful when you dont get along with your boss. Are you still struggling with OU course?i know i hope it doesn't get icy i don't mind the snow but the ice is awful! yes i am starting to pick up more now i think it helps as i am getting more sleep now too, which is great!!!i hate being sleep deprived!!! well gotta go and entertain little miss!!!lots of love to you all, izzy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ps carole hope you are ok?xxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on December 05, 2011 at 5:31 PM
bunnylove Total Posts: 252 Joined: Jul 2011	re: Izzy izzy I am so glad to hear your little one is getting better and that you are getting more sleep. Even if you take naps it isnt the same as having an uninterrupted sleep. I am feeling as if I am slacking as there hasnt been drama duie to pant rehearsals needing their space and my voluntary work is off due to icy conditions as they have mobility problems and it isnt safe. So I am actually glad of my course to keep me feeling occupied. Actually it is doing real good as studying the constituents of food and exactly what it does and where is making me understand why our dieticians have feared for us when they see us not taking certain things. It does really make you tconscious that if you dont supply the ingredients the body cant do the job.I am quite conscious of my hair because it has really thickened up since I have been willing to have more variety and spend a bit more on it for myself and I understand better why it would deteriorate if I dont keep up this approach. I know you will be very keen for your little girl to eat well . I would be able to do a lot of things much better now than I did when my daughter was young. I think it would have been nice for her if I had participated in all her meals but I wasnt able. She is pleased to be working on Xmas day as she dreaded being off when she cant come home. She will have to help make a festive meal for her service users but as long as her fellow worker is friendly it should be fun.She will get well paid for the extra hours so that will help. I was disappointed not to get a higher mark for my last module but it was a clear pass and the day I had my result the bunny was better so that is even more important. He wanted out into the snow last night so I let him for a short while and he stood up and looked up into the sky at the snowflakes and was really cute. It was a bit icy here but i got to dancing for the last class of the term and got safely home. Those in cars will need to be very careful and not make unneccessary journeys. I do hope our poor Mazzar can stay well as it must be horrible to be ill like this. Our health is so important. You will be busy now Izzy . I liked music cassettes with picture books and nursery soings and hand movements to go with themwhen my daughter was little because it helps give you a way to interact. Funnily enouugh my daughter never sings although she loves to listen to music. Maybe it was my singing put her off! Lots of love bunnylove xxxxxxxx Posted on December 06, 2011 at 2:25 AM

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