Izzy - you are not a bad mother hun and you need to tell your boyfriend how down you are feeling - its hard enough being a new mother as it is without also having to battle through anorexia as well. Have you told your mum how you're feeling - maybe you have a bit of post natal depression so please talk to somebody. Asking for help dies not mean you are a bad mother - it means that you are a new mother who needs a bit of support because you love your daughter more than anything and want the best for her. Have you tried something called controlled crying. My sister does it with her little one when he has a phase of not wanting to go down - usually when he is teething when he wants his mum. She gets upset with it and finds it hard but it really works for her. when he starts crying she goes into his room - don't speak or anything but put your hand on her face or pat her so she knows your there then leave the room - let her cry for a period of time, e.g 5 mins then do the same again - keep doing this but lengthen the time you leave her each time say by 5 mins and then she will eventually get the message that you're there, you love her but she needs to stay in her own bed. It will be really hard and you may go without sleep most of the night but it will work - my sister has been lucky as it usually takes less than an hour now. I know its really hard hearing them cry but babys know that it gets them attention and when she realises that she's not going to get her own way she'll settle down.

You must be exhausted hun and that will make you feel 10 times worse as well, but you will get through it and we are all here to support you as well but please talk to your boyfriend and your mum because your health is important too -

sending you a massive huge hug and lots of kisses, love you lots, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx