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well where to start, all new to me this, im quite pessimistic iv had this ED bout 20yrs im nearly 30!!
i have binge purge, but im a healthy weight, i no how to eat right an all that, but wen i get in to that cycle of binge/purge my weight creeps up (so ud think i wouldnt do it? ) i dont understand myself, iv had help in past tried to blame my "inner child" an all that text book jargon medication, hypnotherapy disks etc!, 1 thing i no if i feel restricted and have to stick to summit i will binge/purge,i its just trying to figure out the root of it stress?, unhappy? unforfilled? ...pft dunno i dont feel any of them!
im not sure if to tell a friend? what can they do? watch my every move have done in the past! like there suspicious when we go out for lunch?? i dont no if i can deal with that again!
not going to a b-eat meeting over here the area is soo small il bound to no sum1, as u can see iv tried everything!!
so you can see why im pessimistic.
i dont want to be 40 and still in this mess!
magic cure any1? x
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Posted on May 03, 2012 at 12:11 PM
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Joined: Oct 2012
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re: no help has worked!!
Hi Lou, nice to meet you!
I've had probs for 20 years too and finally getting somewhere with counselling so don't give up whatever you do. I strongly believe that an ED can be beaten no matter after how long.
I've always felt that I had lost control, like the ED was in control and I did what it wanted but counselling has given me that control back. I have no desire to B/P, i just don't want to put myself through it and i know i don't have to.
it's been five months and i still have the thoughts and we are working through all that. It's been a battle to make myself go to counselling all the time, there's been times it was easier to pack it in but i kept going and now i'm so glad i did.
I was a bit like you in that i'd had psychiatric help and CBT in past but i didn't really try back then. I wasn't ready to give the ED up. Now I am and it's without doubt the hardest thing i've ever done but i know the rewards will be more than worth it.
Good luck with the fight and keep it up, you can beat this. we all can.
Take care and here if you want to chat
Carly x
Posted on January 14, 2013 at 4:37 PM
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