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Ahh I am so sick of everything.
I feel so down right now and struggling with ED behaviours.
I have been bingeing without compesatory behaviours which is new for me.
I feel like leaving university but I could never answer the questions that come with it and I don't know what I would do if I did.
Everything is spinning but I can't think of a solution.
I am scared of professionals as I feel they do not understand me at all.
Hoping I can break the cycle...coming to my wits end.
Clem.
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Posted on July 30, 2012 at 7:11 PM
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Sounds like you're having a tough time just now and I can relate to the despair you're feeling at bingeing without using compensatory measures. It is a good thing that you're not but I know it doesn't feel that way.
The best thing you can do in terms of eating, is to get back on track with having sensible meals at regular intervals because if you try to cut back to 'make up for bingeing' another binge inevitable. I know its much easier said than done but its worth persevering. Every time you fall off the wagon so to speak you need to get straight back on track with regular eating and over time it will become easier.
I have suffered from anorexia, bulimia and BED for the last 12 years and I really thought I would never be able to eat 'normally'. I still have days where I binge but the majority of the time I stick to a healthy eating plan with 3 meals and 3 snacks. And when I do binge I am much less devastated by it and I am able to get straight back on track. Its still a battle because the thoughts don't just go away but I feel much more in control now and feel I am well on my way in recovery.
Don't give up hope, you will get there. I know it doesn't feel like it but it's possible to get better. You've got to keep belieiving that you can and will recover. I believe in you
You said you don't have much trust in 'professionals'. I don't know if you've had a bad experience or have not been taken seriously but I would encourage you to seek help. If you don't feel comfortable talking to your own GP then consider going to a different one. There is help available and although only you can make the changes, everyone needs support and its much easier to get better with proper help.
I hope things start to feel a bit brighter soon.
Take care of yourself x
Posted on July 31, 2012 at 12:27 PM
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re: Sick and tired
Hey,
Hang in on there. Anything is possible.
A couple of years back I too was about to drop out of uni but did not want the necessary and awkward questions. In my last year at uni there was discussions with HOD's, tutors, academic tutors (in higher positions than HOD's) about me leaving uni and having a break as things got too much. My last year. I fought against them and set out to prove that I could stay well and carry on with university and they did everything they could to support me through this even though I knew they would have prefered me to have left. I suceeded but only with my tutors support and help of the university. It meant numerous of meetings and lots of honesty on my part and this opened up the path for me to cry. I walked across the stage at graduation and received my certificate from the academic tutor higher than HOD and she truely ment it when she said well done.
On my graduation I never looked as healthy or as happy as I had been throughout my uni years and before...so much so my tutors and lecturers did not recognise me until my name was called out. They honestly thought I was a student that had defied all bounderies by never turning up to uni for the whole four years....can you imagine their relief to realise that it was me. lol.
I could not have done all this without professional support though. I had to trust my psychs and this was immensely difficult for me. I was scared of them and they did not get much out of me and wondered what I was doing there. It was not until I opened up that they began to sit up and notice, they began to understand.
What I am trying to say is that the cycle can be broken. There is hope and I know you can get there.
CS
xxxx
Posted on July 31, 2012 at 2:12 PM
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