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Last May I was admitted into hospital, I had anorexia.. Because of being forced to eat during those 2 and a half weeks I found it easier to start eating again, once I was out I was eating regularly and my weight soon became 'normal' again. But it wasn't as easy as that, every time I eat I feel guilty and I have to admit that many times I have tried to stop eating again. The trouble is that more and more frequently I have started to binge, which makes it even worse! I am not sure why I am writing this, but I don't have anyone to talk to, I haven't told anyone! I just can't stand it anymore, my life feels empty.. I am in year 11 and I just can't concentrate at school.. Please if anyone has any advice or is going through the same thing I would really like to hear from you, I just want to be happy! My eating habits have been controlling my life for way too long!
Krissy xxx
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Posted on February 20, 2012 at 8:53 PM
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re: Binge - Restrict cycle.. I don't know what to do!
Hi Krissy,
First of all well done for realising that things are starting to get bad again and well done for admitting it as that is the first step to recovery again. It is a huge step but IS the right one. I'm so proud that you got help before so don't let nothing stop you from doing the same now. The next step is telling someone as I know you can beat this! Whether it's speaking to your parents, a friend, other relatives or a teacher, you need to tell someone. I know you can. I find it easier to tell people when I need help by writing it to my parents whether in a letter or a text as it is then easier to say it rather than face to face. Just think of all of the things you will be able to do when you beat this! So make that next step and get help. I know you can!
Stay strong and remember that love is louder than the pressure to be perfect
Posted on February 23, 2012 at 12:05 PM
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re: Binge - Restrict cycle.. I don't know what to do!
Hi Krissy,
I spent the last 8 years in this cycle not knowing where or what to do about it. I dont want the 8 years to scare you because it hopefully will be different for you.
I am not going to go into the ins and outs of you starve the body hoards the food and then when you eat after starving your body tried to take in more food than it needs because it does not know when it is going to get its next lot of food. Way to stop the cycle is to eat normally and reguarly. Easy said and done which is why I am saying no more on this.
I knew what I had to do it was actually doing it that was the hardest. My ED made me feel so guilty about eating and then I was feeling guilty about not eating. My ED was stronger though and it for me was a nightmare in itself. I tried to get help but unfortunately where I live help for an ED is almost non existant if you are normal weight etc... they dont go by thoughts and feelings about food. I really hope that where you live it is different.
I now eat the recommend allowance a day so am fairly healthy from that perpesctive, although the way i take it in still is not healthy, i.e. 3 meals and 2 snacks a day. But it is a start and a step in the right direction.
As you found in the hospital having to eat helped get you into the "correct" way of eating and now you have come out it has gone a little bit wrong.
The next step is to try and keep that going. Now I know what you are probably thinking to that ... something along the lines of yes I know and I am trying and its not working ...etc... so now what.
The now what is the keeping the hospital regime up. Now you are out do you still get support from a proffessional? Because if you do this might be something that you can talk to them about as well.
Now its time to fight the thoughts. You have started fighting the actions whilst in hospital now the thoughts. The harder part.
I dont know how much support you family is to you but could you ask them to help you keep to set meal times and this includes snacks and on the days and times you are struggling you can ask them to eat with you just as a distraction.
I know for me this is whaat has helped me. It seems so simple when I type it out on here but I know that in real life it was one of the hardest things to stick to. Dont give up and if you miss a meal or you forget at a certain time dont beat yourself up. Its like taking medicine.
I hope I have not confused you.
It is not easy and by god I struggled a lot with so many different things and came up with so many excuses and that is why it took so long. I know how I work and often my health takes the back seat in my life. Which is not a good thing...Food is medicine. Its what gets you through the day and helps you sleep at night.
Keep fighting the best is yet to come.
CS
Posted on February 25, 2012 at 1:56 PM
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re: Binge - Restrict cycle
Thankyou for replying! What I really want is to just be able to eat normally again so I told my CAMHS worker.. He said I should plan out my meals, but I am not finding it too easy! I have the same problem with telling my parents stuff, I just don't think they will understand! They have put so much pressure on me to do well in my GCSEs and I feel like I am never good enough.. Telling over people probably won't work out either.. they will think that physically I am fine so I must be okaii, only if life was so simple!
Thankyou again x
Posted on February 26, 2012 at 10:09 PM
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