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re: Izzy Hi Izzy, I aced for CBT as need something to help me control negative thoughts and OCD with my body which seems to have escalated! I said to my boss the other day that I think I have OCD and he said he could have told me that years ago hehe. Will have to go on a waiting list though so not sure when it will start. Have somehow managed to keep up with eating well although it was difficult when at first. It's really good that you're feeling loads better now - how is your eating going? How awful is this weather again - typical Easter weather. Had my car washed and valeted last week and it's not stopped raining since! Your clothes for christening sound lovely. My sister as asked e to ake birthday cake for my nephews second birthday next month! Mazzar, how are you feeling now? Are you any better? Have you bought any treats for yourself recently? Bunnylove, glad you're feeling better. Have you had the family get together yet? Ah well, back to watching recorded versions of The Chase and Alvin and the Chipmuns is on later - love it! Take care, lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on April 08, 2012 at 4:29 PM
re: Izzy Hi girls, sorry I haven't been on very often over last few months. I had been monitoring one of my moles over last couple of years and when checked it at beginning of jan it had drastically changed. I went to the doctors who referred me to hospital - to cut a long story short it was a malignant melanoma. Had an operation on my back to remove the wider area and another mole that had been removed within that area was also cancerous- had another op and was given all clear. The nurse told me that it doesn't come back in 99.9% of cases. As you can probs imagine my head has been all over the place, especially with having to try and stay in recovery as well and the side of me that immediately skips to worst case scenario has been in overdrive. The hospital have been really supportive. Have to go every 3 months for checks. My anxiety has been all over place and I have asked to be referred to CBT as well as I really can't go on like this, always looking for something to worry and stress about. Mazzar - sorry you're on the high steroids again and are missing sitting out in the sun but after what I've been through you're probably safer inside! Hope you start to feel better soon. Izzy, how are you doing? Did you manage to go for a swim with your little one and your mummy friends? Have you got all your new summery clothes as well? I went to see my little nephew last weekend and bought myself another lovely short dress for over my leggings - I loventhe 60s styles that are out now. Bunnylove - that's good that your family went to see you in the play and that you have all started to see each other more regularly, it must be making you feel a lot happier. Hope you are all ok - make sure you slap the high factor sun tan lotion on - not that I'm paranoid haha Lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on March 30, 2012 at 2:17 PM
re: Izzy Hi girls! Izzy I'm so proud of you for speaking to your mum - I know how hard it was for you and how brave are you for going to the baby group. my sister has been taking my nephew to a soft play one every week for ages now and loves meeting up with the other mum's for breakfast there - I'm going later this week and have been told I'm on slide duty hehe. It will do you the world of good having adult conversation and I'm also really proud of you for going swimming. A friend of mine has offered to go swimming with me so think I'm going to go in a couple of weeks - just had my roots done so don't want a brown streak following me in the water! i bet you'll feel like you've never been away from teaching after a couple of hours - I can't wait for you to start back to hear all the stories. How excting about the wedding and christening as well - you're going to be busy so make sure you keep your strength up. I hope you're going to have us as honorary godmothers hehe. Mazzar - hope you feel loads better with the reduced steroids as you deserve to get your health back - have you done any shopping yet? I went at the weekend and bought 3 new dresses to wear with leggings, a new pair of leggings, new foundation, new scarf and new shoes hehe. Its not long now is it until your daughter starts hairdressing? Bunnylove, hope you're doing ok - I need to do some planting and cut my grass but haven't mustered up the enthusiasm yet - I hate cutting grass so much - its the only thing i hate about the warm weather. I'm going to my sisters for a long weekend, its my mum and dads golden wedding anniversary so we are going out for a family meal which i'm really looking forward to. Me and my sister have been putting a hamper together with photos and food, Take care, lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on March 20, 2012 at 7:05 PM
re: Izzy Hi girls! Izzy I'm so proud of you for speaking to your mum - I know how hard it was for you and how brave are you for going to the baby group. my sister has been taking my nephew to a soft play one every week for ages now and loves meeting up with the other mum's for breakfast there - I'm going later this week and have been told I'm on slide duty hehe. It will do you the world of good having adult conversation and I'm also really proud of you for going swimming. A friend of mine has offered to go swimming with me at the gym so think I'm going to go in a couple of weeks - just had my roots done so don't want a brown streak following me in the water! i bet you'll feel like you've never been away from teaching after a couple of hours - I can't wait for you to start back to hear all the stories. How excting about the wedding and christening as well - you're going to be busy so make sure you keep your strength up. hope you're going to have us as honorary godmothers hehe. Mazzar - hope you feel loads better with the reduced steroids as you deserve to get your health back - have you done any shopping yet? I went at the weekend and bought 3 new dresses to wear with leggings, a new pair of leggings, new foundation, new scarf and new shoes hehe. Its not long now is it until your daughter starts hairdressing? Bunnylove, hope you're doing ok - I need to do some planting and cut my grass but haven't mustered up the enthusiasm yet - I hate cutting grass so much - its the only thing i hate about the warm weather. I'm going to my sisters for a long weekend, its my mum and dads golden wedding anniversary so we are going out for a family meal which i'm really looking forward to. Me and my sister have been putting a hamper together with photos and food, Take care, lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on March 20, 2012 at 6:50 PM
re: Izzy Hi Izzy, glad your daughter is sleeping for you! (still think you should tell somebody now how you've been feeling though, i know what its like trying to think you can do it on your own and that you're in control and before you know it back to square one so I will keep nagging you! Work is ok but freezing as there's always cold air blowing out of the ceiling - its warmer outside! I got a new cookery book a few weeks ago so have started making things out of that which i'm really enjoying as i know whats going in it and its all fresh healthy ingredients - also tasting different flavours which is good. so pleased you're going to go back to work in September - that will be such a milestone for you and you will finally feel like you are getting yourself back and will have your daughter to look forward to at the end of the day as well! Have you taken her into school? Just read something that says its going to get colder again over the weekend - boo! i bought a new coat last week - a black and white one. Have also seen some nice macs - i usually wear the same coat all year round so want to get a few this year - not really expensive ones though! Anyway - my little dog is wanting me to go downstairs - she sits down resting on her front paws with her bum stuck in the air - very strange but cute! take care and love you lots give your daughter a hug and a kiss from me!, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on March 02, 2012 at 10:42 AM
re: Izzy Izzy, tell the health visitor or your mum/boyfriend how you are feeling and the health visitor will help you. It doesn't mean you are a bad mother at all - like Mazzar says it is your hormones and everything else. You have to tell someone or you'll be on a downward spiral before you know it and it will be hard to get out of hun. It's good that your daughter slept better last night and that you're thinking of going back to work - all the more reason to get yourself right. You will miss her when you leave her but I'll bet you'll love having grown up conversations again! Mazzar, hope you start to feel better soon Hun, hopefully the warmer weather will be better for your lungs - sending you a big hug Happy belated birthday Bunnylove - gomto the doctors and don't worry about telling them, I'm sure they will have seen much worse! I nearly bought a new car last weekend but talked myself out of it - really wanted it and test drove it but put my sensible head on as I love my current car, its only 3 and so am going to wash it instead haha. I went to my sisters again to see my little nephew weekend before last and let my little dog sit on the seat next to me instead of in her carrier and she was really well behaved. I thought she would be trying to climb on my knee but she just sat up and lay down where she was . My little nephew is so cute now - my little dog was running round his feet and he could get past so hepointed at her and looked at me saying up up telling me to pick her up then he was shouting me from another room. Love it now that'd he knows me and my little dogs names - he's a proper little man now Speak soon and Izzy, please talk to someone - xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on February 29, 2012 at 5:14 PM
re: Izzy Izzy - you are not a bad mother hun and you need to tell your boyfriend how down you are feeling - its hard enough being a new mother as it is without also having to battle through anorexia as well. Have you told your mum how you're feeling - maybe you have a bit of post natal depression so please talk to somebody. Asking for help dies not mean you are a bad mother - it means that you are a new mother who needs a bit of support because you love your daughter more than anything and want the best for her. Have you tried something called controlled crying. My sister does it with her little one when he has a phase of not wanting to go down - usually when he is teething when he wants his mum. She gets upset with it and finds it hard but it really works for her. when he starts crying she goes into his room - don't speak or anything but put your hand on her face or pat her so she knows your there then leave the room - let her cry for a period of time, e.g 5 mins then do the same again - keep doing this but lengthen the time you leave her each time say by 5 mins and then she will eventually get the message that you're there, you love her but she needs to stay in her own bed. It will be really hard and you may go without sleep most of the night but it will work - my sister has been lucky as it usually takes less than an hour now. I know its really hard hearing them cry but babys know that it gets them attention and when she realises that she's not going to get her own way she'll settle down. You must be exhausted hun and that will make you feel 10 times worse as well, but you will get through it and we are all here to support you as well but please talk to your boyfriend and your mum because your health is important too - sending you a massive huge hug and lots of kisses, love you lots, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on February 28, 2012 at 6:16 PM
re: Izzy Hi Bunnylove, I have to disagree with you about the workplace being frightful. My work is a huge organisation across the whole of the country and there have been so many improvements even since I started working fro them 26 years ago. The senior management team and below in my area are tremendous and as an employer they do so much for you, e.g one of my friends is contracted to work a certain number of hours a week but she can work these depending on her husbands shift pattern and who needs to pick up and drop off the children from school. It is stressful for those having to move and I would have been too but at the end of the day they still have a job and have not been made redundant. Easy for me to say I know.....My bosses have been so supportive of me when I was bad with the anorexia and became friends who I could confide in. Others may think their workplaces are really bad but I'm just sticking up for mine. Hope your evening goes well entertaining and that it doesn't get too stressful for you. Have they replied to you yet? Mazzar, hope you're feeling better hun - only another 7or 8 weeks and the clocks go forward and the nights will be even lighter and the days warmer (hopefully) . Have you managed to do any internet shopping? How is your daughter getting on at school now? Izzy, hope you are managing to get more into you hun, please try not to slip back too much as it's harder I know. Hope you're managing ok without your partner and getting help from your mum and sister? I'm going down to my sisters again at the end of the month so looking forward to seeing my little nephew Take care and lots of love and hugs, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on February 07, 2012 at 5:27 PM
re: Izzy Hi girls, I went out for meal at lunchtime with my friends and really enjoyed it and didn't feel stressed either . Work is the same as ever Izzy but at least I'm not worrying whether I'm going to keep my job anymore. Some of my friends are being moved to frontline services and are stressed about it as some of the places they are being moved to are miles away as well. Mazzar, that's really fab that your daughter has been offered a place a college, you'll have a different hairstyle every other week haha. Hope your chest isn't too bad. It sounds like we've been lucky up here for a change with the weather - it's cold but it's not been freezing over in a morning like the rest of the country (apart from yesterday). Snow forecast later today though so we'll see........ Bunnylove, hope everything ok with you and that you get your assignment results soon - I used to be really impatient waiting for them. My naughty little dog has now started pinching socks out of my boots in the cupboard under the stairs and running around the house with them which isn't funny when I'm trying to take her out. Last night she wouldn't let me take her coat and lead off and was running up and downstairs shaking the lead. I think she is the most mischievous little dog in the world hehe. Hope you all stay warm and survive the weather! Lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on February 04, 2012 at 12:28 PM
re: Izzy Mazzar - glad your daughter's bullying is being addressed and hairdressing is a fab choice - she'll also be able to go mobile (hope she doesn't charge you though hehe). Hope she manages to get her apprentiship as well. Have you done any shopping lately? It was my birthday last week and i got money off my mum and dad so bought a wireless printer with it that was in the sales and i got a box of Lush products from my sister, her hubby and my little nephew so will have lovely baths for the next month or so. Hope you're chest is still feeling ok as well - its gone really cold again up here. Bunnylove - well done for getting your assignment submitted - I always remember what a relief it was to send them in and then I just wanted the results back straighaway hehe. Finger crossed you'll get a good mark but you seem to be getting a lot out of it as well which is good take care, lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on January 29, 2012 at 7:13 PM
re: Izzy Hi girls - thought I'd posted a message last week and it never went through! Mazzar, really sorry to hear about your daughters problems at school - hope they have responded to your letter and that it gets sorted out quickly hun. How are you feeling? Izzy, I took a leaf out of your book - I went down to stay with my sister again last week and we had a couple of take outs which I really enjoyed. Food I hadn't eaten for years and didn't feel half as anxious as I thought I would. It's my birthday this week so I've arranged to go out with my friends for a meal at lunchtime next week after payday - again, another first . How is your little daughter and my niece doing? Glad you're getting int a routine but worried about you losing weight - make sure you take time out for yourself hun as you want to have the energy to be there for her as well. By the way I got my job which was a huge relief! Bunnylove, hope you're getting there with your assignment - I know what its like with the OU and how much additional pressure I put on myself as well, make sure you take your me time as well. Take care and lots of love Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on January 24, 2012 at 10:23 PM
re: Izzy Hi Izzy, no I don't watch one born every minute but my friends do and my sister! I've come down to see my little nephew again this weekend and am going shopping with my sister as I've sold my old * so have money that I don't feel guilty about spending! Mazzar, sorry to hear your daughter has been bullied, hope it gets sorted out soon and that she can at least settle down again until may. How are you feeling? Are you any better? Find out about my job next week so fingers crossed! Off to get ready for shopping now - it's freezing today! Love you lots, take care, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on January 14, 2012 at 11:27 AM
re: Izzy Happy New Year! My man flu is a lot better now - just in time for going back to work tomorrow booo! Dreading getting up at 6am as have been having lie ins for the last 3 weeks! Izzy, well done for suggesting takeaway at new year - even though I'm just at healthy weight you sound a lot further on than me and you also sound really positive and happy which will obviously be picked up by your daughter! Mazzar, I hope you sort things out with your daughter going to school soon so that you have one less thing to worry about. How is your asthma? I hope you've managed to avoid this man flu! Ah well, going to try and relax before work tomorrow - it's like first day back at school hehe. Going to watch Bridget Jones, wash my hair then give Dancing on Ice a go. Love you lots and sending big hugs, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on January 08, 2012 at 3:12 PM
re: Izzy Hi Mazzar, glad you enjoyed your break but boo to the washing and ironing - I too have that! Had a lovely time with my nephew and me and my sister spent all our money off mum and dad in the sales! I got a watch, ring, dress and trousers for work, a new pair of leather ankle boots with a wedge heel, a purse and long Cardigan! My sister bought me a huge bag and my nephew got me a cup with auntie Carole on it and a calendar with photos of himself. Have you managed to go shopping yet? Lots of love and hugs, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Posted on December 29, 2011 at 7:35 PM
re: Izzy Hi Bunnylove, sorry about your daughters contract. Maybe she could go to the Jobcentre to see what she is entitled to whilst looking for another job rather than having to rely on you and your husband? Your Bunny is a strong little character . I'v fallen victim to a heavy cold which brings sinusitis so really tired today. Have to keep eating regularly though - I can't et myself slip. Ps am not a young professional - I'm 45 haha Carole Posted on December 29, 2011 at 6:27 PM
re: Izzy Hi Bunnylove, sorry to hear your daughters contract might not be renewed - it is worrying times for every at the moment. I'm back home now and in my comfort zone again - it was lovely seeing my family, especially my little nephew as living do far away I don't get to see him lots. Can't your daughter to avoid ringing you at certain times so that you can get your assignment done? Hope you had a nice Christmas Carole Posted on December 28, 2011 at 12:36 PM
re: Does anyone remember me????????????? Hi Em - hope you managed to get through it ok? I had a nice time as my little nephew is now walking and trying to talk and I haven't seen him for a few months so he was a good distraction. I have been eating normally for the last few months but have over eaten in the 5 days that I stayed with my sister and have not been to the gym whilst at my sisters as she lives three and a half hours away from me. Constantly fighting the voice in my head telling me that I'm bad for eating. Anyway, back home now How are you doing anyway? Did you manage to see your mum? Carole xx Posted on December 27, 2011 at 7:53 PM
re: Does anyone remember me????????????? Hi Em, of course I remember you, and I always check for post from you! How are you doing? I'm at my sisters for Christmas - have put weight on and trying to come to terms with that. Have you got anything planned? I know I always findit harder at this time of year. It's good to hear from you take care, Carole xx Posted on December 23, 2011 at 10:03 AM
re: 27, unsure of recovery Hi, glad you're going to seek help with doctor - you're doing the right thing and hopefully you will get nutritional help. I'm 45 now - ! And only admitted I had a problem five years ago. Was only entitled to six months ED therapy and am now on 18 month waiting list for psychotherapy. I imagine that eds are much better to treat the sooner the better. I've had mine since I was 17 and the behaviours have become embedded in me now Hope everything goes ok for you and that Christmas is as good as it can be x Posted on December 23, 2011 at 9:58 AM
re: Izzy Mazzar your outfit for Xmas day sounds lovely - you certainly making up for lost time with your shopping haha. I can't wait to go to the sales on boxing day to spend my Xmas money with my sister! Arrived yesterday afternoon and my little nephew can say mine and my little dogs name - sounds very cute hehe. First words from my dad - you'veput weight in and look well. I know i've put weight on but hard to hear . Hope you have a lovely Christmas at your sisters house - your big red bag sounds lush for carrying your oxygen in - I bet yours is the most glammed up oxygen ever hehe Izzy, hope you have a lovely first Christmas with your little daughter - I bet she's spoilt rotten hehe. Let us know what you get as well. My little nephew keeps saying my little dogs name and she keeps running over his legs and making him laugh. She also pinched one of his teddys hehe Lots of love and hugs, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Bunny love, hope you have a lovely christmas and your bunny stays well Posted on December 23, 2011 at 9:47 AM

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re: Izzy

Hi Izzy, I aced for CBT as need something to help me control negative thoughts and OCD with my body which seems to have escalated! I said to my boss the other day that I think I have OCD and he said he could have told me that years ago hehe. Will have to go on a waiting list though so not sure when it will start. Have somehow managed to keep up with eating well although it was difficult when at first. It's really good that you're feeling loads better now - how is your eating going? How awful is this weather again - typical Easter weather. Had my car washed and valeted last week and it's not stopped raining since! Your clothes for christening sound lovely. My sister as asked e to ake birthday cake for my nephews second birthday next month!

Mazzar, how are you feeling now? Are you any better? Have you bought any treats for yourself recently?

Bunnylove, glad you're feeling better. Have you had the family get together yet?

Ah well, back to watching recorded versions of The Chase and Alvin and the Chipmuns is on later - love it!

Take care, lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on April 08, 2012 at 4:29 PM

re: Izzy

Hi girls, sorry I haven't been on very often over last few months. I had been monitoring one of my moles over last couple of years and when checked it at beginning of jan it had drastically changed. I went to the doctors who referred me to hospital - to cut a long story short it was a malignant melanoma. Had an operation on my back to remove the wider area and another mole that had been removed within that area was also cancerous- had another op and was given all clear. The nurse told me that it doesn't come back in 99.9% of cases. As you can probs imagine my head has been all over the place, especially with having to try and stay in recovery as well and the side of me that immediately skips to worst case scenario has been in overdrive. The hospital have been really supportive. Have to go every 3 months for checks. My anxiety has been all over place and I have asked to be referred to CBT as well as I really can't go on like this, always looking for something to worry and stress about.

Mazzar - sorry you're on the high steroids again and are missing sitting out in the sun but after what I've been through you're probably safer inside! Hope you start to feel better soon.

Izzy, how are you doing? Did you manage to go for a swim with your little one and your mummy friends? Have you got all your new summery clothes as well? I went to see my little nephew last weekend and bought myself another lovely short dress for over my leggings - I loventhe 60s styles that are out now.

Bunnylove - that's good that your family went to see you in the play and that you have all started to see each other more regularly, it must be making you feel a lot happier.

Hope you are all ok - make sure you slap the high factor sun tan lotion on - not that I'm paranoid haha

Lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on March 30, 2012 at 2:17 PM

re: Izzy

Hi girls! Izzy I'm so proud of you for speaking to your mum - I know how hard it was for you and how brave are you for going to the baby group. my sister has been taking my nephew to a soft play one every week for ages now and loves meeting up with the other mum's for breakfast there - I'm going later this week and have been told I'm on slide duty hehe. It will do you the world of good having adult conversation and I'm also really proud of you for going swimming. A friend of mine has offered to go swimming with me so think I'm going to go in a couple of weeks - just had my roots done so don't want a brown streak following me in the water!

i bet you'll feel like you've never been away from teaching after a couple of hours - I can't wait for you to start back to hear all the stories. How excting about the wedding and christening as well - you're going to be busy so make sure you keep your strength up. I hope you're going to have us as honorary godmothers hehe.

Mazzar - hope you feel loads better with the reduced steroids as you deserve to get your health back - have you done any shopping yet? I went at the weekend and bought 3 new dresses to wear with leggings, a new pair of leggings, new foundation, new scarf and new shoes hehe. Its not long now is it until your daughter starts hairdressing?

Bunnylove, hope you're doing ok - I need to do some planting and cut my grass but haven't mustered up the enthusiasm yet - I hate cutting grass so much - its the only thing i hate about the warm weather.

I'm going to my sisters for a long weekend, its my mum and dads golden wedding anniversary so we are going out for a family meal which i'm really looking forward to. Me and my sister have been putting a hamper together with photos and food,

Take care, lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on March 20, 2012 at 7:05 PM

re: Izzy

Hi girls! Izzy I'm so proud of you for speaking to your mum - I know how hard it was for you and how brave are you for going to the baby group. my sister has been taking my nephew to a soft play one every week for ages now and loves meeting up with the other mum's for breakfast there - I'm going later this week and have been told I'm on slide duty hehe. It will do you the world of good having adult conversation and I'm also really proud of you for going swimming. A friend of mine has offered to go swimming with me at the gym so think I'm going to go in a couple of weeks - just had my roots done so don't want a brown streak following me in the water!

i bet you'll feel like you've never been away from teaching after a couple of hours - I can't wait for you to start back to hear all the stories. How excting about the wedding and christening as well - you're going to be busy so make sure you keep your strength up. hope you're going to have us as honorary godmothers hehe.

Mazzar - hope you feel loads better with the reduced steroids as you deserve to get your health back - have you done any shopping yet? I went at the weekend and bought 3 new dresses to wear with leggings, a new pair of leggings, new foundation, new scarf and new shoes hehe. Its not long now is it until your daughter starts hairdressing?

Bunnylove, hope you're doing ok - I need to do some planting and cut my grass but haven't mustered up the enthusiasm yet - I hate cutting grass so much - its the only thing i hate about the warm weather.

I'm going to my sisters for a long weekend, its my mum and dads golden wedding anniversary so we are going out for a family meal which i'm really looking forward to. Me and my sister have been putting a hamper together with photos and food,

Take care, lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on March 20, 2012 at 6:50 PM

re: Izzy

Hi Izzy, glad your daughter is sleeping for you! (still think you should tell somebody now how you've been feeling though, i know what its like trying to think you can do it on your own and that you're in control and before you know it back to square one so I will keep nagging you! Work is ok but freezing as there's always cold air blowing out of the ceiling - its warmer outside! I got a new cookery book a few weeks ago so have started making things out of that which i'm really enjoying as i know whats going in it and its all fresh healthy ingredients - also tasting different flavours which is good.

so pleased you're going to go back to work in September - that will be such a milestone for you and you will finally feel like you are getting yourself back and will have your daughter to look forward to at the end of the day as well! Have you taken her into school?

Just read something that says its going to get colder again over the weekend - boo! i bought a new coat last week - a black and white one. Have also seen some nice macs - i usually wear the same coat all year round so want to get a few this year - not really expensive ones though!

Anyway - my little dog is wanting me to go downstairs - she sits down resting on her front paws with her bum stuck in the air - very strange but cute!

take care and love you lots give your daughter a hug and a kiss from me!, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on March 02, 2012 at 10:42 AM

re: Izzy

Izzy, tell the health visitor or your mum/boyfriend how you are feeling and the health visitor will help you. It doesn't mean you are a bad mother at all - like Mazzar says it is your hormones and everything else. You have to tell someone or you'll be on a downward spiral before you know it and it will be hard to get out of hun. It's good that your daughter slept better last night and that you're thinking of going back to work - all the more reason to get yourself right. You will miss her when you leave her but I'll bet you'll love having grown up conversations again!

Mazzar, hope you start to feel better soon Hun, hopefully the warmer weather will be better for your lungs - sending you a big hug

Happy belated birthday Bunnylove - gomto the doctors and don't worry about telling them,

I'm sure they will have seen much worse!

I nearly bought a new car last weekend but talked myself out of it - really wanted it and test drove it but put my sensible head on as I love my current car, its only 3 and so am going to wash it instead haha. I went to my sisters again to see my little nephew weekend before last and let my little dog sit on the seat next to me instead of in her carrier and she was really well behaved. I thought she would be trying to climb on my knee but she just sat up and lay down where she was . My little nephew is so cute now - my little dog was running round his feet and he could get past so hepointed at her and looked at me saying up up telling me to pick her up then he was shouting me from another room. Love it now that'd he knows me and my little dogs names - he's a proper little man now

Speak soon and Izzy, please talk to someone - xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on February 29, 2012 at 5:14 PM

re: Izzy

Izzy - you are not a bad mother hun and you need to tell your boyfriend how down you are feeling - its hard enough being a new mother as it is without also having to battle through anorexia as well. Have you told your mum how you're feeling - maybe you have a bit of post natal depression so please talk to somebody. Asking for help dies not mean you are a bad mother - it means that you are a new mother who needs a bit of support because you love your daughter more than anything and want the best for her. Have you tried something called controlled crying. My sister does it with her little one when he has a phase of not wanting to go down - usually when he is teething when he wants his mum. She gets upset with it and finds it hard but it really works for her. when he starts crying she goes into his room - don't speak or anything but put your hand on her face or pat her so she knows your there then leave the room - let her cry for a period of time, e.g 5 mins then do the same again - keep doing this but lengthen the time you leave her each time say by 5 mins and then she will eventually get the message that you're there, you love her but she needs to stay in her own bed. It will be really hard and you may go without sleep most of the night but it will work - my sister has been lucky as it usually takes less than an hour now. I know its really hard hearing them cry but babys know that it gets them attention and when she realises that she's not going to get her own way she'll settle down.

You must be exhausted hun and that will make you feel 10 times worse as well, but you will get through it and we are all here to support you as well but please talk to your boyfriend and your mum because your health is important too -

sending you a massive huge hug and lots of kisses, love you lots, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on February 28, 2012 at 6:16 PM

re: Izzy

Hi Bunnylove, I have to disagree with you about the workplace being frightful. My work is a huge organisation across the whole of the country and there have been so many improvements even since I started working fro them 26 years ago. The senior management team and below in my area are tremendous and as an employer they do so much for you, e.g one of my friends is contracted to work a certain number of hours a week but she can work these depending on her husbands shift pattern and who needs to pick up and drop off the children from school. It is stressful for those having to move and I would have been too but at the end of the day they still have a job and have not been made redundant. Easy for me to say I know.....My bosses have been so supportive of me when I was bad with the anorexia and became friends who I could confide in. Others may think their workplaces are really bad but I'm just sticking up for mine.

Hope your evening goes well entertaining and that it doesn't get too stressful for you. Have they replied to you yet?

Mazzar, hope you're feeling better hun - only another 7or 8 weeks and the clocks go forward and the nights will be even lighter and the days warmer (hopefully) . Have you managed to do any internet shopping? How is your daughter getting on at school now?

Izzy, hope you are managing to get more into you hun, please try not to slip back too much as it's harder I know. Hope you're managing ok without your partner and getting help from your mum and sister? I'm going down to my sisters again at the end of the month so looking forward to seeing my little nephew

Take care and lots of love and hugs, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on February 07, 2012 at 5:27 PM

re: Izzy

Hi girls, I went out for meal at lunchtime with my friends and really enjoyed it and didn't feel stressed either smiling . Work is the same as ever Izzy but at least I'm not worrying whether I'm going to keep my job anymore. Some of my friends are being moved to frontline services and are stressed about it as some of the places they are being moved to are miles away as well.

Mazzar, that's really fab that your daughter has been offered a place a college, you'll have a different hairstyle every other week haha. Hope your chest isn't too bad. It sounds like we've been lucky up here for a change with the weather - it's cold but it's not been freezing over in a morning like the rest of the country (apart from yesterday). Snow forecast later today though so we'll see........

Bunnylove, hope everything ok with you and that you get your assignment results soon - I used to be really impatient waiting for them.

My naughty little dog has now started pinching socks out of my boots in the cupboard under the stairs and running around the house with them which isn't funny when I'm trying to take her out. Last night she wouldn't let me take her coat and lead off and was running up and downstairs shaking the lead. I think she is the most mischievous little dog in the world hehe.

Hope you all stay warm and survive the weather! Lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on February 04, 2012 at 12:28 PM

re: Izzy

Mazzar - glad your daughter's bullying is being addressed and hairdressing is a fab choice - she'll also be able to go mobile (hope she doesn't charge you though hehe). Hope she manages to get her apprentiship as well. Have you done any shopping lately? It was my birthday last week and i got money off my mum and dad so bought a wireless printer with it that was in the sales and i got a box of Lush products from my sister, her hubby and my little nephew so will have lovely baths for the next month or so. Hope you're chest is still feeling ok as well - its gone really cold again up here.

Bunnylove - well done for getting your assignment submitted - I always remember what a relief it was to send them in and then I just wanted the results back straighaway hehe. Finger crossed you'll get a good mark but you seem to be getting a lot out of it as well which is good

take care, lots of love, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on January 29, 2012 at 7:13 PM

re: Izzy

Hi girls - thought I'd posted a message last week and it never went through! Mazzar, really sorry to hear about your daughters problems at school - hope they have responded to your letter and that it gets sorted out quickly hun. How are you feeling?

Izzy, I took a leaf out of your book - I went down to stay with my sister again last week and we had a couple of take outs which I really enjoyed. Food I hadn't eaten for years and didn't feel half as anxious as I thought I would. It's my birthday this week so I've arranged to go out with my friends for a meal at lunchtime next week after payday - again, another first . How is your little daughter and my niece doing? Glad you're getting int a routine but worried about you losing weight - make sure you take time out for yourself hun as you want to have the energy to be there for her as well. By the way I got my job which was a huge relief!

Bunnylove, hope you're getting there with your assignment - I know what its like with the OU and how much additional pressure I put on myself as well, make sure you take your me time as well.

Take care and lots of love Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on January 24, 2012 at 10:23 PM

re: Izzy

Hi Izzy, no I don't watch one born every minute but my friends do and my sister! I've come down to see my little nephew again this weekend and am going shopping with my sister as I've sold my old * so have money that I don't feel guilty about spending!

Mazzar, sorry to hear your daughter has been bullied, hope it gets sorted out soon and that she can at least settle down again until may. How are you feeling? Are you any better?

Find out about my job next week so fingers crossed! Off to get ready for shopping now - it's freezing today! Love you lots, take care, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on January 14, 2012 at 11:27 AM

re: Izzy

Happy New Year! My man flu is a lot better now - just in time for going back to work tomorrow booo! Dreading getting up at 6am as have been having lie ins for the last 3 weeks!

Izzy, well done for suggesting takeaway at new year - even though I'm just at healthy weight you sound a lot further on than me and you also sound really positive and happy which will obviously be picked up by your daughter! Mazzar, I hope you sort things out with your daughter going to school soon so that you have one less thing to worry about. How is your asthma? I hope you've managed to avoid this man flu!

Ah well, going to try and relax before work tomorrow - it's like first day back at school hehe. Going to watch Bridget Jones, wash my hair then give Dancing on Ice a go.

Love you lots and sending big hugs, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on January 08, 2012 at 3:12 PM

re: Izzy

Hi Mazzar, glad you enjoyed your break but boo to the washing and ironing - I too have that! Had a lovely time with my nephew and me and my sister spent all our money off mum and dad in the sales! I got a watch, ring, dress and trousers for work, a new pair of leather ankle boots with a wedge heel, a purse and long Cardigan! My sister bought me a huge bag and my nephew got me a cup with auntie Carole on it and a calendar with photos of himself. Have you managed to go shopping yet? Lots of love and hugs, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Posted on December 29, 2011 at 7:35 PM

re: Izzy

Hi Bunnylove,
sorry about your daughters contract. Maybe she could go to the Jobcentre to see what she is entitled to whilst looking for another job rather than having to rely on you and your husband? Your Bunny is a strong little character .

I'v fallen victim to a heavy cold which brings sinusitis so really tired today. Have to keep eating regularly though - I can't et myself slip. Ps am not a young professional - I'm 45 haha

Carole

Posted on December 29, 2011 at 6:27 PM

re: Izzy

Hi Bunnylove, sorry to hear your daughters contract might not be renewed - it is worrying times for every at the moment. I'm back home now and in my comfort zone again - it was lovely seeing my family, especially my little nephew as living do far away I don't get to see him lots. Can't your daughter to avoid ringing you at certain times so that you can get your assignment done?

Hope you had a nice Christmas

Carole

Posted on December 28, 2011 at 12:36 PM

re: Does anyone remember me?????????????

Hi Em - hope you managed to get through it ok? I had a nice time as my little nephew is now walking and trying to talk and I haven't seen him for a few months so he was a good distraction. I have been eating normally for the last few months but have over eaten in the 5 days that I stayed with my sister and have not been to the gym whilst at my sisters as she lives three and a half hours away from me. Constantly fighting the voice in my head telling me that I'm bad for eating. Anyway, back home now

How are you doing anyway? Did you manage to see your mum?

Carole xx

Posted on December 27, 2011 at 7:53 PM

re: Does anyone remember me?????????????

Hi Em, of course I remember you, and I always check for post from you! How are you doing? I'm at my sisters for Christmas - have put weight on and trying to come to terms with that. Have you got anything planned? I know I always findit harder at this time of year.

It's good to hear from you take care, Carole xx

Posted on December 23, 2011 at 10:03 AM

re: 27, unsure of recovery

Hi, glad you're going to seek help with doctor - you're doing the right thing and hopefully you will get nutritional help. I'm 45 now - ! And only admitted I had a problem five years ago. Was only entitled to six months ED therapy and am now on 18 month waiting list for psychotherapy. I imagine that eds are much better to treat the sooner the better. I've had mine since I was 17 and the behaviours have become embedded in me now

Hope everything goes ok for you and that Christmas is as good as it can be x

Posted on December 23, 2011 at 9:58 AM

re: Izzy

Mazzar your outfit for Xmas day sounds lovely - you certainly making up for lost time with your shopping haha. I can't wait to go to the sales on boxing day to spend my Xmas money with my sister! Arrived yesterday afternoon and my little nephew can say mine and my little dogs name - sounds very cute hehe. First words from my dad - you'veput weight in and look well. I know i've put weight on but hard to hear . Hope you have a lovely Christmas at your sisters house - your big red bag sounds lush for carrying your oxygen in - I bet yours is the most glammed up oxygen ever hehe

Izzy, hope you have a lovely first Christmas with your little daughter - I bet she's spoilt rotten hehe. Let us know what you get as well. My little nephew keeps saying my little dogs name and she keeps running over his legs and making him laugh. She also pinched one of his teddys hehe

Lots of love and hugs, Carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Bunny love, hope you have a lovely christmas and your bunny stays well

Posted on December 23, 2011 at 9:47 AM