lou82

no help has worked!!

well where to start, all new to me this, im quite pessimistic iv had this ED bout 20yrs im nearly 30!!



i have binge purge, but im a healthy weight, i no how to eat right an all that, but wen i get in to that cycle of binge/purge my weight creeps up (so ud think i wouldnt do it? ) i dont understand myself, iv had help in past tried to blame my "inner child" an all that text book jargon medication, hypnotherapy disks etc!, 1 thing i no if i feel restricted and have to stick to summit i will binge/purge,i its just trying to figure out the root of it stress?, unhappy? unforfilled? ...pft dunno i dont feel any of them!



im not sure if to tell a friend? what can they do? watch my every move have done in the past! like there suspicious when we go out for lunch?? i dont no if i can deal with that again!



not going to a b-eat meeting over here the area is soo small il bound to no sum1, as u can see iv tried everything!!







so you can see why im pessimistic.







i dont want to be 40 and still in this mess!







magic cure any1? x