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University advice needed please!

Hello everyone! I'm new to this website, so I'm very sorry if I am posting in the wrong place. I need a bit of advice, so here is my problem


Following recieving my A-Level results a couple of days ago (I'm 18, if anyone wants to know) I have been given a place at University to study English and American Literature, which I have been dreaming about all year - the course looks great, and I love the university. However, I have also started seeing people about my anorexia, and this is where the problem begins.


I have a bit of a problem regarding my weight, but nothing enough to get me put in hospital. I would guess though my 'disordered eating' has been going on a few years though, but because of my depression and anxiety this has kind of been put in the shadow. Now I have started seeing someone about it though, he seems to be trying to steer me away from going to university. At the moment, though, they haven't put any sort of policy into action regarding this.


Anyway, I really really want to go to university. I am so isolated at home, because I have no friends , and don't really get out much. University would be a chance for me to get out and finally make a better change for myself - plus, English Literature may be the one thing in my life (other than my family) that I actually love more than food (which I spend much much too much time thinking about). So, in other words, I think having the opportunity to focus of Literature instead of disordered thoughts and behaviours.


Final part of the problem to consider is my family, who I feel so guilty for because I have been in and out of hospital for treatment with depression and anxiety for well over two years now. Very stressful for them, considering my Dad has absolutely no knowledge of mental illnesses and so is totally out of his depth, I have such lovely parents,


If I go, I could get worse and end up causing more of a mess than there is now. If I stay, I may put more pressure on my family, which really isn't at all fair on them. I really want to go, . I can defer my place until next year, but I can't bear the thought of being stuck at home isolated for another year. I would do some courses at college probably to occupy myself (I have to be doing something, as being idle makes me much worse), but I just want to be a normal person and go to university. I personally think it would be better, but other people seem to disagree.

I just want to move on and get on with life. To go or not to go?



Thank you.