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re: V old member but new post

Hi both

Hope your all ok?

Adele - Hope your shoulders getting better have you managed to get out for a ride? It has been hard with the doctor situation, I've cancelled two appointments with a new doctor coz I cant face explaining all to a new person again, I know they have medical notes so they'll know whats been going on but it takes me ages to trust people and I just cant face it at the minute. I've just got an appointment through to start therapy next week surprised its far quicker than I expected, i expected another year long waiting list.

Im doing a drama degree at the minute I finish my second year in May. I took a massive gap in education and went back studying when I was 24 What do you do as work? Do you enjoy it? Other than your GP do you see anyone else such as a counsellor/therapist etc

Hi Bethan

I totally understand about being scared about uni I was older when I went back to uni so I never did the whole living in halls thing but i was so much older than everyone on my course it took me a while to settle in. What are you going to be studying? With regards to the self catering thing - if you didnt go self catered would it help you knowing you have set meals and meal times or would it make you panic more? Would you feel comfortable cooking for yourself? I know with me I find it easier when people make food for me, I never make food for myself it just never seems to be a priority in my day to day life.

Thinking of you both

Hugs, Lucy Xx

Posted on February 26, 2013 at 3:32 PM


Ouch a broken shoulder, I cant even begin to imagine how painful that must be how did you do that? How long is it going to take before you can work/ride again? Is there anything you can do in the meantime to keep busy (without hurting your shoulder more of course)

I had CBT a few years ago with the eating disorder service in my area I found it helped but not really long term as old habits are just easy to fall back into. I've been seeing a counsellor at uni for over a year now on and off and she has helped more than anyone else i've ever seen I think its because shes not target driven and seems to understand what I'm saying (if she doesnt shes a good lier lol)

I just hate waiting around I understand theres waiting lists but It just seems like if you look ok they seem to leave you as long as possible regardless of how rubbish you feel. Plus i've just found out the doctor I have been seeing every couple of weeks has resigned and left the surgery!!!

Are you still getting some help at the minute? Do you have friends you can talk to about things

Sending lots of hugs

Love Lucy Xx

Posted on February 15, 2013 at 7:17 PM

re: Advanced CRB and mental health?

Hi Hayley

I recently had an advanced CRB and didn't have to tell them anything about my own issues. Nor did it come back with anything about my own health. The point of a CRB as you know is to look at your criminal background. The only time I've ever had to disclose any health information is on an occupational health questionnaire.

Good luck with your application and job Xx

Posted on February 12, 2013 at 5:56 PM

re: V old member but new post

Hi Adele

Yes I remember you how are you??

The psycologist went....... erm a bit disapointing. She was really nice and she seemed to understand exactly where I was coming from and how I felt, she said she was worried about me yet after the assesment she said there was now another waiting list to start therapy. I seen a CBT therapist in December who said I was "to complex for her " I just feel like im waiting and on edge all the time for someone to help me yet nothing seems to be happening

How have you been doing recently??

Love Lucy Xx

Posted on February 11, 2013 at 1:20 PM

re: Lost and hopeless

Hi everyone

Thank you so much for your replys, its such a nice feeling to see people have taken the time to reply and it means so much.

How are you all doing? Its a horrible feeling waiting for something and Countyboy I totally understand the good and bad days, recently im having more bad than good and I'm so fed up

Its so hard to ask for help and i feel that Im just being passed around from one person to another, Caitlin what you said about wrting things down, the psycologist suggested I keep a mood diary as I find it really hard to say things outloud therefore find it hard to speak to people about how im feeling so I will defo try this.

Have any of you had any kind of therapy/help in the past? I had CBT for bulimia about 18 months ago but found it didnt really help long term I've been referred for level 4 therapy who knows what this entails???!!!

As you said Sunny we all need to stick together and I'm here for you all not guranteeing i'll be much good at times lol but at least I understand how hard life can be.

Love Lucy Xx

Posted on February 11, 2013 at 1:15 PM

Lost and hopeless

Hi everyone

I used to post a lot on the boards quite a while ago but haven't done so for a very long time. I have suffered with bulimia on and off since I was about 18 (I'm now 25) I have also had episodes of self harm and depression.

I was referred to a psychological service in December 2011 and due to waiting lists/being put on the wrong waiting list it was December 2012 before I got to see anyone. It was then decided I should be seeing someone at a higher level. So after tooing and froing for over a year I went to see a clinical psychologist on Monday. Here was me finally thinking that this was the start of something new to help, however we talked for about an hour about the "problems" I had she said that yes I was at the right level and there was now another waiting list to access the psychological therapy I needed. Yet more waiting lists!!!! I'm

So fed up and tired of feeling like this, like no1 cares, like I have no1 who understands and I'm ready to just give it all up

I'm really struggling with ana/Mia thoughts and every single day I'm struggling to see a point.

I'm sorry this is a bit of a feeling sorry for myself post but I just don't know what to do anymore life is just too hard

Love Lucy Xx

Posted on February 06, 2013 at 1:42 PM

V old member but new post

Hey I haven't posted in a long long time I used to post quite regular about 2 years ago but stopped and just stuck to reading instead. I'm really struggling at the minute not just with food but with everything I'm going seeing a "clinical psychologist" on Monday and I'm scared. Anyone to talk up would be much appreciated smiling Xx

Posted on January 19, 2013 at 11:15 PM

re: Not coping :'-(

Hi Bluenose

I hope you remember me?? I haven't posted on the walls for such a long time but when I seem your post I had to write back just to let you know your not alone.

I know how your feeling and I'm thinking of you. Sorry this isn't a more productive email but I don't wanna be someone who offers advice I just wanna let you know I'm here if you need me

Love Lucy Xxx

Posted on January 02, 2013 at 8:26 PM

re: A little bit lost and no-one to talk to :-/

Hey CS

Im sorry friday was hard for you sending massive hugs your way The last week of uni was so stressful for some reason my course has about 5 different things due in all in the final few days, I live with my b/f so I stay at home and travel to uni as its not to far away, I went back to uni at 24 so thought I was a bit to old for the whole living in halls thing lol being busy at uni seemed to take the focus off my eating issues but now i'm not really doing anything old habits have returned.

Not really had a good few days I've seen my GP twice this week the first one was really nice and the second was so patronising she used words like "we can try and fix you" (I didnt know I was broken) and seemed to just concentrate on me telling my bf all about things going on in my head, something which I've always struggled with. Like you Ive had therapy for things other than the eating issues but are defo linked.

How are you these past few days? How is private therapy is it much different to NHS

Take Care Xxx

Posted on May 19, 2012 at 12:12 PM

re: A little bit lost and no-one to talk to :-/

Hello CS

Im sorry Friday was hard for you too sending hugs your way (((((

Posted on May 18, 2012 at 1:55 PM

re: A little bit lost and no-one to talk to :-/

Hey CS

Sorry for the delayed reply I'm at university and I finish for the year on Friday so been mad mad busy trying to get all my work in on time. I suppose its been a bit of a nice distraction from everything else that's been going on in my life as I haven't had time to sit down and think like I usually do. Things are still the same for me just seem to be going along each day not really knowing what i'm doing awkward

How are you? Do you mind me asking are you receiving any treatment/help at the minute or in the past?

Take Care xxx

Posted on May 08, 2012 at 9:40 PM

re: A little bit lost and no-one to talk to :-/

Hey CS

Thank you for your reply it really means a lot. Life just seems a bit of a mess at the minute - I feel like i've tried so hard to sort my life out and its like I'm just not trying hard enough sad I just dont know where to go or what to do next.

How are you??

Love Lucy xx

Posted on May 01, 2012 at 4:06 PM

re: A little bit lost and no-one to talk to :-/

I'm sorry when I re-read the above post it has been edited loads and just does not make sense :@

I just feel let down and I dont know where to go from here. Is life always going to be this mentally difficult


Posted on May 01, 2012 at 2:00 PM

re: Falling apart

The message above hasn't come through properly I dont know if its just my computer but it looks like I just ended it at (((((((( but I didnt awkward

Thinking of you bluenose (((((((

Posted on April 30, 2012 at 3:24 PM

Hugs xxxx


I just wanted to send massive hugs your way ((((((((((

Posted on April 30, 2012 at 3:13 PM

A little bit lost and no-one to talk to :-/

Hi everyone

Basically as the title says at the minute I feel like I've come to a block in the road and I don't know what to do, where to turn or who to talk to.

Just before Xmas last year (the Christmas just gone) the crisis team from my local PCT came to see me after a referral from my doctor anyway after a lot of talking to them about what had been going on they mentioned that instead of focussing on the eating side of things maybe I should get some help with the feelings of being down (I don't think I've fully accepted the depression title yet) anyway they referred to me to the psychological services in my area.

After three months of waiting I finally got to see someone who I thought would help me sort my life out but...... she rung me yesterday to say she thinks I should go to counselling for something that happened to me two years ago and to talk about that first rather than for them to help me.

I'm sorry for waffling I hope your all ok

Take Care Lucy xxx

Posted on April 30, 2012 at 3:09 PM

re: facing a major blip :( please help..


I just wanted to say I know how you feel, I was receiving CBT in December for eating issues however I had to stop coz my mood was so low I couldn't mentally cope with sorting the eating issues out when I felt so down all the time

I just wanted to let you know your not alone in feeling like this I do agree they come hand in hand I couldnt sort out the eating issues when my mood was so low but when I tend to eat more my mood seems better :S its just a vicious circle

Hope your ok and here if you want to talk anytime

Love Lucy xx

Posted on April 23, 2012 at 2:38 PM

re: Hi


Oh Bluenose it was so nice to see your name when I seen the reply. How are you doing? I hope your ok

Things with me are up and down some days are ok some days not so much, I'm not seeing the ED service any more I stopped just before Xmas coz things personally were really hard for me and couldn't cope with it all but I've been referred to see a psychologist in a separate service so I'm just waiting for that which I'm a bit nervous about beginning to explain my whole life story to yet another new person expressionless

I know you were struggling last time I spoke to you how are things now? how is your family??

Thinking of you and reply when you can

Love Lucy Xxxx

Posted on April 23, 2012 at 2:32 PM


Hey Pixie

Thanks for your reply I'm sorry its took me so long to write back.

How are you doing? I'm like you I struggle to write down how I feel I've got so much going on in my mind and I feel like its all messed up like a big ball of mess lol (sorry that does not make sense)

Have you ever had any help with your eating or have you just been "going it alone"

Can I ask what kind of eating problems have you been struggling with?

Hope your ok I'm not having a good week and things just seem so messed up at the minute

Take Care

Love Lucy xxx

Posted on March 27, 2012 at 3:12 PM



I don't even know where to start right now...... So I have been away from the boards for quite a while as everything was just messed up and I just didn't have the energy to write. There's been times over the past few months that I've logged in and gone to write a message but the words just didn't seem to come out.

I don't really know what I want to say I just wanted to come and say hi to everyone including the people who became my friends Jazzie, Bluenose...... I hope your both ok?? I'm sorry I haven't been around but I have been thinking about you all.

Anyway if anyone wants a chat just about anything it'd be good to talk to people as shock horror i'm still in the messed up situation i'm always in

Love Lucy xxx

Posted on February 28, 2012 at 4:25 PM
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